“Pyschic Defence Strategies on my defenceless moments
Çukurcuma has been the best route going home. It was full of brick a brack, color and ideas. A good surprise would be the open doors of Galeri Apel and finding a new exhibition inside. Apel is one of the galleries in İstanbul that make me feel welcome. I always anticipate that what i see here will at worse be accessible if not directly speaking to me. That one specific day, Bahadır Yıldız's “psychic defense strategies” effected me emotionally. I couldn't tell why. I couldn’t at the time explain how I personally related to the figures, but I can say that they were “immature grown ups” to me. Shy but courageous individuals. I took their photos but was too lazy to post at the time. It was a time when I had just moved my apartment from Cihangir to Etiler after five years of living there. I was feeling the usual trauma I have for loosing attachments. I was feeling a bit angry and weak. I had no “psychic defense strategies.” I was just trying to figure my way out. After a short while, I had to move my office because the department I was working in was transferred to a different publishing company within the same holding. It was a whole new building full of new people, with a different energy. Again, I was feeling a bit odd, a bit weak and unhappy for leaving behind friends, collective humor as well as the familiar faces, voices and small habits that made me feel safe in my daily routines. With a mind trying to grasp all these feelings, I entered the Hurriyet building for a meeting, couple of days before moving there for good. To be honest the entrance hall was far from feeling remote but I was feeling so despondent and suspicious of moving again that I felt icy cold. Waiting to go up, somehow I wanted to look down the -1 level hall that could be seen from the entrance level. And there I saw again, my three immature friends, three sculptures by Bahadır Yıldız. All of a sudden I couldn't help smiling. I felt surprised and at the same time at home. It was as if my favorite curator brought them for me to note that there was not a break, that things would continue and that everywhere I could continue seeing things that would keep inspiring me. Sort of an imaginary promise for sustaining my flaneurie... On the internet I couldn't find much information about how Bahadır Yıldız's three sandpaper sculptures travelled from Apel to Hürriyet Building. However, at Galeri Apel's website I read and excerpt from Bahadır Yıldız talking about his artwork: “Artists are, within the system, subjects, but in the contemporary art market are they dealt with as predicates? Never before has there been such freedom (materials, language, thought, techniques, etc.), but despite this can we speak of a “contemporary”, complicated obligation for the artist to institutionalize? A situation involving the need of developing new strategies to be at the center of contemporary art, and of constantly updating oneself? Has art lost its power to change and ameliorate, lost its sacred function? Do artists and art institutions concern themselves only with the realities of their own markets? As I asked, and was unable to ask, this sort of question concerning the present situation, as a mechanism for defending art against the trend I did installations, pictures in sand, and spiral sculptures. In these works sand is connected with evanescence, while sandpaper stresses an inauspicious, corrosive ground. At the same time, I have produced these works cut off from the outside, on a tense line where I am caught in the middle, and shuttling back and forth to my other world. I describe these works as “psychic defense strategies,” and they can be seen within a spatial covering which is also made up of sandpaper. (~ Y. Bahadır Yıldız, Galeri Apel Website) In contrast to the “corrosive” nature of sandpaper and what it refers to for Bahadir Yildiz, throughout my experience the three sculptures had a cohesive and strengthening power. They magically appeared at transitional periods in my life and glued together the compulsory breaks my habits had to go through. These “immature adults” in my perception combined childhood with responsibility, obligatory changes with continuity, work with idleness, humor with precautious seriousness. Unlike their creator ”cut in the middle, shuttling back and forth in two worlds” while producing them, they are peacefully uniting. Seeing them every morning while waiting for the elevators I think: “Institutionalized?” Maybe. Not only by the contemporary market demands but by the spaces and routines the art works talk to us. Loosing or gaining new meanings in new settings. Moving from the safe artists atelier to a gallery, then to the atrium of a corporate publishing house and maybe in the future to a museum. Constantly meaning different things and forming new defense strategies towards new demands. Maybe. But if so that is just like us. With a few choices, through a constant struggle to find and realize our own paths… And that's how and why I(we) relate to them. And I think that's how we keep each other safe.
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