its been another long day . between the morning job and the evening client , i am bone tired. yes i work alot, because i have to not because i want to. i wish every day that i had help with the bills. i cant go anywhere or do anything because i have bills to pay. there is not much fun in my life these days.

right now fun might be finding time to just sit and do what i want. chores are something that has to be done. most times are not fun. i miss the company of someone to just be with , chat with, make dinner for sometimes. this past weekend was thanksgiving. as usual i had to work, no family day for me. no turkey no big family meal. i had a cold sandwich at work, alone. i guess i am tired of feeling so excluded from things all the time.