It's been a while since I wanted to kill myself. And I'm not sure I totally do, yet. But I am extremely frustrated with my current life circumstances. Living in my home country is extremely fucking expensive. I hate working in an office. I hate working for others – full stop. I have constant headaches. My wife and I are barely having sex. I'm getting fat from the shitty processed food in the supermarkets here. Meat and veg is 2-3x more expensive than the country I was in before. My friends overseas think I'm stupid for leaving – as it didn't make sense financially or to my quality of life. I try to explain that I didn't intend to stay here, it was trying to be a holiday... My family here think I'm stupid for wanting to leave “early”, less than 2 months in to a 9 month lease.