nightthwinker

2020 may not the best year, at least for most people. I may think that way too, but there's always a silver lining behind every dark cloud. 2020 may not pretty as its name, but this year is special. This year always gives me something to learn.

Firstly, during early pandemic I work in a place like a canteen or cafetaria. I worked there for about 3 months, but for now the place is closed because of Ms. Rona. For the first time I have money for myself and I'm super happy with that. It was like the first money I had myself and I learned that getting money is not as easy as it seems.

Second lesson I learned this year is that I learned to let go of things that aren't for me. I wasn't accepted at IPDN but I was accepted SBMPTN at Undip. IPDN wasn't for me and I believe God has given the best plan. Also, it may kinda surprised many people that I accepted at Undip even I was shocked myself, but I'm glad that I made it. I'm proud of myself.

'Let go' can also mean about the people around me. I learned that people always come and go. If I look myself as a color, I may not be everyone's favorite color but I believe there's people who need me for complete their pictures. I know I'm worthy and enough for the right people, so I just let them who wasn't for me go. Let it go and let it happen.

Another lesson is I try not to care and think deeply about what other people say or think towards me. I try to live for myself and not to meet other people's expectations. Although I haven't fully implemented it yet, I think that it's the best choice I've ever made. I'm glad to do it. I'm happy.

I know the word 'happy' looks pretty simple, but it has a deep meaning for me. I used to cry every night thinking about everything in my life, but I guess I'm better now. 2019 version of me can't relate lmao. This year really makes me feels like all my hard work and tears have paid off.

Actually, there are still many lessons that I take this year, but it's impossible for me to write all of them here. This year may not the best, but isn't worst too. I'm so grateful of what I have gone through and what I have now. I'm so grateful for everything. I'm very blessed.

Thank you 2020!