Being exposed to the looks of many many curious eyes, eyes ready to judge your every step, leaves you really tense to the possibility of saying something wrong.
But there's also something magnetic to being exposed. No one really makes you do it. You don't have to. Unless you are a world-known actor and there's absolutely no way you can hide. But being a semi-well-known person, sharing their thoughts online, on a social media platform, and two articles in the local newspaper about yourself, well that leaves you with a choice.
However you choose to post and comment, even though you know it will gain the attraction and the replies you don't really want.
And then you're upset about it having to read the comments that disagree with you. But that's how it goes doesn't it? It's a free online world, everyone has the possibility (I won't say “the right” since it sounds more constitutional) to share their opinion, and there's a really high possibility it won't match with yours.
But you still are upset when you read comments that disagree with you. You still believe that you've said something wrong.
What does it actually mean to say something wrong?
It can be a situation where you hurt someone's feelings. It might be a situation where you say something that will make you look like an idiot in other's people's eyes. It might make you insensitive, brash, arrogant, or dumb, clueless, stupid.
But what if before posting that you gave it a thought. And you were sure that what you wrote matched your true opinion and your values. Should it matter if people disagreed with you if this was the case?
Or even better, should it matter if people disagreed with you in whatever way shape or form?
I feel (and I know) that it has deeper roots than it actually shows. It's your fear of your closest ones disagreeing with you and hence pushing you away from you. You are afraid of being unlovable if others don't agree with what you have to say.
No form of disagreement can make you unlovable. You are worthy of love and that can't have anything to do with any disagreement of opinion out there.