Wednesday, October 14, 2020
Extremely lethargic the past day or so; today, I was in Chloe's default “Taking a nap, bye” mode all day – but curiously, did not attribute my want of sleep to depression. I was just tired, plain and simple.
I have been watching a lot of YouTube fitness videos lately to assess my weightlifting progress against beginners and pros alike. However, watching these videos just makes me want to start using steroids. I can't do that though – not only am I scared of doing post-cycle therapy, but my diet is also shit (today, I ate and drank: blueberry muffin; matcha roll; bowl of rice with pickled vegetables and intestines; two eggs; sesame flatbread; many slices of tri-tip; one Cotton Candy Bang Energy; a lot of wintermelon tea, with and without milk; and several oranges). At the very least, I would want to dial in my diet before I even consider injecting myself with synthetic chemicals that may or may not deliver the transformations I imagine in my head.
Things I've been thinking about buying:
Pre-used Toyota RAV4 Hybrid with about 20 to 20k miles (2018 to 2020 model)
Round-trip tickets to Houston in November from Southwest Airlines
Black Vuja De Japanese Loopwheel Vintage Hoodie in Size XL (on Grailed)
Meaghan Garvey's “Nowhere Fast: Short Stories”
John Elliott's Folsom Pocket Tees in Vintage Olive and Vintage Black
iPhone 12 Pro
White Bare Knuckles Season 3 White Cargo Shorts in Size XL (on Grailed – would sell my black shorts as they don't really fit)
CDG Monocle Scent Two: Laurel
Satisfy Running's “Death Valley” Muscle Shirt
Gorilla Healing's BPC 157 + TB-500 Wolverine nasal spray
Some local girl's OnlyFans that was plugged on her Tinder profile