i kept trying to start an entry yesterday but was crazy busy. i am paying for it today. between work and home and brent i am sore all over.
it snowed again yesterday so i shoveled to make sure the sidewalk was clear for him to go to the hospital this morning. i thought i did a pretty good job considering how weak i am at times. well brent gave me shit for shoveling. i says it had to be done for my safety on the stairs and the walkway. he wanted to arrange for someone to do it. well until that happens i will do what i can. i also shoveled the driveway the best i could. the neighbour from accross the way came over to help with his snow blower. i was so grateful i started to cry. i am so glad he didnt see that. but i did have a good cry when i came in.
we are back from the hospital now. i made brent some lunch and now he is napping in his chair. the dr said he would phone later with what he saw on the scope.
today is also my sons 36th birthday. i sent him a happy birthday message. this time last year i was trying to save the sight in my right eye. i hope he has a good day. i miss my kids and grand kids so much. i hope they had a better christmas than we did.
the dr just called and gave us a brief outline of things to come. we wait for test results and that could take a week. he will go for cancer treatment 1.5 hours away. so until we know more from the biopsy tomorrow and test results will determine what will happen next. we will also find out how far the cancer has spread.
so then i thought i would spend a half hour doing some finishing on some cards....brent sends an email saying he wants a monti cristo sandwich for dinner...and i am thinking wtf. like i want to be cooking all dam night. he has to be back at the hospital for 7 and i need some sleep. sigh. he got his sandwich. and i still have birds to feed.
i am going to post this for now...as i am too tired to type any more.