It’s like rubbing your eyes hard enough to squish them into a bagel shape in your head, so when you stop, everything is blurry and out of focus. You let out a sigh, and stumble outside. You blink in the light, looking around, and it’s just beautiful out. The longer you keep your eyes open, the clearer your vision gets. When you blink, it goes blurry, then gets better again. You look up at the sun and sneeze, hard. Your vision goes clear eventually. And the thing you notice over and over, every time you blink and then keep your eyes open so your vision gets clearer, every time, you are surprised. You say to yourself,

how beautiful is this

How beautiful is this.

How

could I have forgotten this.