Music and other Musings

I've recently come across this quote by Jim Carrey:

Depression is your body saying f*ck you, I don’t want to be this character anymore, I don’t want to hold up this avatar that you’ve created in the world. It’s too much for me. You should think of the word ‘depressed’ as ‘deep rest.’ Your body needs to be depressed. It needs deep rest from the character that you’ve been trying to play.


I don't have any real friends currently. At least I have my family, although my brother is pretty busy with his offspring.

I see my mother quite often. When she's away I experience times of intense loneliness especially on the weekends.


I found someone to make music with and we now practice my songs weekly.

In the meantime I wrote two new songs: Shine Forth and True Love

I'm going to write a little bit about how Shine Forth was created. Here's the only demo I've recorded so far (with my mobile, sorry):


Many people think they are introverts. They even label themselves as such. It's pretty easy to debunk this myth that there are introverts per se:

Have you ever seen a small child that is an introvert?

Probably not. It would be a rare exception. Once you too were not an introvert. Thus you are not really an introvert, but you have become an introvert.

The society and your upbringing made you an introvert and this is a reverseable process.

But as long as you limit yourself by saying “I am an introvert” you cannot free yourself and get rid of your conditioning.

In the last weeks I was so exhausted I could almost not do anything music-wise, well I couldn't almost do anything expect work, exercise and learn...

This song was lying around for weeks and I couldn't find the muse to continue. Here are all the lyrics and a first demo on my music page: Hold me now


I've been going through some tough times. I am living alone and the #Corona crisis has made me even more lonely than I normally am. Also, I'm under pressure, trying to do my work as good as possible from home, which isn't easy.


I've seen it. I've seen people that think to hear God's voice and they take it seriously. They destroy other people's lives. In evangelical denominations it's quite common that the leaders emphasize hearing God's voice and they even encourage people to do it.


I have been posting my songs here for a while but I found it to be difficult to access them for myself through the blog.

To solve this I have created a simple static website with org-mode: under I intend to post updates and blog entries here and the music itself on the other site now.


Joni Mitchell

In an interview Joni Mitchell answered the question “What is music?”:

I can't speak in general, but I can tell you what it is to me. Chords are colors that depict the current state of your emotionality – speaking as a a composer, ok let's put it into that context – as a composer at the moment that I sit down with the intention of composing, you know, I fritter across the piano or I strum across the strings until I find the chords that make me go “Oh!” at that moment. But most of music – pop music – they get this formula chords, well all the people like these chords, so they play them ad nauseam. So I think that's “ik”, music is when you pull the chords from your inner core, whether they sound weird to people or not and anyone adventuresome is doing that.


L.A. Ring, Road in the Village of Baldersbrønde (Winter Day), 1912 L.A. Ring, Road in the Village of Baldersbrønde (Winter Day), 1912

This is the first song that comes out of my experiments with Open Guitar Tunings.

I started composing it on the epiano but switched to the guitar for recording since this sounds a lot better IMO.


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