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a phone switch

the Moto X is almost completely dead. as in, the battery is not doing a v good job at holding a charge and it is very slow to charge to begin with. So (like i should've done last month) i am going to get a new phone in April. This go-round, i have to be “budget-y” because i have necessary things i pay for outside of just a phone when pay day rolls around, but i am still going to get something NEW (bc refurbished phones basically never work). And by “new”, i mean something that is fresh-out-of-the-box, and not year model. In fact the phone i plan on getting was manufactured in 2013(!), the BlackBerry Q10. Now it is not actually written in stone that i am going to get this phone, but it is VERY likely because it is under $150, never-used, and i found a p damn cool case for it, too. So i will make the switch from Android to BB 10 OS (like i did before) and just primarily use the BB for Tweeting and writing out blog posts on write.as (this blog) in the browser (which will work just fine, just as it did on the BB Classic). I already adjusted my budget for next month to accommodate for the new phone (& case) & i will give the lifeless brick (the Moto X) back to my brother-in-law. It will def be nice to have my OWN phone again & not have to worry about dropping a borrowed one or whateverthefuck. Good times.

As for today, the mail is just arriving (past 4 PM, wtf?) and i am hoping to get some good stuff in the mailbox. Other than that, nothing terribly exciting happening here besides cleaning the kitchen up (counters, stove) more, & yea. Pretty boring, tbh. Haha.

Be back in a bit!

a fine day

checked up on dad (via texting my mom) & he is tired, but is in good spirits bc he is seeing a family friend today. also, i cleaned the fuck out of my apt (kitchen floors / bedroom) & am now doing dishes & will clean off the stove in a little bit. as well as the bathroom.

getting nicotine lozenges in the mail soon, too. which is good because i only have one cigarette left. :/

i am going to check up on the e-course i am taking bc it starts tomorrow & chances are, there is some (more) info for me to take in on the website today. i already read the syllabus & all other relevant info, just gotta check in again.

be back in a bit!

updated some things on my Web services

so now i am more secure :):):)

anyway, it is a very slow night on Twitter tonight. fucking sucks. but i am hoping it picks up in a bit here.

i also ordered my meds & more lozenges so, off cigarettes again. good deal.

nothing to do here tonight, Friday night and i am staying in bc i am a 34 year old, adult loser. lol! (not really)

be back in a bit!

enrolling in write.as beta

i did so on my phone and there should be an app update soon (i am on the Pi right now) & when it does, i will be able to blog from oleary.io right from the app. So, awesome.

also, dad is out of surgery & recovering. so he is in good spirits. all is good there.

Tuesday is when the Research Methodologies courses start & i am v much so looking forward to it. i have an appt somewhere else that day, too, so i will be doing a lot of the coursework when i get home. Gonna be fun!

having bold coffee right now & a smokey treat. good times.

be back in a bit!

ahhhhh delicious Pibb Xtra

Xtra delicious this bright, beautiful morning

there is a possibility of me visiting my dad at the hospital later today but more than likely, we will all let him rest. exhausting day for him

St Paddy's Day may be cancelled this year. idk

not a whole hell of a lot going on otherwise.

yada yada

ahhhhh writing

i have a nice little pop-a-lop and all the smokey treats i could imagine and the night is still young (but i am in for the night). No plans, just relaxing.

i need to move. the floors here are v bad. i have mentioned this.i stand in one spot and just baaaaarely shift my weight and the fucking floor creaks and snaps and pops. The fucking thing is delapidated. they will probably rent to some dumb fucker after me (and brag about how nice the carpet is bc they are scumsuckers) and the person will bust his/her ankle on the warped lumps and sue this slum out of existence. there is no way any of this apt would pass code.

idgaf where i am moving to. authentically makes no difference to me. as long as i MOVE!

there is nothing going on ther than me complaing

be back in a bit!

Three Levels Of Intelligence

I see three levels of intellectual hierarchy in the United States today in regards to education. Particularly higher education. They are: Level 1 (lowest level) – people who do not consider going to college and never tried to go to college or don't have faith that they will do well in college, so they do not attempt it

Level 2- people who feel they CAN go to college and they hear all the hype and hearsay about how “you'll move up statistically in the economic ladder, have a safe job, get paid more” etc., and take the bait and attend. Level 3- people who are aware of the hype and the hearsay, believe they can do well in college, have a high amount of original thought & discipline, and still decide to not go to college because they see the debt undergraduates (& for that matter, graduates) are incurring and decide that they can be (& are) as smart as, & in most cases smarter THAN, the majority of the people who attend college.

These are, in my opinion, the three intellectual hierarchical levels of intelligence in American society in regards to higher education. There are hardly any exceptions in this system as I have seen these three levels and classes of people come and go constantly in my day-to-day life.

.................................................. Where does this leave us? What can change, and must that change occur?

The answer to the above questions really depends on what amount of people fall into each category (level). For instance: if everyone fell into Level 1, we would have a nation of non-thinkers, non-dreamers, non-starters. If everyone fell into Level 2, we would have a completely indebted and subservient nation of obedient borrowers who could never be a part of nor create economic prosperity because they would be in the poor house and never improving because their student loan payments would always take up the majority of their disposable income. If everyone fell into Level 3, colleges would have to change curriculum and therefore abandon the old model, and be an authentic arena for original thought and debate.

At the moment, we have, say, a three-way-split. As long as there are people who choose not to challenge themselves intellectually; Level 1 will exist. As long as the American neurosis and propaganda of higher education to allegedly be “a great equalizer” exists, Level 2 will exist. As long as humans are humans and have natural intellectual reasoning and original ideas and challenge the status quo, Level 3 will exist.

The answer to the latter question is: Yes. Change must occur in society and the only way that change can occur is to A) lift up those who have low faith in their intellectual capabilities and ensure them that anyone can do anything if they put their mind to it. And B) inform and persuade others who are about to jump off a debt cliff into the higher education world that they can do MUCH greater things in life if they use their intellectual capabilities to the benefit of themselves, mankind, and foster within themselves a discipline for self-education.

Who brings about this change?

Those who belong to the Level 3 camp, of course. People who love independent thought, are highly intellectual, have confidence, are good at lifting up the spirits of others, and those who can sway the thoughts of those around them. It is their duty to do these things for the immediate and the greater social good.

Structure

I talked a little bit on Twitter about “structure”. How people who rely on outside structure in their lives to function are nothing more than slaves to that system and if they are “high-functioning” in that system just makes them happy slaves. INDEPENDENT structure, however, frees us. To be disciplined and focused on what matters without anything having to tell you what to do, and doing positive things by your own free will and on your own time; THAT is true structure. It can also be known as being educated.

That's all for now. Be back in a bit!

Rule Of Thumb: When in doubt, make coffee

Also, i saw a little scooter video today of my dad rolling down the sidewalk & i thought to myself; “the man hates nature. So why is he outside?” He probably had some excuse to go back inside after 5 minutes of breathing air that wasn't seasoned w/ bbq sauce or something. I mean, what was the point? Is he getting BETTER? NO! So, what keeps him around (as in, on Earth). No one (especially me) wants to see someone die, but ffs let him RIP and be out of his misery. His quality of life has gone so low that every day of life he experiences has become a punishment from hell. So, what's the hold up?

As long as i am complaining about family atm, i will complain about my sister(s), too. Debbie is about to fall of a financial cliff like no one in my realm has ever seen before. She is about to sign-off on a $150k+ mortgage w/ about $40k+ in debt BEFORE that in student loans that she (foolishly) co-signed for for her son's (no degree) education. So if as much as a single hiccup occurs financially for them, they are 100% in the poor”house”. I put house in parenthesis because i am not sure where they are going to move to when they lose this house because they have already filed for bankruptcy once and they have already worn out their welcome at their respective parent's house (my sister & her husband, that is). So, idk.

And that leaves my other sister, Carrie. What, i ask, are they (i say they as if Greg will stick around, they'll probably divorce, so...) SHE do when her house collapses off a cliff? I mean this in the most literal sense of the word because their house (like many, shitty JeffCo houses) is built on a steep hillside that their neighbor (SMARTLY!) built a retaining wall for. Thing is, he built it for HIS house, not theirs. Their property still slides away every year and the garage is sunken in & there are cracks all throughout it. The ceiling has been re-plastered many times w/ 2-inc-wide gaps in it because....THE HOUSE IS SINKING! Now, I am not sure if Carrie is aware that this will KEEP happening or if she thinks these things reverse themselves, or what runs through her lunatic brain, but, she is in no way concerned about it & she is going to end up living (if she is lucky) in an RV at the campground at Lost Valley. Again, these are her fucking problems. Not mine.

Anyway, felt good to vent. Coffee time. Be back in a bit!

it is a quiet/beautiful night here so i figured i would break the silence w/ the sound of my keyboard type, type, typing away.

the beginning of this week will go slow. i have to (or will, and want to) go to therapy Wednesday (and she better not cancel!) as well as do laundry Wednesday at the parents. i think i am going to be cleaning up the 'rents house a bit for St Patrick's Day as well. Other than that, slow af.

be back in a bit!