OK. There are ways of expressing what I want to write without holding back and without conscious intention of offending, yet still managing to be direct.

This is largely a jotting pad for stream of Consciousness ideas that have been percolating for probably many years. It can be edited later, redacted, and the nuggets – should there be any, can be published more widely.

Entries from this point on have, in part, been prompted by my eldest son's recent comment that I should tell my story. I told him that the time would come when I would tell what I have gleaned so far from the many spiritual teachers and teachings I have hooked up with, but mainly to write about my experiences – some of which tally with what I've heard from others, and other which don't. As more than one famous teacher has said: “Don't take my word for any of this – test it for yourself!”

I used to hang back and even err on the side of agreeing for the sake of it in order to be liked , belong, and keep the peace. That was then, but this in NOW!

There will be occasional mentions of events from personal history interspersed here and there, but my story is only useful if it is able to serve as an example of how belief / human mind creates our perception and experience of the world.

This is no longer a popularity contest or looking for 'likes' on social media. There's no need. I am fortunate enough to have a handful of mighty companions who are on the same wavelength as me.

Stream of consciousness brain dump:

Focus on being. Just be. That's the primary key. Open to others, childlike – but not not gullible. Put away childish things. Render the veil asunder. Render unto Caesar.

Live between the two poles. Forgive. Be grateful. Minimise TV viewing. Keep it Light. Divine Comedy. Burn Dante's Inferno.

True to Self. Open (to) Source. The problem is not Capitalism – one of the problems is any “ism”. Keep own counsel. Help only when asked. Offer help only when guided to do so. Golden Rule. We are Stardust. we are Golden. We only dreamt that we left The Garden. (That's the problem – collectively and individually experience and waking up rom that one-by-one.)

Trees. Water. Nature. Communal walk.

A beautiful Message from White Eagle, Hopi indigenous on 03/16/2020

“This moment humanity is going through can now be seen as a portal and as a hole. The decision to fall into the hole or go through the portal is up to you. If they repent of the problem and consume the news 24 hours a day, with little energy, nervous all the time, with pessimism, they will fall into the hole. But if you take this opportunity to look at yourself, rethink life and death, take care of yourself and others, you will cross the portal. Take care of your home, take care of your body. Connect with the middle body of your spiritual House. Connect to the egregor of your spiritual home. Body, house, medium body, spiritual house, all this is synonymous, that is to say the same. When you are taking care of one, you are taking care of everything else.

Do not lose the spiritual dimension of this crisis, have the aspect of the eagle, which from above, sees the whole, sees more widely. There is a social demand in this crisis, but there is also a spiritual demand. The two go hand in hand. Without the social dimension, we fall into fanaticism. But without the spiritual dimension, we fall into pessimism and lack of meaning.

You were prepared to go through this crisis. Take your toolbox and use all the tools at your disposal. Learn about resistance with indigenous and African peoples: we have always been and continue to be exterminated. But we still haven't stopped singing, dancing, lighting a fire and having fun. Don't feel guilty about being happy during this difficult time. You don't help at all by being sad and without energy. It helps if good things emanate from the Universe now. It is through joy that one resists. Also, when the storm passes, you will be very important in the reconstruction of this new world. You need to be well and strong. And, for that, there is no other way than to maintain a beautiful, happy and bright vibration. This has nothing to do with alienation. This is a resistance strategy. In shamanism, there is a rite of passage called the quest for vision. You spend a few days alone in the forest, without water, without food, without protection. When you go through this portal, you get a new vision of the world, because you have faced your fears, your difficulties ... This is what is asked of you. Let them take advantage of this time to perform their vision seeking rituals. What world do you want to build for yourself?

For now, this is what you can do: serenity in the storm. Calm down and pray. Everyday. Establish a routine to meet the sacred every day. Good things emanate, what you emanate now is the most important thing. And sing, dance, resist through art, joy, faith and love.

Great quote from Douglas Rushkoff:

“I think the jury’s still out on what humans are, you know?” he says. “And I think that’s okay. The only ones who really want me to define what being human is are the artificial intelligence people. And if I can’t give them a metric for what humanity is, then humanity doesn’t deserve a place in their future.

“It’s almost like the part that we can’t articulate is the part that’s the most important. The closest I can say to it is: the formal cause of human beings is the soul. And that’s the part that’s just so confounding to capitalism and to science. But soul is not some supernatural thing, you know? You could argue it’s the same thing that Al Green or Otis Redding have. What is that? It’s the thing that goes away when you auto-tune their voices.”

We're all in the same boat, but it's sinking This is a great opportunity to swim With the current, not against it This is the least exhausting option And will bring us surely to the shore of safety

Brother T.

Do not give your power away to a guru, teacher or anything or anyone outside yourself.

You are the One.