its wed now. i didnt get any more work done on the sunroom as a friend came by for tea and a bitch fest. it was so fun. been a long time since i enjoyed a cup of tea so much. brent would make me a cup of tea after supper. those where the best ever. so today i have to get some things done. i have to pack up some china in the sun room and get the trunk closed. i am really trying to get it mostly done by the weekend. blake wants to come by and take a closer look at the sunroom.

i have been going through some boxes in the basement. i found some fabric and yarn. yarn i am giving away. some of the fabric i will be donating as well. there is one piece of fabric i will be making into a sun dress. i think brent would have liked it...its mostly brown...he was a beige kinda guy. so far i have emptied 2 boxes. i have lots to bring down to the shed from the sunroom. tools and stuff. most of the other things will go upstairs in the back room. i have to start that room too. i know there is lots i can donate in there too. but one box at a time. i really dont want everything tossed in the garbage after i am gone.

i want to change the tea cups this weekend.

i was thinking today at work...its a good thing i wear a mask...it sure hides alot of my expressions after a client asks for something. i dont mind wearing the mask. i have to wear a gown and gloves and now a face shield. i get tested once a week for the virus. i know i am ok.

so i put up with being too hot in a gown and gloves when giving a shower. mondays i have 7 showers. so i am wet and very warm all day. i do my best and hope the clients are happy. some days i am in alot of pain but push through as i have to work. if i dont work i dont get paid and if i dont get paid i cant pay the bills.

i have the dr ho on my back right now. it helps to dull the pain enough i can do things. brent bought it for me for my birthday or christmas one year. i am truly grateful for having this.

brent was always thinking of me. thinking of what he can do for me that would make me happy. hell doing dishes made my day. he loved to hang out the laundry. he was good at it too. he tried really hard to help around the house. i would give him a list of chores to do and he was a huge help in getting those done. he was a great cook too. nothing made me happier than to come home to dinner made. i sure miss that the most. i dont cook much at all. usually its tea and toast. or nothing. i am still not very hungry at all. i tried making something and the smell made me feel sick. as much as brent loved my cooking i think i cooked just for him and not me. i never ate much even back then.

its thurs now.

i went to a mandatory staff demonstration at the office and got more gloves and masks for work.

i did some work on the sun room , packed some glass and chicken things. i brought the boxes into the living room for now. they will go upstairs sooner or later.

i have to clean the aviary tonight. garbage day tomorrow. i want to get it out.

i thought i posted this entry so i will now so i wont forget again....