I am somewhat tired, but am awake with instant coffee, so I will remain in this state for some time, lol
Yearning, wanting, needing – sick of those feelings. Contentment suits me much better. Some people say the secret to a long life is “get what you want”, and to “not suffer”. I sincerely hope this isn't the case, because I will be dead in a decade if I have to rely on getting what I want (or need, at times) or/and “not suffering”.
Reminds me of a book I plan on reading by Derek Sivers called “Anything You Want”. It's on my reading list, may be a thing a pick up in August. I already read “A Company of One” by Paul Jarvis(?) (is that his name?), and it was OK. Was basically making the case that companies should grow slow, stay small, remain independent, etc. I don't have a company, and never will, so I am not sure why I read that book. Other than I agree with it. I already have the “gist” of Digital Minimalism (Cal Newport), so there is no need to buy that. In fact, it is not necessary to buy ANY books that are in the realm of “self help”. I mean, The Art Of War is a bit different than the books I just mentioned, but generally self help type of books are not really my thing. Glad people are putting interesting stuff out there, but I am not sure if I have a need for it.
How the day ends. If you, or I, can end their day and genuinely, honestly say “I had a good day” and be totally happy with the events of the day – then life is probably going your way. It has been YEARS since I have settled down at the end of the day and just said/thought to myself “I had a good day”. Because it all comes back to me, here, at this apartment. Despite all the “events” that occur in my life, I usually end the day with returning to my (kinda normal, uninteresting) apartment, and just “going through the motions”. I'm not “totally” unhappy here, but the will and whim of my youth of wanting to move about/get a new place every few years has dwindled down to near non-existence, and now I guess I just want to be “comfortable”. I have no idea why? Comfort isn't forever. Things get shook up and upheavals happen all the time in an individual's life, I want to be going with the flow and not being a stagnant rock at the bottom of it.
I should probably think about moving. Again.
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