diarist | punker | anarcho-minimalist
hey, blog readers!
it has been hectic lately. i had a doctor's appt (all went well), dad is still in the hospital and will be for some time (but he feels OK), i have been journaling like crazy in a personal journal, i have been active on Mastodon again, avoiding twitter a little bit, avoiding the internet for a little bit, getting fed up with the EdX course, etc etc etc.
STLCC is also out of the Q this semester (as i may have already mentioned), and now the loan discharge bank (NelNet) wants even further paperwork from me (which i am getting within the week). That is def a good thing, but that also means i will have a lot of time on my hands between now and then (which sucks, really).
that's all for now
The Case For Anarcho-based System Of Direct-Democracy in the United States Of America in the 21st Century
Regardless of Twitter being a de-fact Trump platform and guilty of hosting propaganda and supporting the agenda of nazis, i think the American public is going to be alright. As soon as November 2018 rolls around and Dems take over the House/Senate; Trump will be backed into a corner, hissing and Tweeting with the FBI up his ass and everyone who was ever on a first name basis with him preaching that Trump is guilty of treason.
I think a lot of what is broken is of course the entire runaway capitalist society we live in, and the pandering to plutocracy, and tax preferences, and the status-quo/donor party, BUT, i think that if/when we implement a Direct-Democracy (regardless of “mob rule” warnings), we could get TRUE outsiders in the White House. And most certainly not election-rigging like we saw in 2016 (by Russians) and 2000 (by old Republicans).
I, of course, am in favor of an anarcho-socialist society/government, but i will settle for just about any anarcho-value-based system of government. This (anarchism) has always been studied, and sometimes practiced, in many advanced nations (except maybe England) for a millenia but in the USA, we immediately reference it to “anarchY” which people immediately tie to vandalism and such. This was of course brought upon the American public BY the government so there wouldn't be an anarcho system put into place after the Great Depression. So....
1) Direct-Democracy 2) The public votes for a new system of government (anarcho-based (libertarian, socialist, syndicalist, etc))
....and then go from there.
As for the time being (and for always), for myself, i am referencing myself as an anarcho-minimalist which is a purely anti-plutocratic stance. Runaway plutocracy, coupled with runaway capitalism, ruins absolutely every facet of human life and the planet. Runaway P/C is precisely what is happening in China right now. I am also 110% against world trade.
Community-first governance should be the de-facto approach to the decision-making of citizens. Decide what is best for the community FIRST, and then take into consideration the federal interests. To be honest, a federalist system (as is the case made in The Federalist Papers), is almost diametrically opposed to a Direct-Democracy system. So there could be (what we call today) a “Federal” government, but it would technically be social government (if the latter is a proper term, i have not heard of it, to be quite honest). And what i mean by a social government, it would provide nothing more than social goods for the citizens (basic income (precious metal-backed), right to housing, right to employment, right to food, right to healthcare, right to solid infrastructure, right to domestic transport, right to fire department, right to police force, right to military). Everything mentioned above would be volunteer-based and paid accordingly through a treasury that issued its own currency. Aside from these (truly basic) services, the American public would be left to their own accord to generate prosperity through worker-owned businesses (anarcho-syndicalism), and everything else would go from there.
These are sound principles
tm
the internet is not generally a good place. or a safe place. i use it every day because i genuinely have nothing better to do. i yearn for a day when there is no internet. where we are all wild creatures tearing through the forest with nothing to our name but our skirts of hide and sharpened sticks to defend ourselves from the elements.
until then, this is my blog
let's just always not use twitter
i mean it is down for me right now and i have no idea why. my network is fine and i am trying both Safari and Chrome and trying both Twitter.com and mobile.twitter.com and nothing works. This is a v good thing if you ask me.
Maybe I am banned (which is good, too)
let's see....
the internet is broken for me
idk how
must be my connection????
i guess twitter is down or something
i can't seem to use it or load the page or tweetbot or anything. at all.
fuck it
i feel like a pile of bricks
i feel good don't get me wrong, but i am a little bit tired, a little bit wired, and this is my life.
i quit trying to do CS50x because i am not going to end up making a fucking penny off a Web app, or a Mac app, or a mobile app, or any shit like that bc in my life i have discovered one universal fact about my character: I am allergic to money. but even if i wasn't, i doubt the app or apps or whateverthefuck would have been wildly successful, anyway. But, i suppose we will never know.
I DO know that the weather is fucking incredible tonight and there is a slight breeze and this makes me feel v good. It is also supposed to get down to like the 50's tonight, so, even better!
Dad's hand looked good, the doc said so there is a little bit of hope. He will not have to lose it afterall (thank Fuck!).
i still don't feel incredibly motivated to do fuck all because...well...i went into that in the last blog post. Too bad that the college thing did not work out for me (though i am still going to get the loan discharged by NelNet or whoeverthefuck ASAP because i am already in the process of discharging it and they are just requesting more info from me).
all in a days curse
7:05 PM and i cannot wait until it is dark outside. It has been a long, tiring, but overall positive day, tbh.
be back in a bit
projects
slaptext (or slptxt)
EdX (or CS50x)
basically everything
i quit
there is only one, sole, motivating force for why I get out of bed in the morning, and that force is me earning an AA/AAS from STLCC. And that thing has been delayed a-fucking-gain for the umpteenth time because the loan discharge bank is not satisfied with the paperwork I submitted to them, so they are requesting more. This means I cannot go to the STLCC Fall 2018 semester. Which means i have to acrobat my way through another group of flaming hoops just to get all my documentation necessary for Spring 2018 (yes, another IRS form, another award letter, re-re-re-enrollment) and at this point it is pretty crystal fucking clear that this community college experience will simply not happen.
I will stare through my walls for another god damn semester and watch as the paint fades with cigarette smoke and destitution, meanwhile: my fucking dad is being amputated limb from limb in the hospital from diabetes, and I'm like; can I catch ONE fucking break??? ONE fucking sliver of hope to keep me going??? ONE glimmering twinkle at the end of the long, desolate, pitch-black tunnel that has become my life???
This is where my wits end
hey
dad is doing...OK. He is in rough shape. Difficult to see. Wish he cared more about himself, wasn't as cavalierre (sp?) about losing body parts. But, you know, stubbornness.
i am #homesweethome and having a green Monster energy drink and have a kitchen full of awesome health food which i am going to eat throughout my days + i am going to NOT buy anymore junk food. Like, EVER!
i feel very good today because i am in for the evening and i have the sliding glass door cracked a little bit and it is windy af and everything is just, pleasant.
i also gave little bios/descriptions to all of my playlists on Spotify and they are pretty well-written so check them out (i guess search for olearyxyz???)
i also checked off a couple things on my daily To-Do list but there are still a couple things left To DO!
i also need to work on other stuff i suppose, but i am fairly lazy. Not like right now, but like as an individual. My human character is that of laziness. I wish it wasn't this way, but here we are.
Be back in a bit!