A peek into the mind of a sleep deprived software developer, husband, dad and gamer.
I've been contemplating upgrading my subscription to the Pro plan, mainly for the snap.as feature. The ability to upload photos would be great, but it is the possibility of using it to create a photo blog that has me interested.
A photo blog without the distraction of social media elements and ads seems very interesting to me. I don't want “like” buttons, or to a lesser extent comments. I just want a place to share photos. I guess what I'm really trying to do, is to find a way to stop sharing photos on Instagram and instead share photos on a place that I can control. I'm basically trying to find a way to stop wanting to use Instagram. I've been successful with quitting Facebook, but unfortunately Instagram still has a hold on me.
I don't know if it can be done with snap.as or even if there is value in doing so. If I share photos on my own photo blog, will other people even find the photos? But hold on, this thing where I say, “will other people even find it?” To me it sounds like I want people to find my photos. Why is that? Maybe so I can get likes? Sounds like I'm addicted to the likes I get on Instagram.
Part of the reason I like sharing on Instagram is because I find other people who share the same interests as me. The connection though is shallow, that is it all amounts to a “like”. What am I really getting out of that? Isn't it just some form of digital dopamine? Digital drugs? After they liked my photo, they most likely scrolled past it in less than 5 seconds. I know, because I do the same thing when I “like” other people's photos. I see the photo, I think it's nice, I double-tap to “like” it then I'm off scrolling once again to find another one to like. On and on I go like a mindless robot. Thankfully Instagram warns me when I've caught up on all the new photos on my feed, which is the main reason I tolerate Instagram's feed. When I see that warning, I somehow find the strength to stop scrolling.
When I sat down to write tonight, I didn't even know what to write. Turns out I just did a brain dump and the conclusion I'm seeing here is, I have some work to do because I'm still freaking addicted to Instagram.
This is the feeling or sensation you get when your favorite song starts playing and the music just sorts of, washes over you. For a long time I just called it “goosebumps”. The correct term it turns out, is actually “frisson”.
It made me a judgemental jerk. Why? I don't know. Maybe I didn't agree with their post? Maybe I felt belittled by their post? Maybe I felt jealous because of their post? There could be a bunch of different reasons why, but either way I think it goes back to the content I saw on my news feed. In my previous post I talked about how I was trying to rein in the content that showed up on my news feed. Well another reason for wanting to do that, was because the content that was shared on my news feed unconsciously made me judge the people that shared them. And I didn't want to be like that.
Yesterday I learned that my son was completely traumatized by watching the cinematics with Elsa in Kingdom Hearts 3. I tried to play a gameplay video of someone else playing Kingdom Hearts 3 on the Xbox One and he didn't like it at all. Elsa wasn't even on the scene, it was just Sora fighting the bad guys. Maybe it was the fact that it was on the snowy map, but my son started tearing up right away and wanted me to stop playing the video.
Game of Thrones ended tonight and I’m a little sad that it did. I was never a big fan of the show to be honest. There was too much nudity and sex scenes that I found it uncomfortable to be watching it around family members. I honestly thought the story itself was good enough to carry the show, but I suppose HBO wanted to make sure they lured in viewers with the nudity.
Was looking for some good turn based RPG games on the Xbox One and found Wasteland 2: Director’s Cut available on Game Pass. It is surprisingly good! It is an old school RPG game that reminds me of the fun days of the Fallout 1 and 2 games, before they went all first person shooter on us. Also reminds me a lot of XCOM Enemy Unknown.
I couldn't control the news feed. It wasn't for lack of trying too. During the months leading up to the day when I deactivated my account, I put in a lot of effort to try to control my news feed. Here are some of the things I tried:
Not exactly sure how I ended up on this site, I was reading something about canned tuna, but anyway the article and the calculator might be useful to other people. I'll leave this here so I don't forget as well.
By the way I am a big fan of eating canned tuna, I ate a lot when I was a kid. I was oblivious to the effects and the amounts of mercury canned tuna had though. This changes things.