i had to get another covid test done today. i now have to have them done every week because of where i work. so got that done then it was onto the post office to try and mail out ornaments overseas. i now have to do my own customs . its like WTF other than charge a crap load of money to mail anything why cant you do my label. so now i have to wait until i can get to the post office again.
brent took himself to the emerg last night. i met him there. we where there 3 hours and i could not see him until they said he could go. so i sat there and waited wondering what was going on. i asked the nurse if she could let brent know i was there. she said sure she would...never did. had i known that i would have torn a strip off her and then some. we didnt get home until almost midnight. i was lucky i woke up in time for my test today, back at the hospital. today has been spent getting brent to relax and eat something. i made him some soup . he says he is finding it hard to eat. so its still light foods for now. i am not really eating much of anything except something quick and easy. i worry about when i have to go back to work on monday . how will he cope then. he says i am having a hard time. its like shit you just noticed that i do all this work or what. and that was before you got sick.
i still have to feed the birds and probly make brent more food.
sunday night. its been a very long day. been on the go since i got up. up and down the stairs all day. bring coffee, bring this can you do that. is it too late to make stew. sigh. everything hurts now.
i am still trying to not yell at him. he is being picky about everything. now he wants me to move stuff out of the bedroom. stuff being my sock yarn. i dont know where to move it to. as soon as i have things sorted where i can find stuff, he moves it around so i cant find anything. so i will move the yarn. i have to work tomorrow so i hope i can get some sleep tonight. i got my uniforms ready for the week. i have no idea what do to make him happy anymore. i cook and clean and bring this or that. i just dont know. brent was not like this before he got sick. i think he is just frustrated because he cant do much right now.
i wish i had someone to talk to about this. its so hard to know what to do.
while the stew was cooking i got a few cards made. it was nice just to take a bit of time for me. my back is killing me from sitting at the table but what can you do. i took some pain meds and hope they kick in soon.
i am worried about going to work tomorrow and leaving him alone. maybe that is why he is so grumpy. i have to make sure he has all he needs before i go and then worry when i am gone. no wonder i am stressed.
well time for a shower and get ready for bed...another long day tomorrow.