freeloader2020

Content warning: mentions of death and sexuality.

Dreamt about me wanting to die because I felt like a pervert or was worried about it, a concern I have in real life; however, in that dream, I was closer to being the gender I wanted to be seen as or I made my gender issues known. I was very hesitant to die and only wanted a poison from the doctor that would kill me painlessly.

Eventually I didn't die, but I still felt guilty while alive, and I think a relative learned about my gender issues, who didn't acknowledge it in the dream (since I woke up) before I could get to that point. I'm a little worried because sometimes I believe dreams can be predictions of my future, which is why I get a sense of deja vu even if I can't remember my dreams.