The Fool's Word

One time we were talking about a certain point of view regarding knowing the truth with a friend, when he said to me that I have the “easy answer”. Which is that the only thing you really have to do, is to understand that we're 'it' and that it's a game. That's it. Nothing else is required. And because it is an easy answer, we shouldn't settle for it. But just because it is easy, does it make it the wrong one?

It took me a while to realize that there is nothing easy about it. Because, nothing is more difficult than accepting the fact that we are it. “It” being Tao, The Absolute, or what have you. We can think of endless ways of postponing the understanding that that is so. And even when we do understand it, we still think of ways to cover that information with something else. We always seem to move away from that point. And this is of course the entire game that we're playing.

Furthermore, if it is an easy way, how come we have such elaborate systems to make a person realize it? I mean, if you just told someone that hey, you're it, and that actually worked and the person would see it, there wouldn't be all these different religious and philosophical systems in place.

And yet in realizing that the game is a game brings no relief from anxiety to me. Why not? Because I choose my ego over that fact. In other words, I insist on playing the game on its most fundamental level. And yet that level has no basis in reality. And since the discovery of this, I've come to realize that you cannot get out of the game. You have to keep playing it. But there is a sense in which you can choose how you play it.

So that your attitude to it becomes one of compassion and awareness of the fact that nothing is ever missing from the totality. And that you are that totality. And there is not a single grain of sand in this cosmos that is ultimately in the wrong place.

Keeping this always in mind, there is nothing to worry about. The feeling of “the more it changes, the more it stays the same” is very fitting. Because we go around in circles throughout our lives. As one philosopher once put it to a woman asking if we're stuck: “Going around in circles as you may have realized by observing the night sky, is what the universe is doing.”

But you still want a problem instead of an answer. You insist on it every moment. And so long as you do, you will suffer. Because you project an artificial construct over your thought process. By thinking that because something has been, it has to be so now, and so might be so in the future. And nobody can remedy this for you except you. You know, there is no way of arriving where you are now. One has to realize they were there from the beginning.

I know all this is a lot of nonsense. And yet it is nonsense I enjoy talking about from time to time. There is no description, only experience. That's the only clue that one really needs. That words are and always will be short of the actual thing. They have a way of setting barriers for our mind. And yet they can induce a genuine experience. Whether that experience actually happens because of the words themselves, or by some other power all together, I cannot say. The only thing I can say is, all words point to something else. But what that else is cannot be explained sufficiently, ever.

They say that good things come to those who wait. But I say it depends on the style of waiting one does. If you go with the style of expectancy, it will be excruciating. But there is another style. That is that you let go of the whole thing. And this is the true meaning of faith; faith is not that one clings fervently to something, but that they surrender it and let it be.

Now, can one realize the truth by just waiting and seeing what happens? That is the big question. It would seem like going against everything that our cultures have ever produced, in all their variety of systems that have been carefully perfected for the conditions for it to occur – and yet that is exactly what a certain philosopher once said.

Since learning more about it, I've come to sense intuitively that 'all roads lead home'. Meaning that it doesn't matter which road you pick. Because as my best friend said to me, you experience truth at every point and moment. And as you are awakened, the entire world is awakened. Because everyone is a manifestation of your self, existing in your consciousness.

So I view all the different ways of life as being analogous to different plants and animals. Just as one does not think of a flower being grown in the wrong way, one cannot really judge people for choosing their particular paths – they go with the rest of the world. This has of course rather interesting ramifications.

For one thing, the idea that one's religion or philosophy is the 'correct' one. This idea is archaic thinking to me. It does not really answer anything by itself – it needs the other points of view. And this something a lot of people are not usually aware of. That for them to know what their particular practice is about, they have to contrast it with something other than itself. One doesn't know really that they're the good ones unless they know who the bad ones are.

But what does one know really, and how can they be sure about what they know? Well, I don't have much of a foothold in Western philosophy in general but one can easily see that if one's perception of something is distorted, than obviously what that something appears as will not be the truth. One can then argue that there is no such thing as the truth. Because it depends on where you're looking at it from.

So I see the truth being completely subjective and tailored to each being who observes it. Of course, I also think that the true state of affairs is rather non-dual – and that seems like a self-contradictory statement. However, it's just the way I see it, because I distinguish between the relative truth and the absolute truth. The relative truth is anything we can observe or perceive in this universe, and the absolute truth is one which the observer can experience directly through something I will call the Principle.

The Principle is what a large number of religions and numerous techniques are ultimately concerned with. How to bring about a shift in one's perception on a fundamental level and change it to knowledge. And here I am arguing that every system to make the shift is useless – instead offering the easiest way possible for it since the invention of the knife.

Now, an easy answer to something does not necessarily make it the wrong one. But a lot of people will say we shouldn't settle for it. And that is of course expected, because they don't feel like it will make them pay a sufficient price for the truth. And this is the whole thing about masters and gurus and paying a price for the truth.

The way they've arranged it is that you are below the teacher, and the teacher is higher up – because they know something you supposedly do not. And so they set up a false system of control with so many steps and so many stages for one to pass. Of course, we are all teachers and students to each other. And many times a direct teacher is necessary for some people.

But the problem of authority needs to be addressed here and now, because I think it is important. Every system you pick out, is your opinion. It is your opinion that the religion you choose to follow is not simply a project to build an expensive building. It is also your opinion that the holy books or the teachers you choose are not full of it. And so it rests on you, in the end, the scripts that you subscribe to. So you are the authority when it comes to all matters of the spiritual. You bought it.

And so we make our own systems, and every system needs each other. This is just one of the countless ways out there to arrive at the same place. But there is a saying: “There is no path,” which can be interpreted the wrong way. Some people might think that there is no way of arriving to the truth. But the arriving is exactly that which doesn't exist. One is already there. But it takes some people to the farthest reaches in their quest to make them realize that they were there from the very beginning. And so “you don't have to do anything” means exactly that. The only thing that is required is to understand, that one is 'it', or in other words, the universe.

T.F.

I have a conspiracy theory, one which I gave to a friend recently. Not a conspiracy theory per se, I just choose to call it one. But it has to do with the way our conscious attention works. It goes into metaphysics and psychology, in so far as gestalt psychology studied aspects of awareness and its attributes in the previous century. As a disclaimer, anything I say, does not come from any concrete evidence or research, except the previously mentioned field. The point is to explore the idea, not to make claims.

This conspiracy is quite simply the way in which we dismiss and exclude information from our awareness by selecting input from the total gamut of conscious attention. You could call it “ignoring of space.” We select features, to exclude many other features from our attention. And this has the adverse effect of making the things that are selected, have a higher priority than their excluded counterparts, which leads to ignoring a large amount of information. And this is really what is known as ignorance, of everything outside of our selected field of input.

As a result of this selection, since we give more value or significance to the selected information in our awareness, we think that the things we exclude are of lesser importance than the things we don't. The point in all of this is that ignoring space or of features that are not important for a long period of time has the effect of making one myopic. And that is the conspiracy.

For example, in a subtle process of elimination, a child who is pointing to a point of interest and asks what it is, and the parent tells it to ignore it, we are told which features are important or noteworthy. Our attention goes to the relatively moving, instead of the relatively still, to the point, instead of the diffused area. Always to the “thing”, and thus we ignore an important aspect of experience. Imagine what is it was you were looking at, if it was all “things” and nothing was space.

But in some eastern arts and architecture, the importance of space is well recognized, but they realized that you couldn't have objects, and unless they were in relation to their surrounding space, or vice versa. But this myopia that comes with excluding information, of ignoring space, is the great snare.

When one talks about space, usually they refer to everything 3-dimensional outside our atmosphere. Or it can mean the relative measured space occupied by two or more points. But what I want to bring up now concerns something that may as well be the answer to certain mysteries. One of these mysteries is why we regard space as being unimportant, in relation to objects. And as was said earlier, the major reason for this is selection, to the exclusion of space.

This was carefully worked out in Gestalt psychology, where they found out that our attention goes to the relatively moving, instead of the relatively still, to the figure, instead of the background. And this causes ignorance in regards to space. But I argue that space is as important as the objects that are found in it. Taking the simple illustration of one-without-the-other. You cannot even imagine a scenario, in which everything was only objects, or only space. Because you always need something in relation to either of them.

The curious consequence of this is that we notice things by contrast with space. For example, you wouldn't know what you meant by an object, unless it was in relation to something other than itself. If there was only one ball in a vacuum, no motion can be ascribed to it. It cannot be said to be even moving. But take two balls and they can move in relation to each other, but no one knows which of them is moving. Take three balls and they can move in a plane against one another. And a fourth ball can establish a third dimension. So existence or space is relationship between bodies or objects.

In thinking what space really is, is it mere nothingness? Or does space actually have a function other than being the necessary counterpart for objects? We can think this long enough until the realization that space is actually the mind. Because we think in terms of space. What space is, is the “accessibility of consciousness into sensory experiences,” to quote Alan W. Watts.

In other words, we project the night sky out there, out of our skulls. Our nervous system carries pulses that either registers as a yes or a no. The only personal evidence we have that there is an external world at all out there is because of these electrical reactions inside our bodies. From a neurological perspective, it's all a happening inside our heads.

This way of ignoring everything, and selecting what we want, is useful, because we cannot handle more information than we contrive to notice. If we had an overload of sensory information, our conscious attention would get exhausted. Which is the phenomenon that comes to many people, and is called being overwhelmed. So it's for our own convenience that we ignore space, only the result of this is of course that we sometimes ignore even the important things. And thus I'm writing this piece, to remind that there just might be something between the lines, in space.

There's an ancient saying or a poem which says that if you want to find out where the flowers come from, not even the God of Spring knows. And it is referring to the concept of the mysterious void, where things emanate from, sometimes parallel to Yūgen in Japanese arts. Yūgen means many things, and one of the literal translations from Chinese is “deep” and “mysterious”. In the context of Japanese aesthetics, it means subtle profundity which is only vaguely hinted by poetry.

One would think that the God of Spring knows where flowers come from, but it doesn't. And the reason for it, is that all existence, has to include an inherent element of the unknown. This is basically the principle of how awareness works. When you are born, you know next to nothing about the world. But gradually, you discover more and more as you move around. And we discover also more about the universe gradually.

For the sake of illustration, let's take discovery completely away from the picture. I cannot for the life of me, think through what would the alternative existence be. Because if everything was already known, would there really be anything? I mean, if all beings knew everything from the get go, that would be akin to being The Absolute. Or whatever term you choose to use for something that tries to designate a force or energy which is common to all things and events.

So life is basically a game of Hide and Seek. Because we seek throughout life, answers to questions that we regard as important. I don't think there was anyone that existed in the recorded history, who wasn't interested in finding something out, either for themselves or for their field of profession. Even if it was something as simple as what's behind that corner, such as is basic to a childhood experience. If there was no question, nothing would happen, in my opinion.

Because part of my system of beliefs, is that human beings move, because they are missing something, whether it's food from their stomach, or a philosophical notion. If nothing was missing from a process, there would be no reason to move to a different direction from its current position because by its definition it is complete. In this case the process being ourselves.

This prompts another point of view to my mind, which is that in a way the process is already complete. That is to say, that things being seemingly missing from us, such as food, is part of a larger process. And if you take that to the highest point of the entire universe, is anything really missing from it? I'm suggesting that there isn't. But because we as human beings can think that it is missing something in lesser or more degrees, leads us to feel inadequate. And it is this feeling of inadequacy, that keeps things going.

So, I'm saying that the unknown, is what leads processes such as us, to the known. But in a way, it is always ourselves, that are the ones responsible for there being anything unknown. Saying that we aren't, is the same thing as saying, that there is someone else pulling the strings. That we don't have a choice in being here. But I think that we do. Because ask yourself. A universe which in time comes to observe itself and know itself through its parts, like us, would there be any other possibility for it being there, unless it was free to do so? If it wasn't free to do so, it wouldn't have happened in the first place. That's what I think anyway.

So space, has a function. It’s what moves objects in it further apart and closer together. And this will be the answer to gravitation. I’m just kidding of course. But I don’t think it is completely unwarranted to say that space is not mere nothingness. It is the basis for there being anything. We’ve been so “ignorant” of the space surrounding our planet for so long, that the last couple of hundred years has “culture shocked” us gradually into the notion that the universe is more vast than anyone can ever imagine. And the more we explore into it, the more we’ll discover, maybe even going so far as to realize that space is the ultimate reality.

T.F.

P.S. Whew, this became a longer article than I initially planned.

The following writing is about two characters from ancient China, circa 600 BCE, to 300 BCE, followed by Zen Buddhism and the concept of emptiness. I’m not an expert on these ways of life. The writing is obviously my interpretation of what it means. It’s not supposed to be a historical document full of facts. So chill out you son of a gun.

I once heard a funny comment on Lao Tzu, regarding Tao. “If those who speak, do not know, then why write a book about it?” And the comment was to note that we talk about our views because we can’t help ourselves. Because we have to. When one has found something interesting and inspiring, they have to share it.

I recently said that it’s pointless to try to talk about something which can’t be explained. It might be pointless, but it’s worth it simply because you can point to it, outline it and play with it. And that’s the point. Something that is inexpressible, is for that very reason, valuable.

Lao Tzu had a follower, named Chuang Tzu. He is considered an “elaborator” of the former, who wrote thirty something books or chapters, allegedly, which were collected into a single book. They expand what Lao Tzu had said in his Tao Te Ching.

Chuang Tzu had a lot to say about the value of the useless life. The tree which is to be cut down into a vessel, has more usage as a tree, because it was old and withered. Likewise, things being useless, that they serve no purpose outside their being there, is valuable. The book also makes a case, that every technological instrument that is designed to solve a problem, creates more problems.

So in a way, their books were to show to the rulers of their time, that the best form of government is one, which generally lets things take their course. This was a counterculture against Confucianism. It said that the more you try to force things, the more adverse results you will get. And I think anyone can see some sense in that. If everybody forced their way into wherever they were going, I can imagine all kinds of dire situations.

But, Taoism didn’t go at it alone. It was integrated with Confucianism to form the two principal philosophies of China. And with the migration of Buddhism to China, it gave birth to something called Chan, which a little later was brought to Japan and turned to what is known as Zen Buddhism.

The main idea of Zen that I’ve adopted to a more or less degree, is that reality can’t be embraced in a concept. That words, cannot contain it. It would be like trying to drink the Pacific ocean with a fork. And that is why all our attempts to define what reality is, is usually less than satisfactory to people. If it wasn’t, then they would settle for an adequate description of it. But there is none. So they read all kinds of material, to try to find that description.

Zen is the synthesis of Taoism and Buddhism. And the reason why they came along so well was, that each of them contained a concept common to them of emptiness or the void. And what emptiness means to me, as it is called ’sunyata’, is the following. That, every phenomena in the universe, are void, that is to say, that they don’t contain a self-essence of any kind. That they are not apart or independent from everything else.

In other words, everything is literally relative, and furthermore, part of a massive interdependent network which is the cosmos. This is sunyata as it is depicted in the Avatamsaka Sutra or the Flower Ornament Scripture.

Now, without advocating these things any further, I wanted to mention them in passing for one reason. This network that I described, is the same concept, as B. Fuller’s idea of the universe as an interrelated interconnected multiplicity of events, drawing from his Synergetics, Explorations in the Geometry of Thinking, which is in my opinion one of the most impenetrable works I own.

I don’t recommend it to anyone unless they have an understanding of math basics(which I don’t) and loads of passion, time and an open mind. Anyway, the main point here is that the universe is a single system, with its parts connected in subtle ways.

But this network is what the cosmology of those ways of life in the East are showing, thousands of years before we had any idea how vast the universe really is. And in a way, we’re catching up to them now, which is funny.

Still, a person who wants to state that something really is separate from the rest of it, is like taking the internet and claiming that a computer connected to it is separate from the rest of the internet. And to me that makes no sense, unless you disconnected the computer entirely. But in this network that I’m talking about, the universe, there isn’t any “disconnection” taking place, ever. It only seems that way, because we have the ability to think it is.

So, what started out as an anciently simple idea of the inseparability of things, is turning out to be just that, through quantum phenomena, and mathematics in the modern age. And I leave the reader with a question. If the network is real, as a network, why do we generally think that we are disconnected from it?

T.F.

Someone once said that words are a means of concealing truth. And this is not necessarily because the person who expresses the words is lying. If the function of words is to represent the physical world and its goings on, and the description about the world is what their primary objective is, then they naturally fall unto a lesser degree of reality than what they are describing.

When one describes something, they essentially translate the processes of nature into consciously analysable bits which have properties. But those bits are not on the same level in terms of reality than their physical counterparts. They are conceptual. And it is concepts where we have to start.

A concept is a thought. A process of figuring in our minds using symbols such as words, numbers or simple shapes. And every concept therefore about something that is happening is not the same thing as the happening. Like the idea of a tree is not a tree. And this is an important distinction.

Now, symbols can have a very powerful influence over our lives. We use them every day in all types of communication. Whether it is texting someone, reading a book, or simply thinking about something, we use symbols to do it. But it has proven to be too much of a good thing for us.

Because we get so hooked on symbols or signs and especially words that we forget the reality which they are pointing towards. And then we get angry and frustrated simply because we don't like the ordering of some letters on a screen or on a piece of paper.

How easily are people triggered these days simply when for example one rearranges the letters in their name? And this shows how easily hypnotized we get by words. They are designed to grab one's attention and keep the attention on them. Because they are highlighted from the general background. And this ties into our awareness I will delve more into at a later article.

Now, a word acts also as a sign. Because it is pointing or “signifying” towards something other than itself. Just as one cannot quench their thirst with the word water, they cannot grab the physical world through concepts. They reduce the world into a skeletal line of information about that world which we can then use and navigate more effectively with.

What is the meaning of a word is asking the same thing as what is it pointing towards. That is why for example life does not have a meaning in the traditional sense. Because it is not pointing towards anything. It just is. But we use meaning in different ways, and the literal meaning is the only meaning these days which seem to matter to us.

So our sense of the universe is a symbolical one at best. We are always living on the indicators and not what they are pointing at. This is even more apparent when you start discovering ghosts in your own language. Like for example the grammatical rule that all verbs have to have subjects.

That every doing requires a noun, something that is doing the deed. But anything in nature that can be labelled as a thing, a noun, can be expressed with a single verb. The Chinese language is a prime example of attributing verbs to processes. The point is, that there are operators and operations in nature. And so how does an inanimate thing, put a process forward? Well it can’t.

Furthermore, all words are labels on classes. It's like asking is it a mineral, animal or a vegetable. That is classifying. But if we cannot successfully class something in the world of nature, and describe it in those terms, we're labelled as talking nonsense. The whole category of things one cannot explain successfully in words is humongous. And yet these things exist.

And people are always arguing with each other over definitions of the words, instead of what they are intended to mean. And this reduces all philosophical discussions essentially to a game where everyone is arguing with words over words. And this is like turning the studio camera towards the screen through which the feed is coming from.

A dictionary is essentially circular. In that it is defining its own words with other words within that same dictionary. And that is why the Taoists had such a criticism of the Confucian movement known as Rectification of Names. They asked them with what words will they define the words. Because they knew it was all useless to pin words down according to a strict etiquette because they don't have an independent reality of their own.

We seek meaning in words because we seem to have lost it in reality. But we haven't. All it takes is one indicator towards it. Look, suppose one says “everything is an illusion”. Now a person depending on their background might dismiss its meaning entirely, or start thinking various ways in which it could make sense to their particular situation. But our mind, is what is there. Not the words.

But after saying that, the message intended might be taken the wrong way. Its meaning might be misinterpreted. And this is another problem with words. People project their own beliefs and assumptions into them and then make up their minds what they meant. And this should give some clue how subjective it all really is.

What a word actually is, is one tiny needle point at the edge of that subjective reality, which is pointing to something outside its domain. But we have a way of selecting these needle points which makes them highly useful to our ability effectively communicate with each other. But as a result of entertaining these symbols for thousands of years, we are utterly taken by them, to the point where we cannot distinguish the symbol from the reality. And the difference between them is very big.

What it all comes down to then is this: don't take these words seriously. Words are for separating things and events. But we live in a single event system, where everything is happening everywhere all at once. And the usefulness of words has proven to be successful to us as a species, but it has come with a price. The price of not experiencing reality to its fullest. And one has to wonder, whether there is something else beyond mere words.

T.F.

There’s a concept in nature called a catenary sequence. It explains things in terms of their causalities. This was based on old Newtonian mechanics which describe the physical universe as a series of balls being banged around by each other. However, relatively recent discoveries have made it clear that it’s insufficient to describe natural patterns. It requires present context on top of causality. And so a new term was devised, called the reticulate sequence. It takes present and future events into consideration, and not only past events.

The late psychiatrist Carl Jung devised a term to describe the seeming coincidental links between events that happen over large distances, both spatial and temporal and called it synchronicity. And where the network effect of these links coincide with “syncs” that take place in our lives, we call them meaningful, whether imaginary or not.

The point at which we interpret any given seeming randomness and find underlying patterns, comes to us vividly in our everyday lives. We see meaning almost every which way. We are designed to notice patterns in nature and our interactions with it. And so the interpretation of any pattern is paramount to seeing connections in them. In fact, you cannot describe anything at all, without your unique perspective being part of it on some level.

And so, the clash between the interpretation and translation of the mystical experience comes with an obvious price. The price of misinterpretation. If what I intended to mean something else entirely from what is read on the page, to that degree the message becomes distorted. And so we are liable to run amok with the wrong message. The problem then becomes: how to “unscrew” the messages of the ancient days? What is the true message as it was intended?

Well, I think it’s up to anyone to make up their own damn mind as to what it means. Nobody can be told on behalf of their own inner voice, if the subject matter is in accord with them. And nobody can be told how to think. Or rather, should be told. Nobody is forced to read these words for that matter. So it’s out of my hands as to how they are taken. And that’s terrifying to me. But at the same time the risk has to be taken.

From a personal perspective, my life has been chock full of these syncs as I referred to them. Meaningful points or patterns that are not obviously connected, but they feel like they are. And interpretation plays key part in it. They reside on the side of the subjective, which is why they are very difficult to convey to others believably. They’ll say “it’s all in your head.” Or “if you’re the only one experiencing this connection, couldn’t it be possible you’re just imagining it?”

But the point is that because they are subjective, they are for that very reason meaningful. And nothing strikes more meaning in your face like a champion boxer on steroids, than the mystical vision. Because it’s such a potent state of being, you’ll remember it vividly for the rest of your life. It varies in intensity depending on the person, but it’s importance at the time it happens cannot be understated.

Now, for the record, I’ve never had this experience hit on me personally. But nevertheless, I know enough about it theoretically to say few things about it. So I’ll make a list about its attributes just for giggles. The following aspects or qualities are present in this sensation:

1. The unity or undividedness of all things and events.

2. The “pretentiousness” of existence.

3. The feeling of unbelievable bliss.

4. There is not a single error at all in this universe.

And there you have it. It sounds pretty fantastic I know. Or hard to swallow. But still, I’ve known people who have come up to me and say it in my face not 10 minutes into the conversation which is pretty weird to me but awesome. That they knew it all in an instance after getting this overwhelming experience come over them.

And I choose to talk about this because I think it’s important. Because we neglect our environment and are on the verge of its destruction, simply because we don’t feel like part of the natural universe. We feel alianated from it. Hostile towards it, and ourselves. And so what I’m doing is I’m trying to point towards that unity of everything. Otherwise, we’re doomed if we don’t see it. But I guess that’s the whole game we’re playing.

So the network or reticulate sequence, is exactly seeing the points connected. And synchronicity is the glue that binds all of them. Yeah I know, a rather simple way of saying it. But simple is how I like it, at least in a blog like this. I don’t know what I’m doing anyway. I’m just sharing a point of view that I’m quite fond of.

F.

Welcome to my brand new blorg.

As few people in my life can testify, I never edit my blog posts. At all. I think it makes for a fresh take, and by that I mean lazy on my part. But I believe that there is value in the “untouched” writing. Normally I use a grammar editor for my pieces, but not when it comes to my free-form half-assments such as this. This task is not rendered any easier in the face of the fact that English is my second language.

So, I would say that a newly hatched article on the mystical vision without any editing would scare the cheeses out of any hobbyist. But I enjoy what I do. If your main activity in life is not fun, you’re clearly doing it wrong.

So fucking what if there are few mistakes on the page? Or in my case, few hundred? It gives it a certain quality of sincerety when it’s unpolished. At least that’s what I think. Well anyway, now that it’s off my chest, we can begin in earnest.

You’ll first of all see that my articles are not very long. And that is also by design, not because I’m necessarily out of material. Oh man. The thought makes me shiver. They are short because I know how low the patience of people runs these days. Thanks to the mobile phone culture, we have the attention span of a fruitfly now.

But also because I am writing my stories and non-fiction books on the side. So there has to be a balance of some kind. I can’t just go balls to the wall and write to a blog all day.

If you can bear it, I will now move unto a short description of what I think my “purpose” in this place is. I tend to view my hobby more than just putting words down. Sure, I go on tangents like it’s 1999. But a satisfactory blog has to require at least an overview of the person writing in it. And since there is no About page per se, I’m using one of the posts for it. I’m meaning to construct a website of my own soon though.

I started writing early in my adolescence. From the very beginning, I seemed to have a certain knack for the elements of story-telling. But I never seriously (or sincerely rather) considered it as a path until some years back. I now have a full book out, albeit a non-fiction piece on the mystical.

It all started back in 2017 when I came across several lecture collections from a philosopher by the name of Alan Watts. That year, I decided I would buy and collect every single audio talk ever officially published by the Electronic University of California. And it was 5 years later when I completed the collection. I now have over 160 hours of pure delight.

This is relevant to the blog because Watts is the biggest influence currently that is contributing to my curiosity for the mystical knowledge. Weren’t for him, I would have never realized half the things I have realized in my quest for a “satisfactory explanation” to things.

This isn’t a pitch to say that the reader should right at this second go and get them. I’m only making it clear where I draw a lot of my inspiration from. My secondary inspiration comes from at least three sources. Namely, Buddhism, Hinduism and Taoism. But more specifically, their esoteric aspects.

Thirdly, I draw from various occult sources for my material. But I’m still learning. I didn’t even read any books until 2018. And since then I’ve been highly selective as to what to read. My reading is also hindered by a neurological condition which gives me palinopsia and after images in the middle of it.

So, whether I ever get to see my “magnum opus” out there and in people’s hands is anyone’s guess. But in the meantime, I can work on this blog thing on the side. So that is my purpose for the most part when it comes to writing. I have other interests too such as painting, which doesn’t make the former any easier.

Still, I’m having a ball in the midst of all of this. But I’m just a fool, you know.

F.

Well, I decided to create a blog from scratch since my former website got demolished. Oh well. Shit happens. So a little bit about this project: this is a blog (obviously), which tries to say something important. Only, what that something important is may be impossible to translate into the written word, hence “The Fool’s Word” as the blog’s name.

As I try to find ways in which to describe the indescribable, let it be said that I’m not what you would call a consistent personality. In that I can keep up to a set pattern for very long. Be that as it may, I sure as hell am going to try! So get ready for a massive dosage of the batshit insane. Because that’s all I’m capable of these days. Don’t worry, I’ll try to make it coherent as possible. Yeah right.

I’ve had a blog up since 2017 but it never really took off because I was so busy writing stories and non-fiction that I completely neglected the public. But that’s about to change drastically. Because I think I certainly have the skillset by now to make engaging articles. Or maybe that’s all in my head and I’m just fooling myself. Nevertheless I’ll try my best.

As a tiny preview, let me share the crux and message of the blog right here and now. There is a principle operating in this universe which transcends the problems of the everyday. It’s been called by many names: cosmic consciousness, mystical vision, satori, bodhi, nirvana, moksha or mukti. And it seems to hit people out of the blue. We don’t know what the exact conditions for it are, because it seems like it doesn’t follow any fixed set of rules. Sometimes it strikes like a lightning out of a clear sky without any warning. On the other hand, people who have various methods to supposedly arrive at this vision, and have practiced their methods for decades, don’t feel any different. It seems to reside outside the confines of spacetime itself.

So that experience and its aftermath so to speak, is what this blog is dedicated but not restricted to. Now I know there are people out there who are “hardboiled” and will scoff and outright dismiss this as a mental illness at the very worst, and mere fantasy at the very least. And they can’t really be blamed for doing so. But for the more curious and open-minded individuals I leave this writing open with a question: what do you do after you realize that your entire life has been a lie?

F.