I begin this, with the aspirations of being able to clear my mind, vent my concepts and grow as a person.
Self-reflection, serious thought about one's character and actions.
We're happy with filling our hours with nonsensical drivel, the pursuit of material goods and life endangering foods. Our social interactions and political discourse happen in an internet made 'echo chamber' where much like entertainment, money or food is only there to serve us empty satisfication. We argue to win, We watch to distract, We spend to feel happy, We eat to fill a void. We do so much in order to viewers and build an image of self, corporations are literally profiting millions off of this obsession of trying to one up on each other. This constant need of validation and blue ticks.
All whilst ignoring the self. As cliche as it seems, the one opinion we completely disregard is our own. We hate ourselves and love complete strangers, we give advice to others but ignore ourselves. We try to make our life seem great, try to make other people's lives better all while ignoring our own.
This pandemic has provided few good things, one of the most important being; having to be alone with ourselves. For many its the first time they've ever had to be with their own thoughts and it's a scary proposition. Having to deal with your own baggage, the reality of your current state and your worth.
For me, it has forced me to look within myself and be honest. Being able to self-reflect for extended periods of time often being driven to what seems insanity has given me a new perspective, forced me to try and live a more balanced life.
This blog is an attempt to reflect upon concepts I hold, be able to articulate what I think and ultimately try and improve myself. All while having it written for posterity. Unfortunately, as I endevour this tumultuous journey, much like me it's going to be all over the place, unpolished and probably horrid. But alas, I shall attempt to push through this and as my writings become organised and polished as will my mind.