I have had a strange and challenging life. At times I am delighted by this weirdness and pain. It means I am fully living, experiencing the extreme edges of existence. Other times it feels alienating to know that most people feel only occasional bumps along the road. The kind that throws them off their game until a kind passerby sets them straight. I fall off cliffs and land in oceans with sharks. Pull myself to shore and then battle zombies. Calmly live to face another brutal day alone. I think the pandemic has given people a glimpse into my reality. Every moment for me is a re-evaluation of self. And a test of my trueness.