22-9-20
you said something which is actually very important and i didn't respond to it, when we were txting.
it was this :
Well, part of me is sad because that means I have to fully realize that the words I got from him weren’t the words I needed and that I am never going to get them from him...
dus bij deze :
yes the realisation that you did not get and can not get what you needed and feel you still need from the people that ought to have given it to you and that you still think could and/or should possibly give you, is big.
but it is a psychic need and if you understand how your psyche works that need falls away or at least you experience it differently and it has little effect.
because this need is caused by pain from the past that you haven't let go of, but you can and you will let go of it in time because you are doing the work.
and doing the work enables you to spread your wings and allow the world to unfold the way it is going to unfold and allow the world to give you what it has to give you.
beware though that you are not hanging on to the pain because it gives meaning. that you think the pain is your connection with the truth because it really isn't, or rather it is only one aspect of it.
our biggest and most authentic connection as humans, and you know that already, you have experienced this, is actually with the earth and the sky and the clouds and the trees and with the other animals — not with the particular humans that happened to have brought us into the world.
mind you this error of the human perspective is thousands of years old and it is kind of baked into our dna so it cannot help but influence how it makes us feel.