i am sort of wishing i had put some of that tax $$$ towards cigarettes (or, MORE cigarettes) bc i am not sure if i am going to get the nicotine lozenges in the mail today. i mean they say “Yea, we'll put them in the mail this afternoon” but then do they arrive? NO! So i guess today they are either going to arrive or i am going to have to call up there Monday and demand they send them in the mail. i would rather not jones for nicotine the rest of the day until tomorrow when i can go get cigarettes, but who knows wtf will happen?
anyway, i am well-stocked on food so that is a v good thing so at least i won't starve during this whole dillema. anyway, be back in a bit
coffee coffee coffee
So i submitted my short fiction “Mettro” to a literary publication
I also have a hell of a pitch for a regular media article for someone else ready to go, too
I am drinking coffee & unable to sleep
that's about all for now
i feel like writing
something meaningful and longform, sorta. or at least 500 words. doesn't have to be some resume-building masterpiece, just something respectably decent. i have no subject matter which to write abt at the moment, but i suppose something will come my way.
anyway, i am locked out of one of my online accts bc i fucked up the 2FA but i am trying to get that situation resolved ASAP. we'll see how it goes.
i got no plans for today and no plans for tomorrow because i am not going to the 'rents until Sunday. gonna be a boring couple of days. at least i have food. lol.
i also decided that the (long time coming) BlackBerry KEYone is going to come into my life in a couple weeks bc A) i need a phone (Moto X bit the dust), B) it has to be NEW (used phones are gar-bitch!) C) i fucking adore everything abt the KEYone (& it dropped slightly in price). So getting that device is def going to be a jam. Good times.
anyway, that is abt it for now.
Be back in a bit!
Valentine's Day
i suppose today is worthy of a blog post so i will keep it quick
today i hurried up & readied myself to be picked up at 10:30AM to run alllll the way down to Festus, MO. to pick up my tax refund check (which was a runaround when i got there, but it all worked out) & soon after getting it, went to the 'rents house to set my dad up for his after-dialysis lunch & then me & the momskee headed out the door to go to the Central Bank of MO (not far away) to cash the tax check. It got cashed. Mom got paid back. We went straight to the grocery store where i got her a (belated) b-day gift card to said grocery store ($75) & i bought groceries. Shortly after returning home i was oot the door again to get a rent money order to pay next month's rent ahead of time & pay a couple bills ahead of time. Check and check. Good stuff. Now i will have something like $600 to play with the next time i get paid & i have literally no bill responsibilities for a while other than phone data. This is a v good thing. Another good thing is that that $600 will be on a DEBIT card which means i can get the phone (that i v much so need) & pay for Web services (that i v much so need, as well). I will probably opt for the Poynter Certificate prog as well as it is only $150 & can look good on a resume. Might as well.
So today was a fabulous day and i have not really been saying much on the internet over the past three days bc i have been sitting at home / sleeping / starving and eating only rice, veggies, and cheap baked goods. I was in hell, lemme tell ya (SERIOUSLY!) Now i have all the fresh, delicious food in the world, a fair amt of cashola to my name + smokes that i am abt to finish off only to walk to BP (soon) & get a couple more packs (no nicotine lozenges atm). And as far as all this Valentine's shit? Yea, it's great. I am authentically happy for people who pay attn to holidays like these & fuck their significant others. Go them. I just don't have anyone right now & i am not complaining abt that. All is good in the hood & the right stranger will come along my way soon enough. I am sure about that :)
There are a thousand other god awful fucking things that happened in the news today that i could be writing abt right now but i am willfully & deliberately ignoring all of these things bc we all know how fucked up this world is and i am way too exhausted from three days of more or less fasting & feeling like shit to get worked up about literally anything. I was damn near hyperventilating w/ a giant headache when i woke up this AM from lack of (good) nutrition. I am glad circumstances have changed.
Did i mentioned that the fucking weather was god damn epic today? I don't think i mentioned that but i am mentioning it now. It is fucking beautiful & we had a v nice sunset & tomorrow is going to be even warmer/nicer. Good times, indeed.
Anyway, that is about all i have to say right now but i will get back here shortly. Stay safe everyone!
it feels good to rant
i just got finished typing out a furious screed in my offline Pi Journal Vol.1 & it made me feel v happy. I like ranting about bullshit & when i feel like ranting in a concise manner, i turn to Medium. The majority of my writing these days occurs in my Pi Journal though. I really am at a loss for words for what to say on Twitter these days & i am just....without them. That is fine.
I really feel i should use the internet less. i already took long breaks/hiatus' from the Internet over the past two years & i am done with that bc it makes me incredibly bored. Being bored is worst than being hooked on the internet. I just wish i had other things to fill my time besides one form of media intake or another.
anyway, all of this is a waste of time
nothing interesting
no interesting mail. just a bill (that they seem to send earlier & earlier these days).
Also, i just discovered chomsky.info & there will probably be some good reading on there that i can peruse later. Not going to read any of it right now though.
i am listening to NOFX & just enjoying the weather w/ the sliding glass door wide-open. Also, i have no idea what is taking so long for the Prilosec to be delivered but the sooner the better! heartburn sucks!
i cannot wait to buy my vapor kit. I forget what model e-cig i am buying but it will be by either Innokin or SMOK. Both seem to be p good brands. And i am looking forward to all those tasty flavors e-cig juice i am going to get, too. Soon.
My mouth and gums are sore as hell from the dentist yesterday & that is painful af. Really sucks.
Be back in a bit!
slow day
i truly wish my Prilosec would hurry up & get here bc i have heartburn and this sucks and i need it. As far as tax $$$, the check may come in today but i am not going to cash it until Monday (or even pick it up until then) bc the parents are resting & it is already late in the day so....
I am going to check my mail.
early AM
i know i am feeling much, Much, MUCH better than i did at 2AM this morning. At 2:30 i got my Amazon refund & walked directly to Circle K for a pack of smokes & a Monster & bag o' chips. After that, everything improved.
i have been thinking all morning about how i am going to be buying a LOT of vapor stuff as soon as i get my tax check. THat may come in today (i hope). But nevertheless, i am going to BP at 7AM (in 13 minutes) to buy a soda, bag o' chips & a pack of smokes (kinda like before, but, AGAIN!). I tend to be a v unhealthy person, but that may change.
i know it is a cold af morning out there this AM (under 20 degrees) so i am going to be bundled up something proper when i am out there. tomorrow will be the same (i think). We were supposed to get a shitload of snow today but it says there won't even be clouds (let alone precipitation) in the forecast, so, i am not worried about it.
Anyway, tomorrow i have to go to the 'rents to do laundry & etc etc. Good stuff.
Be back in a bit!
what to say?
i'm fine, first of all
i am just not really posting anything to any social networks bc i am “disillusioned” with them quite a bit.
but i am doing OK. i would really, Really, REALLY like to get my Amazon refund back sometime soon so i can go & do stuff, but idk when the fuck that is going to be.
i got the wool buff in the mail today & that is nice bc it is very cold outside.
i will spend the day on twitter, i suppose :/
be back in a bit!
i am soooooo burned out on soc med. like, dying, dead burned-out. i can't stand always checking things, saying things, blogging things, this & that. i fucking hate it. i wanna be normal again. i wanna do things that make me happy & fulfill my life. there is nothing here. nothing new. nothing even worth looking at.
i wish i were IP/phone #/e-mail/etc banned from all social networks for life. Or better yet, that they justdidnot_exist.
fuuuuuck this