its thurs and my day off...kinda. always lots of work to do around here. when i was laying in bed last night i was thinking once brent is gone this room is going to be deafingly quiet. too quiet. i have a hard time sleeping alone. always have. maybe the cats will keep me company but still not the same.
i have to get the aviary cleaned today. i have someone coming by to get the quail. they are old now and not laying anymore. so its time to go. they will be sold to feed hawks. i am ok with that. i am finding it hard to let go of doves to do the same thing. i will have to i know...but its still hard.
i have not counted how many times i go up and down the stairs every day now. it gets hard some days but i wont say a word of it in front of brent. its hard for him to be sick. a guy who loved sports is brought down by cancer and copd. he also smoked. so i am not going to say i told you so about smoking. so i accept what needs to be done and move on every day.
we have not heard from the dr about test results or possible treatments. we got some equipment for brent. a shower chair and raised toilet seat. a hospital table for him to lean on to help him breathe. a hospital bed will be coming next week so i have to finish clearing out the extra stuff in the bed room and then tear down the waterbed. i will MISS that bed so much. i will be sleeping on a single bed for awhile. he wants me to be in the same room as him.
i hear him moving around upstairs....i better go check on him...back in a bit.
so back now for a bit. brought him his meds and changed his clothes. now we are waiting for someone from the CCAC to come by and check on brent{she is an hour late} and equipment and stuff. tomorrow he has his first PSW visit and its not me. so i have to go to work tomorrow and worry about him being alone. i will be back to check on him at dinner.
i am not sure how long i can go on running at full speed. i go and go and go....i cant stop because there is always one more thing to do.
back now again...he is in bed. i am heading there soon. i didnt get as much done as i wanted with having to pay so much attention to brent. alot of the work i have to do will have to now be done on sat and sun.i have to get more things out of the bed room. the table and chairs will be out last. the room will be turned upside down by next week. i have to then get the single bed out of the back room and put that together. after i tear down the waterbed and move the hospital bed into position. i dont think i will have much of a problem with the waterbed other than the box spring.
the time i had for art today was short and the cards i did make sucked. so will either toss them or keep them...not sure. i have 2 ready to mail.
i am going to close here for now...i am tired