These days

These days are truly crazy.

Just two weeks ago we were visiting Verdens Ende with Ryder. Two days later I started the new job and he went back home.

The rest of the week was quite tough and just a week ago I was sure I want to die. A day later I was listening to a 2 hour long lecture by Eugen Drewermann about Jesus and you were at the peak of your energy.

It's been an intense Rollercoaster ride between the deepest of sadness and despair and highest of joy that I've ever experienced, sometimes within one day.

Still, even in this turbulence I feel like I want to hold on to the belief that there are many reasons for us to be together and that it's worth to continue.