I Can't Fall in Love Without You #log2

Maybe you thought Narumiya Mei wouldn't give you a second thought anymore, but you were way off the mark. Because if baseball didn't distract him, you would be on his mind every minutes, every seconds.“Damn!” he screamed throwing his ball as fast as he could. In the end even with those countless fangirls waiting for him, you were the one in his mind and he seemed couldn't erase you from it.

What was the point of all those screams and gifts if one of them wasn't from you. He was pissed off with you. How dare you, a mere someone occupied his mind. He may look happy and indifferent from the outside but all of it was an act to provoke you, to get a reaction from you and you would get fed up and came running back to him. That was his plan, there was no way he would sacrifice his pride and ego to admit he still wanted you. But if you ever so kindly said please or beg him, he would take you back. He was kind afterall.

Though, you never acted like he wished you would. Worst of all you seemed to be actually happier and more free now rather than the time you two were in a relationship. You hanged around with your friends, doing things normal highschoolers would do, the things he couldn't do with you. He saw you smiling around with that guy from another school? It was a blind date wasn't it? That was he heard from the rumor. But really, if you did like him then your taste went from 100 to 0. From Narumiya Mei to someone who was below him? Was he irritated? No, not at all. You weren't his anymore so why should he?Actually Mei really wanted to sling his arms around your shoulder to prove you were his, but you weren't his anymore, were you?

The break up wasn't his fault anyway so why should he be the one to drown in regrets. It was YOUR fault, not him. (Tsk, his pride was really that high to admit even his shares of mistakes.) What were you expecting anyway? His time? He was on season, he was aiming for Koshien. So you went out for the summer with your friends causing the gap between you two went wider and wider. You were having fun in the summer while he was struggling even more with his anxiousness of last year summer, and where were you? You were no where to be found, he was usually the one who replied late and now you were the one.

What did you do anyway? You just played and fooled around, you didn't have any important goal like him. So, you met up after days of estranged communication. Mei complained so much about how you should understand and prioritize him also being supportive and you got tired of it, then the “let's break up” words slipped up. It had been in your mind for a while, you had a life too! You didn't want to spend your highschool days dedicating to someone as selfish as Mei afterall. In heat of the moment, he agreed instantly “Fine, I don't need you anyway” That was the story of your break up.

By nature he should be the one who was happy and you were the one who was regretting things. Why were you so happy then? (well he hated that he wasn't the one painted that stupid smile on your face) Unfazed like nothing changed, nothing happened, well something did change because you free to do anything you like and didn't get stuck taking care of him. Mei hated it, you shouldn't be happy. You should crawled and begged for him to take you back. Not like he cared for it though.

“ARGH WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU ANYWAY?!” He screamed frustatedly, the ball he throwed almost hitting the batter head. His teammates told him to calm down and Kunimoto also told him to go to the bullpen (thank god this was practice against second string). While his body may be cooled off, his mind wasn't. His mind kept wandering back to you. And somewhere along the line in the back of his mind, he admitted it. He was jealous, he was jealous you were having so much fun, he was insecure because that smile wasn't coming from him, he was scared that you would leave him for somebody and now he lost you. But if Mei could ask for one thing. Please, don't fall in love without him.