I Can't Fall in Love Without You
You were happy, you felt free. You could do everything you wanted, hanging out with friends after school without constantly worrying about someone. No one holding you down, that was what you thought. Well, at first.
But what you felt was temporary. Because in the end, your thoughts would circle back to him. His annoying childish tendencies, his selfishness and egoistical trait, his overproudness, his stressful nights without a wink of sleep, he who thought he was the king of the world. Then by logic, you should be happy shouldn't you? You didn't have to be overworried about his well being, did he overwork himself? Or his constantly growing fanbase populations. You could focus on yourself more instead of being like a nanny to him.
Yet you couldn't. Because how could you ever forget his roaring eyes? His real smile that looked foolish on his face, you loved it though. His over ambitious traits that sometimes damage even himself, his relentless practice, his desire to be the best. You also remembered those times when you smacked him down and reminded him to fix those, or be there by his side at the hard times. All of these times you buried it, but deep down you knew. You couldn't fall in love with someone else except him, you couldn't fall in love without Narumiya Mei.
You hoped he was at least a bit sorry towards you. That the reason he didn't talk to you all these times you were apart because he didn't know what words to say. Or maybe feeling a little worried about you when he thought of you. What a joke, as if Narumiya Mei would worry over someone except himself. A man who held his pride high like him wouldn't think about that. On top of it all, you weren't one of his 'people' anymore, so why should he?
Seeing him flirting or clinging to someone else felt weird. Well it wasn't like it had anything to do with you or bothered you, really. Like you ever care about who he fucked (in truth it ticked you off more than anything to hear his fangirls' whisper) You didn't give a single fuck about who he dated or fucked, now it wasn't your business anymore, was it? (no you gave too much fuck about it, really) As a petty wish you just hoped that he wouldn't feel satisfied with those people (or you just didn't want him to fall for someone else).