Ones stops one starts.. I'm here to play a part to someone who hardly knows me.. meanwhile I'm absent In picking up the wreckage that I have left behind.. I'm not a tornado.. more like a domestic terrorist.. none creates a problem like me.. I'm stuck between loving the chaos and self hatred.. please for the love of god let me find the one I'm so tired of this shit.. I have everything I'll ever need. Relatively successful in most things I do but when it comes to my mind and heart I'm a god damn child I'm hurt by one so I use that pain against the other. I know the only way to stop it is to love right but that's alot of work... maybe I can start here by telling you.. I'm not in love with myself but I'm with me every day and I'm abusive.