Generations: La Familia
father:
he watched his father
weaken the land of his mother
over bowls of arroz y gandules.
he slapped her face
she slapped sazón,
both tenderizing
alimento para los niños.
my father only did what
he was taught, open palm
against my mother
giving her money to
cook a pernil.
mother:
she watched her mother
as she spoke to the cops
stopping by on Atlantic Avenue.
él es un hijo de puta
trampa y voy a cortarle.
knives narrowly missing
pops head as she watched
saturday morning cartoons,
waiting for afternoon
where mr. softee granted
credit for a tribe of eight.
she'll visit him in the land
of coqui and scorpions years
later, remembering how
he narrowly missed a knife.
she will not ask him
to rescue her from creatures
as she stands her ground,
shaking with the kitchen knife.
her mother knew in
San Juan, the cowards will
keep on crawling.
daughter:
she was scared
to scribe all
the tragedy,
kept it locked
in her head.
she watched him
beat her
both eyes swollen shut
after she sent chairs
swinging in
curses.
her pen is her path
to their histories
they foolishly
put in a child of ten.
they did not teach
her spanish, so she snuck
it in as a ghost
at kitchen tables.
grandmothers with
tongues of swords
swiftly retold
tragedies in an alphabet
she struggled to
master,
thinking la nena
would never
learn patterns if
she was a little more
gringa instead of
boriqua,
never realizing
that she squeezed
herself between
the muñecas
and rocking chair
soaking in
flailing hands
and
broken hearts
to skipping needles
of Hector Lavoe
and Celia Cruz.
years later
her late night
feelings
boiled down
to everything
she learned from
home sweet home,
the only prayer
she can roll
off her tongue
as she shook
with the possibility
of history repeating:
dame la fuerza
para encontrar un
beso en este mundo.
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Originally published in A Thing Of Beauty Painted By Words, 2013 and reprinted in She Will Speak Series: Gender Based Violence Anthology, 2019