Meanwhile
The long delay is upon us, so we’re sitting ducks in Cali until the NC transfer happens. Not the worst place to be, tbh. The mortgage is paid. House isn’t going anywhere.
I’m trying not to stress out over things I cannot control. The move being delayed, for one, but other things, too. Things I know I can’t fix because it takes two people to mend a connection. I don’t know if I feel bitter. Maybe that comes later after all the feelings have turned to mush.
Sometimes I wish I could run away from the person I am. She’s so fucking annoying. She wants him back, she wants to fix things; she wants to be happy. It’s ridiculous.
What does happiness have to do with any of this?