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I haven't been here for a while, not many new developments.

• Sometimes I forget to journal in the morning, but I make it up during the day/all in the evening in one go, I wonder what that's about.
• I have received an unplanned but very appreciated tarot deck from my partner for our wedding anniversary. Not sure what that does to my one-per-quarter rule, I guess that was for my own purchases/planned stuff? I had the Playful Heart Tarot as my Q1 deck and the Erotic Tarot as my Q2. I have requested Tarot of the Drowning World as my Q3 birthday deck, and it's waiting in a closet somewhere. I have planned for the last one to be either the Lost Hollow Tarot or the Claude Rochias marseille, to be honest it doesn't matter which one – it's close enough to the next year that I can always reconsider the other option once this low-buy depth year is over.
• My art frenzy has subsided. Creatively, I've had a super productive April, and I managed to ride on that high through May as well. But June has been a drag, and I so wanted to finish this sketchbook up in Spring. I have maybe 5 empty spreads left and they've been empty for two weeks now. Maybe it's time to stop pushing creativity and go do something else.
• Spiritual practice kind of in shambles. A little bit. I want to go back to proper tarot journaling to get my head on straight, but there's a desire there for a New Pretty Notebook and a New Pretty Pen – I have so much ink, but all my pens have busted nibs and it's all going unused. I don't know what's more important – improvising a creative solution in line with the low-buy principles (binding something from scraps, getting all crafty, using up non-fountain pens that I have) or allowing myself the type of experience I'd actually like. Why is consumption so tangled up in everything else? And why does my autistic ass (affectionate) refuse to enjoy other writing utensils? Maybe there's a middle ground (buy pen to gain access to all the inks, make book?)

In one bigger piece of news related to the being-here-ness of depth year, and to experiencing the here-and-now through bodies, I've harnessed the power of the Internet to help me navigate my new country's of residence medical system and finally a result has manifested – I have my informed consent visit for accessing transgender care next week. Hopefully the next steps will be a bit more swift – it took 6 weeks to set this up.

And that's what's up. Stay safe in the heat, everyone.