circe

And I refuse to ever give back to you.

Sate me satisfy me quench my thirst and fill my cup. And keep doing it. Keep doing more. I am hungry and I will never be complacent. I will never stop wanting more.

You bore me. Entertain me. Dance for me. Disgust me. Evoke from me the most visceral, vile emotions. But draw me in. Make me want you. Make me full with lust. Make me hunger and crave to take over my mind and senses. Take all of me. Have all of me. All of my rapt attention. And don't you ever let go.

I'll spew out the tar sludge pouring out of my chest like expelling plaque from my arteries. A relief from the tightening in my chest from the toxins building underneath.

Ugly desire and ugly selfish lust. Ugly objectification and a disregard for the other's feelings.

I want you to be perfect for me but the moment you are I get bored and drop you. Hold my interest, but once you're everything I want it's gone. But unless you're everything I want, I don't want you. What kind of selfish limbo have I put myself in? A stubborn girl as I've always been described.

There's no shame in living a simple existence.

Maybe it's even more pathetic to fruitlessly chase greatness in misery.

Maybe it was more cruel for me to be so kind For you're left forever chasing what never was

What you want back is perfection And I know I was far from it then But it was the closest I was gonna get And though you know me as a saint You should know a girl is a person Though I wished I was greater I wanted to be your savior and all you need But I'm fallible and ugly, like everyone else I know you're inclined to object And that's exactly why What you want back Doesn't exist.

Won't you share this thrill with me?

He seems to be the most adept at handling the city's currency.

The most adept at transactional behavior.

That everything is transactional.

I want to see myself.

He's been handed all material things all his life.

Does he not know warmth? Is his old money family in the old money neighborhood cold and stifling? Does he not know unconditional love?

I want to see him.