want something to do with you want love thing to do with you want dumb thing to do with you want drunk thing to do with you want slam dunk to do with you
want anything to do with you want bunny thing to do with you want money thing to do with you want honey thing to do with you want onion thing to do with you
even if you don't want anything to do with me that's okay because i
i believe i am alive. i believe i am love. i believe i am salty sea spray of the ocean, mother. i believe the poets. i believe music is god. i believe god is change. i believe it’s all in rhythm. i believe harmony is joy. i believe everything is impermanent. i believe i will die. i believe death is an illusion. i believe life is an illusion. i believe i am alive.
we are dust and nothing matters, yet we scream and cry and jump with joy, exhilarated sentient mud.
ZEUGMAS FOR ZOË
here is a poem for a friend and deadline missed—
inspired by a hurricane and heartache sweeping through the week, neither less deadly because announced—
all amid a virus and head of state threatening the nation with fever and shortness of breath—
preceded even earlier by warnings like vowels clearly sounded out— crackling forests and firecrackers a drought of rain and new ideas— so to kill the time and not ourselves
we
play piano and video games watch television and the seasons change drink wine and the doom-filled streams—
hoping we can remember our dreams when we wake up in a new bed in a new year under a new roof— the same old constellations.
KENNINGS FOR KURTZ
when ice-cotton falls, falls, falls, and the land-water rises, rises, rises, and the wood-congregation burns, burns, burns and the wind-spiral spins, spins, spins there’s no one that can stop em—
but soul-people exist and heart-people can feel and brain-people can think and body-people can dance—
and dancing is just
seed-planting shoot-sprouting sun-seeking fruit-bursting.
GNOMIC VERSE FOR MS GROSS
ultimately at the end of the day when all is said and done
there is a way in which
how you show up put in the work hit the right note
in the eye of the storm
shows your true colors gets in your head cools your heels
not one iota
when hell freezes over in your own little world amid the pandemic.
two great pines the color of ghosts streaked grey and faded pink through two square, wood-framed windows greet me with morning— i walk the misty, gravel road with my dog, two bellies grumbling the dawn.
buttertones singing inside my friday night skull, my tongue sticks prickly red but i remember honey: just a spoonful sparks rivers, alluvial fanning on the inside of my cheek, gladness.
how do you read a poem— you speak the lines on the page one word at a time.
how do you dry socks— you put them in the machine on the line in the wind.
QUARANTINE GRATITUDE — DAY 21
Life. I’m thankful for life. As horrible, terrible, disgusting, and messy as it can be, I’m thankful for life. It’s just awful and we’re all going to die, and that’s why I’m thankful for this breath. A breath of fresh air, a glass of cool water. The crashing of ocean waves—terrifying, awesome. The simple things, easy as a spoonful of honey. Ice cream. Cookies. Pizza. Relaxing on the couch. Feeling good, feeling the flow. Lying in bed after a busy day. Making love. Dancing. Hearing a song so beautiful, you cry. Crying, crying, crying those tears that make you choke and gasp for air. Feeling that surge of anger rise in you and knowing you should remain calm but screaming instead. Deciding to conquer your emotions, jedi knight style. Watching cinema, feeling elevated; watching a stupid movie, feeling like your brain’s sippin on anesthesia; watching TV, happily sharing in the collective stupor. Sharing a meal with family, with friends, hysterically laughing. Playing with a silly dog, petting a purring kitten. Yes, good hair days. Yes, one day my hair will be grey and then later my head will be nothing but a skull and then later still nothing but dust but today my hair looks good, thank you very much. I appreciate you. You remind me to treasure these infinite hellos, here-i-ams, goodbyes. Exchanging smiles with a stranger. Going to work. Getting good work done. Pay day. Watching the sunset, waking up to the sunrise, bathing in the midday sunshine. The entire length of your body against bare earth. Staring at the Milky Way. Sitting by a fire, taking a sip of whiskey. Returning home from a trip and taking a steaming hot shower. Sharing ideas, conversations. Working together, creating. Writing words like this in a giant stream of consciousness that maybe only one person, your mother, will actually read the whole way through. Always a little too much death for her taste. But black is just another splash on the canvas. Beating the drums, laying down the track, keeping it funky, singing the spirit loose. Making something real, setting it free.