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Breaking For Tonight

Tomorrow will be a day full of coursework so for tonight, I am going to chill. Glad I enrolled. As well as coursework tomorrow, I will be checking on the loan discharge status.

That's all for now

Learning Binary

So in the opening lecture of HarvardX's “Intro to CS” I figured it would be a shitload of formalities, but it wasn't (which is good). Instead, it went straight into the binary system, unary system, and decimal system. I mention binary first because that is the main focus. Apparently it is the only thing computers seem to understand (is binary). I took a short break for a little bit. Will be right back at it soon :)

Health (mostly)

My coffee is about done and I had a salad from Heaven for dinner. I took a hell of a nap after getting home from the 'rents house and feel very rested and refreshed. Drank 3 L of water today, too. Oh and had a fruit cup. So I am “on the mend” when it comes to healthier eating and being careful about what foods I eat and how often I eat them. Because...

....(I forgot to mention this before, but) I am celebrating FOUR YEARS as a #vegetarian. August 1st was the actual anniversary, but I forgot to mention it on this blog (I did however mention it to the people in my life). I feel good, the only downside (personally) is that I do not workout very often. It is important that I get into a workout routine (a consistent one) as soon as possible because there is nothing holding me back, I just...don't do it. I am going to change that. Maybe early AM walks in the fresh air will help? I walk further and with a quicker pace when the air is cool and even on the 90 degree days here in Missouri, it is still 70-ish at 6AM.

This is my only Life Barrier, as I see it. Even if college went by the wayside and I didn't jump into programming (which the latter will happen regardless), the important thing would be that; if I exercise, my life is OK. With the endorphins and the increased confidence, and fresh air, and muscle-building, and everything else, I will be OK. I must remember this.

The thing is: I would have to switch around some priorities. Priorities are the most important thing in my life (and should be in yours). If you have one or more priorities in life; you will achieve that priority almost no matter what. Like Raam Dev (a random Web developer) once said in a YOuTube video, quite simply: “Priorities. Set them.”, and that is all you really need to do. My main priority right now is getting into and graduating college with a simple AA degree with a concentration in....whatever field I like the most (probably Eng Lit). This has been such a strong priority of mine for so long that idk if I am going to let it go, but I must at some point, I think. Health is just far too great of a thing to let go by the wayside. I am fairly unhappy with my body at this point and I very much so DO love myself, but not my appearance by any stretch of the imagination. I also had a recurrence of Barrett's esophagus which I thought had gone away but came back due to weight gain. Everyone who is in my corner in the health field (both physical and mental) want to see me lose a good amount of weight.

“Priorities. Set them.”

Yes. I must change mine up.

Home sweet home

Saw the sister's new house

Then dad got sick

We then turned around and came home

Was a weird day

Having a smokie Joe and a cup of coffee

Nothing else happening, really

Trying to wake up with some coffee

It's working

Be back in a bit!

I think the blokes above me moved out

You may have noticed that I say the word “blokes” a lot in my blogging but it is not because I am English, but simply because I like the way they talk on the other side of the pond. Anyway, the people above me either moved out or are never home. I think they were a little pissed off at the condition of the floors on move-in day because the evening before they moved in, a two-man crew beat the living fuck out of the floors with a sledgehammer until 10PM and replaced it with...particle board. IDK. They were destroying it up until they “fixed” it though. My floor is no better. Just a mess of a platform, so to speak. I can say a lot of good things about this apartment and apartment complex, but they are legit the worst floors I have ever walked on.

So good for them!

Speaking of this apartment, the management wants me to renew my lease for another year (which I have a month to decide) and I probably will. At least until college is finished (if it comes to be that I successfully enroll in higher ed). But after this lease begins (Oct), then it will be my last lease at this residence. idk/dgaf where I go to after this. Somewhere here in S St Louis County because it is the only decent place to live that is still near my family that freaks the fuck out when I move more than 20 miles away. Needy fuckers. They really do hold people back.

I would love to move to Chicago for a bit. As long as it was the Wicker Park area. Seems like a cool place to belong to. Chicago, itself, is a cool city (even though the Southside has an insane murder rate. NYC calls my name as well, but I will have to be in a better financial position to make that happen. The West Coast can go blow itself.

been so long

Since I visited Paramore's “Self-Titled” album. This album certainly defined about three years of my life (2013-2015). After that album came Suicide Silence's “The Black Crown” (which had already been out for quite some time) circa 2016-2017, and now....idk what album really defines me? Maybe just a couple classic tunes Like Townes Van Zandt “Waiting Around To Die” and Johnny Cash “Give My Love To Rose” and another artist whose name I cannot place w/ the song “Song For Janine”. It will come to me later. Haha! I have been listening to a lot of stuff lately and I am enjoying all of it. Bob Dylan, Stevie Wonder, everything.

Well, I can say that Burzum's “Fallen” album and Xasthur's “Telepathic With The Deceased” has been in my playlists a lot but that sort of blends w/ the Suicide Silence stuff. I basically never stopped listening to the brutally strong, heavy stuff since mid-2016. This is a very good thing. In fact, I have listened to more Black Metal in the past two years than ever before in my life. Almost exclusively for long periods of time.

Anyway...yeah.

Crickey crick crickets

Like every night. I will miss that about summer, the crickets going to town as I have my windows open. They will probably keep it up well into October (because global warming) but, when Winter hits it will be a cold tundra outdoors and everything starts all over again. That's Missouri.

Anyway, I got nothing to do tonight other than research apps that I will need for future coding projects I may take on, but I am delaying downloading any of them because....you know the story.

I am wired, too. Nothing new there.

Can't wait to see the sister's new house tomorrow.