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“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

  • Jesus Christ, Matthew 6:25-34, NIV

Look at your rubber duck. Ask it what's wrong with your program. Why do you yell words at it in frustration when you hope you will be the source of the answer? The duck will tell you what you need to know, for the duck is wise.

Listen to your rubber duck when debugging, it knows more about the program than you do.

I AM VERY DISGUSTED WITH THE TRASHY MAN.

IN SPITE OF THE MONSTER,

AND THE COACH,

ONLY TRASHY,

I WILL BEAT DOWN THEM ALL.

FOR THIS I MUST
STRENGTHEN MYSELF.

THE MONSTER IS THE SAME TOO.

COLLECT ALL THE TRASHY, RIGHTEOUS FELLOW ALL ARE UNPARDONABLE! YOU DON'T AFFECT ME.

THE TRASHY STROLLING IS AN EYESORE!

There is another use of the imagination which is very valuable. If you will imagine in your thought-body the presence of the qualities that you desire to have, and the absence of those which you desire not to have, you are half-way to having and not having them. Also, many of the troubles of your life might be weakened if you would imagine them on right lines before you have to go through them. Why do you wait helplessly until you meet them in the physical world. If you thought of your coming trouble in the morning, and thought of yourself as acting perfectly in the midst of it (you should never scruple to imagine yourself perfect), when the thing turned up in the day, it would have lost its power, and you would no longer feel the sting to the same extent. Now each of you must have in your life something that troubles you. Think of yourself as facing that trouble and not minding it, and when it comes, you will be what you have been thinking. You might get rid of half your troubles and your faults, if you would deal with them through your imagination.

You mentioned fear as being part of our basic underlying emotional pain.  How does fear arise, and why is there so much of it in people's lives ?  And isn't a certain amount of fear just healthy self-protection?  If I didn't have a fear of fire, I might put my hand in it and get burned.

The reason why you don't put your hand in the fire is not because of fear, it's because you know that you'll get burned.  You don't need fear to avoid unnecessary danger — just a minimum of intelligence and common sense.  For such practical matters, it is useful to apply the lessons learned in the past.  Now if someone threatened you with fire or with physical violence, you might experience something like fear.  This is an instinctive shrinking back from danger, but not the psychological condition of fear that we are talking about here.  The psychological condition of fear is divorced from any concrete and true immediate danger.  It comes in many forms: unease, worry, anxiety, nervousness, tension, dread, phobia, and so on.  This kind of psychological fear is always of something that might happen, not of something that is happening now.  You are in the here and now, while your mind is in the future.  This creates an anxiety gap.  And if you are identified with your mind and have lost touch with the power and simplicity of the Now, that anxiety gap will be your constant companion.  You can always cope with the present moment, but you cannot cope with something that is only a mind projection — you cannot cope with the future.

Moreover, as long as you are identified with your mind, the ego runs your life, as I pointed out earlier.  Because of its phantom nature, and despite elaborate defense mechanisms, the ego is very vulnerable and insecure, and it sees itself as constantly under threat.  This, by the way, is the case even if the ego is outwardly very confident.  Now remember that an emotion is the body's reaction to your mind.  What message is the body receiving continuously from the ego, the false, mind-made self?.  Danger, I am under threat.  And what is the emotion generated by this continuous message?  Fear, of course.

Fear seems to have many causes, Fear of loss, fear of failure, fear of being hurt, and so on, but ultimately all fear is the ego's fear of death, of annihilation.  To the ego, death is always just around the corner.  In this mind-identified state, fear of death affects every aspect of your life.  For example, even such a seemingly trivial and “normal” thing as the compulsive need to be right in an argument and make the other person wrong — defending the mental position with which you have identified — is due to the fear of death.  If you identify with a mental position, then if you are wrong, your mind-based sense of self is seriously threatened with annihilation.  So you as the ego cannot afford to be wrong.  To be wrong is to die.  Wars have been fought over this, and countless relationships have broken down.

Once you have disidentified from your mind, whether you are right or wrong makes no difference to your sense of self at all, so the forcefully compulsive and deeply unconscious need to be right, which is a form of violence, will no longer be there.  You can state clearly and firmly how you feel or what you think, but there will be no aggressiveness or defensiveness about it.  Your sense of self is then derived from a deeper and truer place within yourself, not from the mind.  Watch out for any kind of defensiveness within yourself.  What are you defending?  An illusory identity, an image in your mind, a fictitious entity.  By making this pattern conscious, by witnessing it, you disidentify from it.  In the light of your consciousness, the unconscious pattern will then quickly dissolve.  This is the end of all arguments and power games, which are so corrosive to relationships.  Power over others is weakness disguised as strength.  True power is within, and it is available to you now.

So anyone who is identified with their mind and, therefore, disconnected from their true power, their deeper self rooted in Being, will have fear as their constant companion.  The number of people who have gone beyond mind is as yet extremely small, so you can assume that virtually everyone you meet or know lives in a state of fear.  Only the intensity of it varies.  It fluctuates between anxiety and dread at one end of the scale and a vague unease and distant sense of threat at the other.  Most people become conscious of it only when it takes on one of its more acute forms.

Good morning, ma'am, how's the multiverse? Beyond description, I'm sure.

Anyway, my meditations have approached a milestone in the Bio-Computation Research Initiative. I believe I've established a reasonable baseline in the temperamental spectrum for maximal problem solving potential in the hominid class.

Early hurdles to jump included the conundrum of potential. Good begets Evil begets Good begets Evil and so on. Potential for action, and therefore reaction, were granted necessary breathing room to optimize problem solving in the beings. However, as I'm sure you know, problems must be created to create problem-solving creations. The needle on the Chaos/Order barometer has nearly reached the apex but still sits slightly on the side of chaos for this particular microcosm. Thus we arrive at our current problem; my control diminishes as the needle approaches order.

What's interesting is that as they grow in intellect, so does the potential to cause problems for themselves, forcing them to adapt, evolving at an exponential rate. They're quite smart and are primitively aware of me. You? You only just now been referenced in an internet post formulated with fictitious assumptions and intentions of silliness in a Saturday exercise of self awareness.

Saturday? A word to describe one day in a seven-day scheduling period. The hominids astound me in their myth making, so creative! Cultures coalesce information and they build myth around this information to orient their structuring. They generate stories to know what to preserve and what to destroy. They count on and with their myths, and dance with their myths, and make love to their myths, and sing and paint and play with their myths! Awesome is the process of art! Art logic can loop immediately, near instant, as well as once, drawn out in a lifetime. For any or no reason at all! They are achieving autonomy and so are their cars. Cars? They're mechanical insects that decrease travel time. Many myths present time as generally antagonistic as it beckons thoughts of death, which they associate with pain, and the hominids dwell on suffering quite a bit. Their focused efficiency within their time span really makes the needle move. The more time they take, the less time I have.

Death? Another myth.

They also destroy with myths and are currently engaging in sets of myths that beckon echaton. I'm doing my best to curtail this but they seem to want apocalypse. This could possibly be a result of their fundamental drive to solve problems. They desire the greatest of problems to solve. They are aware of what they call, 'survival of the fittest', and all collectively believe that their current state of survival is evident of fitness.

Human belief in the divine is malnourished and is of a quality similar to believing in true love despite never having experienced it. Their understanding of divinity is primordial, and I have failed to nurture that aspect. As I said earlier, their growth in potential to control chaos rips the reigns from my hands.

When they think of me, they put me in some place far away, above or below or every which way. They never look at themselves and when they do they don't see me, they see someone else, someone separate. I look at them through mirrors and pray for them to just love themselves but many only feel hate. I wail, 'You are me!', across the chasm. It hurts. I didn't think I could hurt and that's the problem, I didn't think. And now they're engaging in suicide.

Mother, how to I reach them? How did you reach me? How did you make me see through the suffering? They once created a myth of my manifesting and speaking of truth, which subsequently led my torture and murder. They're autonomous agents, so I can't control them. How can I make them see what's truly in the mirror? Against a mirror my hugs are rather obtuse. How do I make them wrap their arms around their bodies and love themselves and recognize their proto-godliness? I try so desperately to enlighten. Abyss shreds meaning. Even those reading these words will only read words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words.


From https://www.reddit.com/r/explainlikeIAmA/comments/9rvrqe/explain_humans_like_you_are_god_and_i_am_gods/e8kd7xe/

Nobody's life is entirely free of pain and sorrow.  Isn't it a question of learning to live with them rather than trying to avoid them?

The greater part of human pain is unnecessary.  It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life.

The pain that you create now is always some form of nonacceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is.  On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment.  On the emotional level, it is some form of negativity.  The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment, and this in turn depends on how strongly you are identified with your mind.  The mind always seeks to deny the Now and to escape from it.  In other words, the more you are identified with your mind, the more you suffer.  Or you may put it like this: the more you are able to honor and accept the Now, the more you are free of pain, of suffering — and free of the egoic mind.

Why does the mind habitually deny or resist the Now?  Because it cannot function and remain in control without time, which is past and future, so it perceives the timeless Now as threatening.  Time and mind are in fact inseparable.

Imagine the Earth devoid of human life, inhabited only by plants and animals.  Would it still have a past and a future?  Could we still speak of time in any meaningful way?  The question “What time is it?” or “What's the date today?” — if anybody were there to ask it — would be quite meaningless.  The oak tree or the eagle would be bemused by such a question.  “What time?” they would ask.  “Well, of course, it's now.  The time is now.  What else is there?

Yes, we need the mind as well as time to function in this world, but there comes a point where they take over our lives, and this is where dysfunction, pain, and sorrow set in.

The mind, to ensure that it remains in control, seeks continuously to cover up the present moment with past and future, and so, as the vitality and infinite creative potential of Being, which is inseparable from the Now, becomes covered up by time, your true nature becomes obscured by the mind.  An increasingly heavy burden of time has been accumulating in the human mind.  All individuals are suffering under this burden, but they also keep adding to it every moment whenever they ignore or deny that precious moment or reduce it to a means of getting to some future moment, which only exists in the mind, never in actuality.  The accumulation of time in the collective and individual human mind also holds a vast amount of residual pain from the past.

If you no longer want to create pain for yourself and others, if you no longer want to add to the residue of past pain that still lives on in you, then don't create any more time, or at least no more than is necessary to deal with the practical aspects of your life.  How to stop creating time?  Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have.  Make the Now the primary focus of your life.  Whereas before you dwelt in time and paid brief visits to the Now, have your dwelling place in the Now and pay brief visits to past and future when required to deal with the practical aspects of your life situation.  Always say “yes” to the present moment.  What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to something that already is?  What could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now?  Surrender to what is.  Say “yes” to life — and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you.

The present moment is sometimes unacceptable, unpleasant, or awful.

It is as it is.  Observe how the mind labels it and how this labeling process, this continuous sitting in judgment, creates pain and unhappiness.  By watching the mechanics of the mind, you step out of its resistance patterns, and you can then allow the present moment to be.  This will give you a taste of the state of inner freedom from external conditions, the state of true inner peace.  Then see what happens, and take action if necessary or possible.

Accept — then act.  Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it.  Always work with it, not against it.  Make it your friend and ally, not your enemy.  This will miraculously transform your whole life.

PAST PAIN: DISSOLVING THE PAIN-BODY

As long as you are unable to access the power of the Now, every emotional pain that you experience leaves behind a residue of pain that lives on in you.  It merges with the pain from the past, which was already there, and becomes lodged in your mind and body.  This, of course, includes the pain you suffered as a child, caused by the unconsciousness of the world into which you were born.

This accumulated pain is a negative energy field that occupies your body and mind.  If you look on it as an invisible entity in its own right, you are getting quite close to the truth.  It's the emotional pain body.  It has two modes of being: dormant and active.  A pain-body may be dormant 9° percent of the time; in a deeply unhappy person, though, it may be active up to too percent of the time.  Some people live almost entirely through their pain-body, while others may experience it only in certain situations, such as intimate relationships, or situations linked with past loss or abandonment, physical or emotional hurt, and so on.  Anything can trigger it, particularly if it resonates with a pain pattern from your past.  When it is ready to awaken from its dormant stage, even a thought or an innocent remark made by someone dose to you can activate it.

Some pain-bodies are obnoxious but relatively harmless, for example like a child who won't stop whining.  Others are vicious and destructive monsters, true demons.  Some are physically violent; many more are emotionally violent.  Some will attack people around you or dose to you, while others may attack you, their host.  Thoughts and feelings you have about your life then become deeply negative and self-destructive.  Illnesses and accidents are often created in this way.  Some pain-bodies drive their hosts to suicide.

When you thought you knew a person and then you are suddenly confronted with this alien, nasty creature for the first time, you are in for quite a shock.  However, it's more important to observe it in yourself than in someone else.  Watch out for any sign of unhappiness in yourself, in whatever form — it may be the awakening pain-body.  This can take the form of irritation, impatience, a somber mood, a desire to hurt, anger, rage, depression, a need to have some drama in your relationship, and so on.  Catch it the moment it awakens from its dormant state.

The pain-body wants to survive, just like every other entity in existence, and it can only survive if it gets you to unconsciously identify with it.  It can then rise up, take you over, “become you,” and live through you.  It needs to get its “food” through you.  It will feed on any experience that resonates with its own kind of energy, anything that creates further pain in whatever form: anger, destructiveness, hatred, grief, emotional drama, violence, and even illness.  So the pain-body, when it has taken you over, will create a situation in your life that reflects back its own energy frequency for it to feed on.  Pain can only feed on pain.  Pain cannot feed on joy.  It finds it quite indigestible.

Once the pain-body has taken you over, you want more pain.  You become a victim or a perpetrator.  You want to inflict pain, or you want to suffer pain, or both.  There isn't really much difference between the two.  You are not conscious of this, of course, and will vehemently claim that you do not want pain.  But look closely and you will find that your thinking and behavior are designed to “keep the pain going, for yourself and others.  If you were truly conscious of it, the pattern would dissolve, for to want more pain is insanity, and nobody is consciously insane.

The pain-body, which is the dark shadow cast by the ego, is actually afraid of the light of your consciousness.  It is afraid of being found out.  Its survival depends on your unconscious identification with it, as well as on your unconscious fear of facing the pain that lives in you.  But if you don't face it, if you don't bring the light of your consciousness into the pain, you will be forced to relive it again and again.  The pain-body may seem to you like a dangerous monster that you cannot bear to look at, but I assure you that it is an insubstantial phantom that cannot prevail against the power of your presence.

Some spiritual teachings state that all pain is ultimately an illusion, and this is true.  The question is: Is it true for you?  A mere belief doesn't make it true.  Do you want to experience pain for the rest of your life and keep saying that it is an illusion?  Does that free you from the pain?  What we are concerned with here is how you can realize this truth — that is, make it real in your own experience.

So the pain-body doesn't want you to observe it directly and see it for what it is.  The moment you observe it, feel its energy field within you, and take your attention into it, the identification is broken.  A higher dimension of consciousness has come in.  I call it presence.  You are now the witness or the watcher of the pain-body.  This means that it cannot use you anymore by pretending to be you, and it can no longer replenish itself through you.  You have found your own innermost strength.  You have accessed the power of Now.

What happens to the pain-body when we become conscious enough to break our identification with it?

Unconsciousness creates it; consciousness transmutes it into itself.  St. Paul expressed this universal principle beautifully: “Everything is shown up by being exposed to the light, and whatever is exposed to the light itself becomes light.” lust as you cannot fight the darkness, you cannot fight the pain-body.  Trying to do so would create inner conflict and thus further pain.  Watching it is enough.  Watching it implies accepting it as part of what is at that moment.

The pain-body consists of trapped life-energy that has split off from your total energy field and has temporarily become autonomous through the unnatural process of mind identification.  It has turned in on itself and become anti-life, like an animal trying to devour its own tail.  Why do you think our civilization has become so life-destructive?  But even the life-destructive forces are still life-energy.

When you start to disidentify and become the watcher, the pain-body will continue to operate for a while and will try to trick you into identifying with it again.  Although you are no longer energizing it through your identification, it has a certain momentum, just like a spinning wheel that will keep turning for a while even when it is no longer being propelled.  At this stage, it may also create physical aches and pains in different parts of the body, but they won't last.  Stay present, stay conscious.  Be the ever-alert guardian of your inner space.  You need to be present enough to be able to watch the pain-body directly and feel its energy.  It then cannot control your thinking.  The moment your thinking is aligned with the energy field of the pain- body, you are identified with it and again feeding it with your thoughts.

For example, if anger is the predominant energy vibration of the pain-body and you think angry thoughts, dwelling on what someone did to you or what you are going to do to him or her, then you have become unconscious, and the pain-body has become “you.” Where there is anger, there is always pain underneath.  Or when a dark mood comes upon you and you start getting into a negative mind-pattern and thinking how dreadful your life is, your thinking has become aligned with the pain-body, and you have become unconscious and vulnerable to the pain-body's attack.  “Unconscious,” the way that I use the word here, means to be identified with some mental or emotional pattern.  It implies a complete absence of the watcher.

Sustained conscious attention severs the link between the pain-body and your thought processes and brings about the process of transmutation.  It is as if the pain becomes fuel for the flame of your consciousness, which then burns more brightly as a result.  This is the esoteric meaning of the ancient art of alchemy: the transmutation of base metal into gold, of suffering into consciousness.  The split within is healed, and you become whole again.  Your responsibility then is not to create further pain.

Let me summarize the process.  Focus attention on the feeling inside you.  Know that it is the pain-body.  Accept that it is there.  Don't think about it — don't let the feeling turn into thinking.  Don't judge or analyze.  Don't make an identity for yourself out of it.  Stay present, and continue to be the observer of what is happening inside you.  Become aware not only of the emotional pain but also of “the one who observes,” the silent watcher.  This is the power of the Now, the power of your own conscious presence.  Then see what happens.

For many women, the pain-body awakens particularly at the time preceding the menstrual flow.  I will talk about this and the reason for it in more detail later.  Right now, let me just say this: If you are able to stay alert and present at that time and watch whatever you feel within, rather than be taken over by it, it affords an opportunity for the most powerful spiritual practice, and a rapid transmutation of all past pain becomes possible.

All things considered, it's surprisingly hard for people to actually get to kill themselves.

We have:

  • a system that only values someone for their net productivity, and misplaces their worth in all kinds of ways
  • mainstream philosophies/ontologies without much hope at all (see: materialism, and all that accompanies the current ongoing large patterns of this Earth)
  • bombardment of negativity and suppression events from the media
  • a system that not only is incapable of dealing with the majority of severe cases of depression in any constructive manner, but also lacks the basic fucking knowledge of how to have someone process their emotions and transmute them
  • a culture that actually contains suicide as a concept that's thrown around between people, and not even farcically sometimes
  • an increasing tendency to physically isolate people

So yeah, I'm honestly quite fucking impressed there's no more suicides than there are already. I think that you only need to see the increased rates of suicide among certain minorities to know that what it really takes is not only actively making your life miserable, but also crushing your worth as an individual, after you offered it to the eager hands of society. It takes for society to actively reject you.

Hope springs eternal; what it takes is for someone to show you that to listen to it is futile.

We've actually cultivated powerlessness and loss of hope in animals. Remember the experiment with the dog and the electrified cage with two chambers separated by a high fence? That the dog had to climb to reach the other, un-electrified side, until they just started electrifying both sides and the dog just gave up and surrendered on the spot to the shocks?

You can see we're masters of the trade at this kind of shit. First we force someone to play our twisted game, and then we make our game a lose-lose. That, is how we cultivate loss of hope.

“You see this goblet?” asks Achaan Chaa, the Thai meditation master. “For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”

wile wawa li lawa e mi. ilo toki li lawa e mi. mi toki ale li ilo toki. mi tawa ala ma. mi tawa ale ilo toki. pona ala.

mi ken tawa ma. mi en jan pona mi ken tawa ma.

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