everyday write something

today ill talk about uncertainty. I am very afraid of unexpected events that have no clear conclusion

The outcome could be terrible or amazing or somewhere in the middle.

I am not good with just sitting with the discomfort. i run to work and weed. i run away from the discomfort of so much about life being unknown and enything could happen.

I dont feel safe in this world and take things to terrible outcomes in my head.

i think that a few things are happening.

1) being worried and panicked about something you don't know how it will fixed. 2) worrying as a habit. this is what you do. when one worry is gone, the new worry takes its place. this is a habit. a thinking habit.

the panic causes so much anxiety that i feel physically panicked.

unnecessary risk, surprises, all of it...

how can i become more comfortable with existing with future unknowns?