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I'm fond of you

Chance. Happenstance. Luck. Proximity

All have to do with each other in terms of things I undervalue and thus myself.

I am a very common person in this grand world who insists on picking a partner or friend based on the grand scheme of things.

And this is why I undervalue myself. Because by judging the company of others with this standard, I judge my own to others based on the same. Every sword I yield points back to me.

I undervalue chance and proximity when people love almost wholly based on those.

If I continued to insist upon the grand scheme of things, I will definitely die alone (which, do not be mistaken, isn't something I really have too many qualms about—at least from my mind at this point of my life).

But if I were to give chance and proximity the value they are due, maybe I will give myself mine.

In connection to loyalty—well. That's just history.

it gets lonely in paradise

Fear What if it petrifies more than guides?

I know how to be obsessed. But I don't know how to love.

You'll never see me again

You fall in love with ghosts Ideas

Concepts

You don't live in the real world.

“A simple attraction that reflects right back to me So I'm not as into you as I appear to be.”

Projection.

I confused simply being appreciated with love.

I make sparks fly. I make you high. I make you happy to be mine.

Even if I don't find anyone deserving of a lifetime of this love, at least I know my love is truly desireable and beautiful.

Someone knows how it feels to be truly loved by me.