this is a very low point in my life, I’ve never felt this way I feel like I’ve completely just given up on everything and I can’t find any motivation to get back up and fix things, I can’t find motivation to do anything I literally cannot do one thing anymore, not one simple task, I can barely eat every time I think about eating I get nauseous and don’t eat , I feel like I can’t do anything to make myself better, I’m broken and I’m hurting and I’m not even sure why, there’s no reason why? I have a great family, a nice house, good faith in god, so then why do I feel this pain in my chest? An empty hollow pain like I can’t breathe, all I can think of doing is crying. I feel as if I’m not good enough and at this point I never will be. I’ve completely fallen down and I can’t get up, I wish I was okay but it seems like I never will be. I feel like I’m going through this cycle where I’m happy and a whole different person and then I’m just sad again, extremely sad but this is the worst I’ve been. I don’t know who I am, I keep trying to figure it out but I can’t. When will things start looking up? It seems like sometimes it’d just be easier to not be here, I feel out of place anyways. I feel empty and upset and broken but why? I wish I knew and I never will know. I just wish I was okay. My anxiety feels like it’s draining my whole body out, it’s exhausting feeling this way, these thoughts I get from my anxiety are exhausting. Constantly feeling like I’m doing something wrong is exhausting. When will this feeling go away? When will it all be better? For good? I’m drained, I’m tired, I’m hurting. I can’t breathe and I feel as if I’m suffocated in my own body, as if I’m trapped.