It seems the earth its wild ellipse rides faster every year— but truthfully it’s all our trips effacing all frontier.


Experimental music made upon the ARP we love will always be a serenade, a reverie above.


sitting at the ocean with my friend under the purple blue sky and the white moon fading alongside the most famous golden gate, watching the birds to and fro and the slightly decomposed creature bathing in gigantic dollops of cappuccino froth, my butt against the damp rock, i imagine that last night’s rain could erode the whole cliffside, wonder where all the time goes, wonder where it’ll all go.


doors are opening but i’m just sitting, staring out a window at the bleary reflections of red and yellow ghosts.


last night i dreamed i couldn’t write a poem but then i woke up, bathed and dressed in wet slate shadows, and went for a walk in the early golden light.


all the beautiful people the cool NY people the melting pot personified the poets in the bookshop sipping freshly brewed black coffee cracking tall cans of Miller milling about in quiet anticipation to hear lines lifted from online chats to hear lines about, dogs, death, and moms to hear with straining ears thru choking heat they drift outside for brief respite the sky colored city orange in september haze they drift inside to hear another young woman in her large love red blazer high above the crowd like someone emboldened by a secret everyone in love she bequeathed the stage to the final reader our hostess dressed plainly radiating bolder only the sheets of paper in her hands have nerves she reads three poems, the last a question: “will you marry me?” shock, ecstasy, he kisses her with golden hollywood passion shocked, ecstatic, a dozen balloons tangle themselves in the ceiling. outside it’s cooler sobbing has ceased gentle falling rain cool cool night everyone in love.


the tall blonde girl walking down Polk from Turk in the fitted charcoal jeans and the fitted chambray shirt, effortless and lithe.


the two silver wheels spun in the dim light, a mosaic of Christmas colors—red, green, orange, yellow, magenta—flickering, fading, flashing, and blinking through the small, slowly dying tree in the living room. reflections on the ceiling looked alive, needles and branches forming snowflake-like shadows. Santa had yet to arrive, so the base of the tree wasn't overflowing yet and my attention wasn't there either.

sensations flooded me, most immediate of all the mini marshmallows melting in hot chocolate in my hands, warmed by the space purple mug my dad had received for free at some software convention. classic holiday songs filled my ears—Nat King Cole, Bing Crosby, Judy Garland—clear and voluptuous voices emanating like a bonfire from the spinning wheels of the reel-to-reel. the machine's face looked sleepy, a dim blue screen muted by the spiraling stringed lights on the tree.

sensational as the chocolate and the music and the lights, but also muted, my dad sat content on the couch next to me. sometimes he hummed to the music, sometimes he tapped his feet or quietly murmured a few lyrics, but mostly he twirled a tiny spoon in his cappuccino cup. he took sips, taking his time.


france won today.

yesterday i lost my favorite hat.

we had technical difficulties.

friday was the 13th.

thursday the car wouldn’t start.

who gives a fuck. bullets

flew, said my phone, two blocks from my cousin’s house where we feasted on vigorón a year ago the day i was feverish or hung over from celebrating with family and friends in the streets, in the clubs, in rum, pride of the country, brown blood. now

Annette was there in the basement with her family and her kids and her babies on the floor wondering when the bullets would stop. but france

won today, and my curls look spectacular.

i brushed the dog.

contemplated yoga.

contemplated the vacuum.



a kaleidoscope of primary colors— reds, blues, oranges, greens—splashed across mass produced backpacks, massive and light as balloons hanging off the shoulders of a busful of children chattering and sporadically laughing and whining about everything all at once.