I am a 15 year old girl and I am fucking depressed.
I feel numb, yet sad. I have this sick temper and burst out at least 4 times a week where I just curse at everyone and well..
For around 2 months ago I tried to kill myself.
The reason? I felt sooo fucking alone, even though i had friends. My mother is what really triggered me.
She always calls me shit like ''slut'' ''unworthy''. My mother fucking says ''I hope you get cancer sometime''. You know what the wierd shit is? I still love her so fucking deeply, because I know my mother is depressed. I guess depression really infectious, huh.
I would much rather have been beaten black and blue than hearing those words.
I don't want to give you pictures of my attempt, I can just say I took pills – around 50 or so. Guess that wasn't enough, huh?
I tried telling my mom I needed to see a therapist, but the woman just laughed it off.
Jesus I don't even know why I wrote this. fuck this