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Hollywood remakes of Asian movies and tv shows are the absolute worst and actually help drive xenophobia and impede Westerners from being able to understand the various Asian cultures and people. Westerners end up only ever seeing Asians as anime caricatures or dragon people as a result. Why? Well, any movie or tv show that make Asians look like normal everyday people with everyday problems are always changed to meet Western standards and are changed for Western views.

Rather than encourage Westerners to simply watch the original movies or tv shows, Hollywood remakes them and turns them into something that often 1) completely bastardizes the original and 2) turns people off from watching the original because the remake was so trashy.

I know I shit on dubs of animes a lot. I have always preferred listening to the original Japanese voices and reading the subtitles. Not everyone feels the same and thus prefer the dubs so they don't have to deal with reading. However, it brings up the question of why don't we have dubbed versions of the movies and tv shows instead of the remakes? Western movies get dubbed! So why can't Asian movies and tv shows be dubbed as well? Why do we need remakes?

Take the Philippines for example. Okay, there have been Filipino remakes of Korean dramas. However!! Before they even make an attempt to remake it for Filipino audiences, the Korean dramas are always dubbed in Tagalog first from start to end. Additionally, the show is aired a few times. Example, Temptation of Wife was originally a Korean drama that was remade in the Philippines. Episodes of the original version aired twice. Empress Ki (which doesn't have a remake but was dubbed) also aired twice and is available on Iflix.

Why can't Westerns do the same? I do think though that it speaks volumes about Westerners who are able-bodied and have no impediments with vision or reading that too many absolutely refuse to watch anything with subs. If Asian movies/tv show being dubbed will get these people to watch these shows, then so be it. But seriously, maybe if people listened to different languages that aren't Western ones, people wouldn't be so threatened when they hear someone speaking another language.

Thankfully, with the advent of Netflix and Hulu (as well as other streaming services), Asian movies and tv shows are becoming more wildly available with subs. I wish people would give these shows and movies a chance, rather than rushing to remake them.

You won't suddenly burst into flames if you watch and listen to the original Asian movie/tv show with subs. If anything, you might learn a few new words or be better able to pronounce things.

Part of the reason why I feel like so many people struggle to see Asians as more than dragon people or anime characters is because they aren't exposed to anything else but these kinds of movies/tv shows.

The discourse for Asian Americans and other Asians in the diaspora is another matter, but there is a tie between them. Just as Westerners need to see Asians in the diaspora be in more Western media, Westerners also need to be exposed to Asian media from the homelands. By doing remakes, Hollywood is essentially encouraging this view that Western media is more superior and that it must remake any Asian media that they want their hands on. Hollywood is encouraging this view that Asian media is lesser and thus, Asian stories aren't worth telling or watching.

We don't need Hollywood remakes of Asian movies or tv shows. We don't need Asian movies or tv shows to be retold for Western audiences. It's about time that Westerners start watching Asian movies and tv shows in their original forms so that they can actually see Asians as people.


Well, after months of on and off watching this kdrama, I finally finished Queen for Seven Days. To be honest, I had to force myself to finish the series. Every time I would think about starting another series, I'd feel a bit gross because I didn't want to leave this show unfinished and start another.

While the show was decent and I certainly enjoyed the acting, after episode 13 (or so), the episodes were dragging on. I got bored and annoyed with the drama which is sad because I honestly thoroughly enjoyed Lee Dong-Gun as Lee Yoong and Yeon Woo-Jin as Lee Yeok. They were both exceptional, especially Dong-Gun as Yoong.

He was particularly able to capture Yoong's madness, paranoia, yearning, loneliness, cruelty, and softness. He ensured that Yoong felt human with hopes and dreams, but a human who also did cruel and evil things because of his madness and paranoia. They humanized Yoong, but never once tried to woobify him and turn him into this sinnamon roll as people on a certain website or two love to call evil characters. Yoong was human who wanted love, but never once did they excuse his actions. Yoong was human, but a cruel human being whose actions should not be excused because he has daddy and mommy issues. I also adored Min-Young's acting and thought she, too, did a great job with Chae-Kyung.

However, the writing was just off at times. To be quite honest, while I did cry with the ending, I found it so hard to believe that Chae-Kyung and Yeok were in love the majority of the time. It was easier for me to believe Yoong's love for Chae-Kyung than it was for me to believe that Chae-Kyung and Yeok were in love. I believed it only towards the end, but honestly, most of the way, I had to suspend my disbelief.

Still, I enjoyed the fact that Chae-Kyung wasn't this epic and perfect slay queen who could do no wrong and who could beat up 10 men with one hand. I think my favorite part of this entire series was how human every character felt like, but especially Chae-Kyung. No one was perfect. No one was superhuman.

I loved that about this show.

#digitaljournalpost #kdramareview

I'm going to attempt to keep this review short and sweet for now. Why? Because I read this back in January 2018 (it's December 4th 2018 right now) so until I get a chance to find and review the notes I had made back then to give more in-depth reasons why I am giving this book the grade I'm giving it, this is the review.

B+ | Recommend only if you've read The Imperial Harem by Leslie Peirce AND Ottoman Women Builders: The Architectural Patronage of Hadice Turhan Sultan by Lucienne Thys-Şenocak. This book definitely not a book for someone who hasn't read either one of these books (especially the latter – which I previously reviewed).

Özgüleş attempts to argue that because of her patronage which showcased her “immense power”, Emetullah belongs in the “Sultanate of Women” (which is a time period in Ottoman history when women of the imperial harem exerted political influence over their sons & state matters due to the fact that their sons were minors and/or mentally unstable when they rose to power). He did a fantastic job with the research and his dedication was clear from the first. The inclusion of his own photographs of the structures that are still standing (which – unfortunately – are limited to a few since many of Emetullah Sultan's buildings/structures that she endowed and/or bore her name have fallen into disrepair, disappeared, and are forgotten) showed to me how devoted he was to this topic.

His analysis was pretty sound especially when it came to analyzing her building activities and what they meant. I appreciated and rather liked the chapters about the conversion of churches into mosques in her name and the Galata New Mosque for the research and analysis that he did for them. He really took the time to do the research and get the evidence he needed to support his idea. However, there were times when I thought he sounded too desperate and was pulling at strings.

Unfortunately, I wasn't convinced of Özgüleş' argument that Emetullah belongs in the “Sultanate of Women”. Sound as his analysis, there were obvious weaknesses in his arguments and the desperation was there all too often. Basically, he shined where he shined, but in the parts that were so-so, the writing and the argument were just that: so-so.

So basically? This book is a solid B+. Again, don't recommend it if you haven't read either of the books I mentioned above, especially Thys-Şenocak's Ottoman Women Builders. That book is essential to understanding this topic in my opinion. Yes, Peirce's book is important too, but I'm assuming that you've at least read that before thinking about jumping into this one. Because you need to know how the Ottoman harem operates to get a clue and a decent foundation to understand what's happening in this book.

(also posted on goodreads)

#digitaljournalpost #bookreview #historybooks

My lab professor deducted points from my exam even though my answers were correct because I didn't answer the questions the way she wanted them answered. She didn't deduct points because I was wrong, she deducted points from my exam even though my answers were correct because she didn't like how I formatted my answers.

I have never felt more infuriated and disrespected in my entire life. I am not perfect. There were mistakes I made on the exam and I accept that I made those mistakes.

However, my lab professor legitimately took points off from my exam score because I didn't answer the questions how she wanted them to be answered. I answered the questions correctly and even she admitted that I answered the questions perfectly and hit all the major (and minor) points. But because I didn't answer the questions exactly in the order that it was written or in bullet points, because I added in a function (bacteria in the large intestine) in a question asking about listing two structural differences between the stomach, small and large intestines despite the fact that I did list other structural differences, because I listened to her and wrote out as much detail as possible for every question, she deducted major points from my exam.

I got an 88 – not because I answered those major questions wrong – but because she went on a power trip.

She took points from people because they went with the arrow format. She took points from people because they went with a short answer format. She took points from people because, despite the fact that they included the correct answer, they didn't repeat it in the second half of the question.

For example? One of my classmates wrote her answer to the question “Define Enzyme. Mention 3 characteristics of enzyme” like this:

Enzyme – a protein – biological catalyst – specific to their substrates

An enzyme is a biological molecule that speeds up reactions by lowering the activation energy, allowing products to be produced faster and more efficiently. They have optimal pH and temperature levels and will not function otherwise because their function depends on their shape.

My classmate got this question marked wrong. The lab professor deducted points because my classmate didn't mention that an enzyme was a protein and a biological catalyst in the sentence. She mentioned it in the bullet points above the sentence, but because she didn't include it in the sentence, she was deducted points.

Another? Ok!

A question asked about the peritoneal cavity and how it is divided into different compartments.

I asked another student who also got the question wrong what she was missing and we were both missing the same things: supracolic compartment and the infracolic compartment. Someone, please explain to me how I got a lower score on that question, despite the fact that our answers were pretty much exactly the same?

Guys, I'm more than angry. I'm completely and utterly infuriated.

I'm not going to complain about the time we were given. The time wasn't enough and it did screw up other students without a doubt. However, my anger is directed at how she graded the questions.

Who, but a professor on a power trip, would deduct points from people even though they answered the question correctly and completely?


I've never been this ANNOYED with a professor/educator since my high school AP chemistry professor.

So I have two Anatomy and Physiology professors: one for lab and one for lecture.

The professor for my lecture class is amazing. I adore him. Yes, his quizzes can be tricky (he likes his trick questions), however, his lecture and the notes he provides are wonderful. He is clear when he teaches. It's easy to learn from him as a result.

My lab professor, however? No. She is more confusing than my high school AP chemistry professor and that woman was DIFFICULT.

My lab professor: 1) Reads off the slides 2) Over lectures despite the fact that this is lab and NOT lecture. 3) Is incredibly unclear to the point that we had to DEMAND that she give us a list of structures to study for the practical and 4) *SHE MOVED MULTIPLE STICKERS AROUND DURING THE PRACTICAL*.

Yes, that's right.

She moved the identifiers during the practical when we only had a minute to answer the two questions per station and thirty seconds in the second go around.

She did this multiple times.

What sort of bullshit is that? Changing where the sticker is located changes the answer. These aren't muscles or bones where there's a little more leeway; the practical exam was on the nervous system and special senses. You move a sticker, you change the answer.

I shouldn't be standing there second guessing my answer when I KNOW that the answer I have based on where the sticker was, is correct.

The nerves? Okay fine, should have studied them better. Although even that was bullshit. Tell me this: how can we be expected to identify the nerves when the stickers are bigger than the nerves on the models themselves?

I'm so annoyed. I'm ANGRY. My grade is at risk because of this bullshit.


Write everyday, even if it's just a few sentences.

I think every writer has gotten this advice and even given it to other writers. Put your thoughts down on a piece of paper and just let the words flow.

But have you ever had one of those days when the words just won't transfer onto paper or screen? Have you ever had one of those days when all these thoughts and ideas swell in your mind, but when you go for your pen to write or for your laptop to type, the words never appear? They stay stuck up in your brain, unable to escape. Trapped.

What do you do when you want to write, but can't? What do you do when you feel like you're about to burst with words upon words upon words, but can't put the words onto paper? It's been happening a lot. What's causing it, I've wondered?

Stress? Anxiety? Work load? The perfectionist in me wanting things to be right from the start?

Still, I try to do something to ease the weight from the words; scattered words here and there. It works — sometimes. But I'll take sometimes. Sometimes is better than nothing because sometimes, words blossom.

Sometimes, a word turns into more words which turns into a sentence or two. Then it just goes from there.

It doesn't always work, but write a word or two everyday. Let it be messy. Let it be ugly. Let it jump all over the place and maybe make no sense. Just let go. Shatter those expectations of perfection. Write and write. Write small words, big words, sentences, fragments, essays, anything. Something is better than nothing.


It’s Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month and I just want to bring people’s attention briefly to this because this is near and dear to my heart.

Ovarian cancer is the 5th leading cause of cancer deaths among women or that 1 in 75 women will be diagnosed with ovarian cancer. and that a little over 14,000 women would die from it this year alone.

Unlike breast cancer which we always hear about, I hear little about ovarian cancer and as the daughter of an ovarian cancer survivor, this needs to change. People need to be more aware so that more funds can be poured into researching this cancer so that we have a means of early detection and better ways of treating the disease.

One of the things that makes ovarian cancer so deadly is the fact that only 20% of cases are diagnosed early and the fact that there really no early detection screening like with breast cancer where my mom so eloquently puts it, her boobies get turned into pancakes to check for cancer. My mom, for example, her cancer was caught only after her symptoms (those symptoms are bloating, pelvic/abdominal pain, lack of appetite or getting full quickly, and having to pee a lot) appeared and got worse. But when those symptoms show up, the cancer has usually already metastasized.

There are obviously tests and so on like checking for the CA-125 which would be high in women with ovarian cancer, but this isn’t a reliable test for ovarian cancer because if you have endometriosis, you would have an elevated CA-125

But again, there’s NO RELIABLE early detection screening for ovarian cancer.

So why this post? Basically to bring more awareness and hope that anyone reading this would try to think more about ovarian cancer. Maybe I’m hoping to inspire one of you future doctors and researchers out there to help research this cancer and find better cures and especially find a reliable early detection screening. 

Are there ways you can help right now? Of course! You can make donations to an organization like Ovarian Cancer Research Fund Alliance. And if you can’t donate, hey, awareness is one of the most powerful things we have against diseases because with awareness, comes more drive to do something about it and make a difference.

#cancer #digitaljournalpost


Kyoto. 29th May 2018.

Kimono rentals are all the rage in Kyoto. Wear a kimono for a day for about $60 and go explore the city to take as many Instagram-worthy shots as possible. And all the while, possibly getting complimented and asked by fellow tourists and maybe some locals if they can take a photo of you. At least, that was the case for me. Call it egotistical, but I couldn't help but feel some pride that a group of elderly Japanese ladies came up to me and said I looked very cute and pretty. I can't help the pride I felt when a number of fellow tourists asked if they could take photos with me or photos of me solo.

That day? I felt extra pretty. Extra special.

Egotistical? Perhaps, but hey, I did rent the kimono to look good in photos.

#photos #japan2018 #digitaljournalpost

I did it.

I fucking did it.

I beat Spider-Man for the PS4 AND I obtained all the trophies. Yes, I finally 100%'d a game. Platinum trophy baby!

I'm so proud of myself. I'm not the trophy hunter, but nonetheless, I'm proud because I beat the game in four days and beat it completely. 100%.

But the game made it so fun to get those trophies that I couldn't help it. Okay, yes, there were a lot of moments of frustration, especially with the Sable battles, but God, the game kept me on my toes and made me hungry for more.

It's by no means perfect. To be honest, I was hoping for more side quests. But the story itself? Once I got to the third act, I was itching to finish and see the ending and oh boy, did I get rewarded. That ending? Broke me. Otto and Peter had such a good relationship so when it broke down like that? I could not stop crying. It was beautiful. It was painful. I have to give props to the actors themselves because they really sold it for me. The emotions just overwhelmed me.

But what really sent me over the edge was the sequence with Aunt May and Peter. Oh my God. I was sobbing. Already wounded from the Otto and Peter confrontation, the ending for Aunt May and Peter just made the tears flow even harder. It was more than painful. It hit me right in my heart and made it cry.

Even worse is that the game kept at it, too. The final, final post game cutscene with Norman and Harry? Jesus Christ. While it was nothing compared to the May and Peter cutscene, the one between father and son just punched me right in the gut.

But it's those post game cutscenes that leave me wondering about the future: will Insomniac Games make another Spider-Man game? Truth be told, I hope they do. I wouldn't mind it if it focuses on Miles, but I'd definitely love to see these devs take another bite of the apple.

#spiderman #videogames #digitaljournalpost

Made in Abyss is a BEAUTIFUL anime filled with dark twists and turns but also filled with so much hope. I highly recommend you take a few hours to watch it especially if you’re here in the states and have amazon prime. It’s one of those shows that doesn’t lull you into thinking it’s a sweet thing without any darkness. The darkness hits you in the face right at the first episode and builds and builds and builds. It does get slow in the middle BUT it picks right back up!! !

Also a warning there is SUPER dark concepts that involve children (no not r.ap.e because if there was i would have shut my laptop down), but it does have to do with adults taking advantage of children and using them for their own means. It also involves children getting severely injured. lots of blood and screams. It’s not pretty. Quite frankly, it made my stomach twist.

Episode 10 is ESPECIALLY a dark one so if you choose to watch it, just be prepared to see something that could make your stomach twist and then if you can survive that episode, be prepared for more fuckery.

This show is DARK. Not for the faint of heart. It’s Studio Ghibli combined with Junji Ito and Hideshi Hino. Hope and despair come together that tells the story of life's – and humanity's – duality.