Anxiety and friendships
Note to self: real friends and family are there for you when times get tough, period.
The point of these relationships isn't in you being there for them when it's hard, or you being there when it's fun, it's mutual.
It's ok to speak about your worries even though you've thought all your life that this is only what others are allowed to do, and not you.
Your worries will not burden the others. If they are true friends, they will be happy to take some of your burden off your chest. That really is what friendship is for.
Friendship is not only about giving and being there for others and keeping out of the way with your troubles. Don't ever think that you are not allowed to have issues and feel bad because that's a burden to others.
It is not shameful to speak about your problems. Whoever has issues with you speaking about your problems might as well leave the room.
And open your chest and your soul to speak about the truest and heaviest stuff. Trust me, the other side is not nearly as weak as you think they are.
At the end of the day, what worries you might come out as much less of a problem when you actually speak about it. Usually it's when you DON'T speak about it that it gets that crazy energy that sucks life out of you.
And also, verbalising your problems might help you realize the core of them, and the solutions, and it can give you a new perspective.
Finally, I would just like to say that I believe that life, even though it gets unbearably hard sometimes, it does so to give you some of the answers. Keep up in ordet to learn, and make sure to listen closely what it's trying to tell you.