Rosie

Mean and Plan are still debating, suddenly Neena approaches Mean and Plan.

“Guys, it’s time to start the film again.” She said

Mean tries to hold on to Plan’s hand but Plan refuses and when Mean tries to reach again, Neena pulls his hand.

“Come on, Mean.” Neena whined

Mean sigh heavily and let Neena pulls him to the set.

The show starts now!

“Hello everyone! So, after talking a bit with them, now we’re going to cook a dish.” Neena said

Neena walks closer to Mean until her body touches his.

“What are we going to make today, Mean?”

Mean awkwardly moves away from her and said

“Plan, what are we going to make today?”

Plan looks at Neena’s hands that are clinging to Mean and said

“mochi Ice cream“

Mean notices where were Plan’s eyes pointing. Mean tries to remove Neena's hand but Neena quickly grabs on to it again.

Plan looks at Mean sadly and Mean mouthing the word sorry over and over again

“What should we do first?”Neena swings Mean's hand back and forth indulgently.

Mean ignores Neena and looks at Plan.

“We’re going to add all the dry ingredients” Plan said while trying not to looking at Mean who is looking intensely at him.

Plan add all the dry ingredients into a bowl while Neena keep trying to flirt with Mean.

Mean doesn’t know what to do, he just looks at Plan who looks at the bowl sadly.

I have to do something – Mean

Mean forcefully removes Neena’s hand, walks to Plan, and swatch some flour to his cheek.

Plan glares at Mean but Mean just sticks out his tongue and runs away

“Meannn” Plan chuckled

He runs after Mean with a handful of flour in his hand.

Mean got shocked by Plan’s fast move. Plan swatch the flour in his hand all over Mean’s face until his face turns all white.

“Hahaha! Don’t mess with me”

Plan runs away and Mean runs after him

“Gotchaa!” Mean back hugged Plan.

Mean tickles Plan.

“Who dare mess with me will have to face the tickle bear!”

“HAHAHAH STOP! Aaaa hahahah” Plan squirms in Mean's arms

Neena looks at them with a confused expression

Mean and Plan keep joking and playing, they even forget that they are filming something and everyone is looking at them.

“I guess now everyone knows how air around them feels.” Neena smiled

Cute!!! – Neena

After PGong took a photo of them, Plan forcefully released his hand from Mean's grip.

Mean tries to reach for Plan’s hand again but Plan quickly pulled his hand.

Mean sigh heavily and starts to slow down his pace. He looks at Plan’s back while saying sorry mutiple times on his head.

Suddenly, a biker comes to Plan’s direction in a fast speed. Plan doesn’t notice it because he’s still struggling with his thoughts.

Mean notices it

“Fuck this Fan thing. I don’t care about them anymore.” Mean said to himself

Mean quickly runs to Plan

“PLAN WATCH OUT.” Mean pushes Plan out of the way making the bike hits him instead.

“MEAN” Plan quickly stands up and runs to where Mean is lying.

“Are you okay? Did you got hurt?” Mean said while caressing on Plan’s cheek softly

“How could you still say that when you’re the one that got hit?!” Plan cried

“I’m okay.” Mean wiped Plan’s tears

Plan presses the wound on Mean’s arm.

“OUCH!” Mean shouted

“And you said you’re okay. Let me clean up your wound”

Plan helps Mean to get up and they sit on a bench.

“Let me take an aid kit in the car, wait here.”

Plan runs back to the car and goes back to Mean with an aid kit.

“Thank you, Mean.”

“What for?”

“For saving me.”

“Be careful next time. Watch where you’re going.”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s ok. I’m sorry too.”

Plan cleans and patch up the wound with tears start to fall down.

“Hey, I’m okay. Why are you crying?”

“I was mad at you and told you that you don’t love me. I’m wrong, I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry that my fears get between us.”

“You’re not wrong, Mean. You just want to be careful.”

Mean smiled and gently rubbed Plan’s head.

“Do you want to eat ice cream?” Mean asked

“Yes.”

“I’ll buy it for you.”

“No. You sit here. I’ll buy it”

Plan goes into the restaurant and buy 2 ice cream. He returns with 2 cones of ice cream in his hand.

“Why you suddenly buy 2?”

“You wanna share with me??”

“Yeah, I mean we’re always like that, aren’t we?”

“Yeah. Then I’ll give this to PGong.”

Plan return back to the table where Mean is sitting. He saw Mean sigh heavily and put away his phone.

“What happen? Are you okay?” Plan asked

“Ah...yeah. Ok.”

“You don’t seem like it tho.”

“It’s ok.”

“Mean you can always tell me you know.”

“I know.”

“Do you not trust me yet?”

“I trust you, Plan. The moment I declare my love for you, I decided to trust you with all my heart.”

“Then why do you hide things from me?”

“I didn’t hide anything.”

“But-“

“Where’s the ice cream? Let’s eat it before it melts entirely.”

Plan gives the ice cream to Mean and starts to fidget his finger worrily.

“Are you okay?” Mean said

“No.”

“Why? What’s wrong?”

“I don’t know.. but I have a feeling that you will leave me someday.”

“...”

“That’s why I want you to trust me. So that you have no fears or any reason to leave me.”

“...”

“Mean.. will you promise me that you will never leave me?”

“...”

“Meann answer me.”

“I’ll try my best to always be there for you.”

“Why can’t you promise me? Are you trying to take revenge on me for leaving you?”

“No, of course not. It’s just I can’t really promise things since we never know what our future will be.”

Plan looks down sadly

“But I can promise you that I’ll try my best to keep you beside me. To walk hand in hand with you. To always stay with you.”

Mean looks up the sky.

“If someday our future is not like we expected to be, you just have to look at the sun.”

“What do you mean?”

“If someday we’re not ended up together, I want you to remember me as the sun.”

“...”

“I’ll always be with you even if you can’t see me but I promise on your cheerful days I’ll be the sun that shine bright and in your darkest days I’ll be the moon to shine you up.”

“But I don’t want you to be the sun. It’s too far away from me. I want you to be somewhere that I can reach.”

“Then I’ll be here.” Mean pointed at Plan’s chest

“Meannnn. Can you stop making me worry?”

“...” Mean smiled

Mean intertwines Plan’s hand and said

“Don’t think too much about the future. Just enjoy what we have now.”

“What do we have now?”

“Let’s go take a walk. We still have to do some activity.”

“Can we just like stop filming and just spend time together?”

“You know we can’t. Let’s go.”

Plan continue the filming with a lot of things happening in his head.

“Plan? Wake up.” Mean patted his shoulder.

“Hmmm 5 more minutes.”

“Let’s go to our room.”

“I’m too tired to walk.” Plan whined

Mean sigh heavily. He put Plan’s hand to circle his neck and then lifts him up. Plan unconciously tighten his hand around Mean’s neck, circles his feet around Mean’s waist, put his head inside Mean’s crook, and sleeps again. He looks like a koala now.

“Sir, can you help me with the luggage, please.” Mean called the bell boy.

The bell boy looks at Mean and smile. They look like a cute couple, the bell boy thought.

“Huft, I’m like carrying a big baby.” Mean said

Mean and the bell boy walk to the room and then the bell boy drops off all the luggage.

Mean wants to give him a tip but he struggles because he has to carry Plan with one hand.

“It’s ok, sir. You don’t have to give me anything. By the way, you guys are a cute couple.” The bell boy said

“We’re not a couple.” Mean smiled

“Oh really? Aww you guys can make a really cute couple. The way you carry him looked like you really care about him and the way he clings on to you shows that he is used to being carried like this by you.”

“Oh really? I never know that.”

“Yeah. I saw how he unconciously wraps on to you”

“...”

“By the way, I’m sorry to talk about personal stuff. Have a great day sir.”

“Oh, it’s ok. Thank you.”

Mean carries Plan to the bedroom and put him down slowly.

“Plan, you can let go now.”

Plan tighten his grip making Mean fall on top of him. Mean tries to remove Plan’s hand around his neck.

“Don’t go, Mean.”

“I want to take a shower. You can just sleep.”

“No! Go to sleep with me.”

“I have slept on the plane.”

“Sleep again.”

“Plan.”

“Pleasee I want to cuddle.”

“Plan..”

“Please bear, lion wants to cuddle.”

Mean’s heart beats 2 times faster than normal

“Bear cuddle please.” Plan said with his eyes still closed

“Plan.. I’m-“

Cup. Plan kiss Mean’s lips

“Cuddle”

“Pl-“

Cup.

“Cuddle.”

“I wan-“

Cup.

“Cuddle.”

“Please I-“

Cup.

“Cuddle.”

“Okay. Remove your hand first.”

Plan removes his hand and shift slightly to make room for Mean to sleep beside him.

Mean tries to trick Plan but Plan quickly reach for his hand and pull him making him fall to the bed.

Plan moves closer to Mean. He leans back until his back touches Mean’s chest and then he takes Mean’s hand to circle his waist tightly.

“I love you.”

Plan closes his eyes after he said that. Mean is still shocked that Plan can do that unconsiously.

“Plan.. you never forget huh.” Mean talked to himself

“After all these years, you never forget about us.”

“You still remember how I usually carries you. You still remember that I’m weak with your kisses. You remember how we usually sleep. You even remember our pet name.”

“Bear and Lion.” Mean chuckled

“I miss you my lion but am I ready to be bear again?”

“PGong said that I have to listen to my heart and my heart wants you right now.”

“Should I listen to it?”

“My brain won’t stop talking to me.”

“But I want you too, just like my heart.”

“I want to stop thinking for a while and just listen to my heart for once.”

“I love you too, Plan. I can finally said it to you now.”

without him knowing, it turns out that Plan is still awake. Plan quickly turns around, circles his hand around Mean’s neck, and kiss him.

Mean was shocked but then he closes his eyes and kissed back. For once he let his heart talks to him.

Mean bites Plan’s lower lips softly asking for entrance. Plan knows so he opens his mouth slightly. Mean sticks his tongue into Plan's warm mouth. Dancing and fighting together with Plan’s tongue

“Engghh” Plan moans

They break the kiss after losing a lot of air. Plan looks deeply to Mean’s eyes and Mean looks back at him.

“I’m sorry.” Plan said with tears around his eyes

“Hey, why are you saying sorry?” Mean said

“Because of me, you start to doubt your own heart and you never do that. You always trust what your heart wants. I made you like this.” Plan cried

“Hey... I’m okay.. I’m learning to trust it again.”

“...” Plan is still crying

“Don’t cry.. you know I hate seeing you cry.” Mean wiped Plan’s tears.

Plan hold Mean’s hand that’s touching his cheek and lean closer to it

“I miss you being like this.”

“....”

“I miss us.”

Mean pulls Plan into a hug and they go to sleep with all the love that they have declared.

“Here” Plan gave Mean the ice cream

“You take it.”

“It’s ok”

“Ok then”

Mean starts to lick the ice cream while taking glance at Plan

Plan stared at the ice cream with a cute little pout

“Want some?”

“Can I ?”

“Yeah.”

When Plan want lick it, Mean push the ice cream up, making Plan’s nose full of ice cream.

Mean laughed while Plan pouted his lips but then after seeing Mean laughed for awhile he smiled.

“I will do anything to make you laugh like this always.” Plan whispered to himself

Mean takes a handkerchief and wipes the ice cream slowly.

“Here, you eat it. I’m okay.” Mean said while giving the ice cream to Plan.

Plan takes the ice cream from Mean and swatch some ice cream onto Mean’s face

Plan runs while laughing

“Plan. You can’t run away from me.”

Mean chases after him. Plan was not paying attention to what in front of him so, he tripped but before he touches the ground Mean pulled him and hug him tight.

“Be careful.”

Plan’s heart beats fast.

“Thank you..”

Mean let go of Plan awkwardly and said

“Pay attention to where you’re going.”

Mean caresses Plan’s cheek that’s a bit red from bumping too hard with his chest.

“Are you sick?”

“Huh?”

“Your face is so red right now.”

“Umm I’m alright.”

Plan intertwined his hand with Mean’s hand that was still on his cheek.

“I’m okay, Mean. Let’s go to Siam Paragon.”

Mean let go of his hand from intertwining with Plan’s

Plan looks at his empty hand, he looks disappointed.

“Fans might see us like this.”

Plan nodded slowly

“Let’s go, Mean.”

Mean and Plan walk into the mall but suddenly fans spotted them and shouted

“THAT’S MEAN!”

“THAT’S PLAN!”

The fans starts to gather around them and chasing after them

Mean holds on Plan’s hand and runs out.

“Let’s go.”

Plan looks at his hand and smiles from ear to ear.

Mean and Plan are out of breath. They rest on a bench

“Let’s not do this again.”

“Huh?” Plan looked at Mean with a sad face

“The fans are always around us. Let’s not do this kind of things anymore. We’re popular now. They watch every steps we take. If you want to go buy something, buy it on your own.”

“I wish we’re not an idol.” Plan looked down while fidgeting his fingers

Mean looks at him.

“I just want to have fun with you, Mean.”

“...”

“I was so excited to spend time with you so, I didn’t think of the fans. I just think about you.”

“...”

“Thinking all night of what we should do together. Where should we go?”

“...”

“I’m sorry to make you regret that.”

Mean sigh heavily and stands up. He left Plan.

Plan cried heavily. Cry all his pain out. He thought he could change Mean. He could make Mean fall in love with him again.

Mean suddenly pulls Plan to stand up. Mean put a hat on Plan’s head, he wipes Plan tears, and put a pair of sun glasses to Plan’s face.

“There. Use this and let’s try again.”

Plan is widening his eyes but due to the sun glasses Mean can’t see it.

Mean and Plan walked around Siam without any fans noticing them. The hat and sun glasses method, work.

Plan bought something like he said and then they went home.

“Mean. Let’s go to the beach.”

“It’s pretty late already.”

“It’s just for a short amount of time.”

“7 PM”

“Come on!”

Mean sigh heavily and said

“Which beach?”

“The beach out of the city”

“Huh?! Plan, it’s late already.”

“Tomorrow is still weekend. Please..” Plan pouted

“Why I always lose to you?” Mean sighed again.

Mean drives for 2 hours.

Plan quickly goes out and knocks of Mean’s window car

“Let’s go, Mean.”

“Plan, it’s really late.”

“Oh come on.”

Mean sigh and goes out of his car.

Plan pulls Mean to go into the beach.

“No one is here.”

“Of course, it’s frinkin 9 PM right now, Plan.”

Plan nodded and smile at Mean.

Plan pulls Mean to sit on the sand while looking toward the sky.

“The star is so beautiful.”

“...”

“Do you know why I love the beach?”

“No.”

“Ask me why”

“Why?”

“Because I feel like the wave understands me.”

“Hm?”

“Wave can go anywhere. They could go to the land too. You see the wave is trying to go to the land, trying to reach us.”

“But?”

“But wave always goes home to the ocean. There’s always reason for them to go home.”

“...”

“They understand me because no matter where I go. I will always comes back to you.”

Mean looks at Plan and Plan looks back at him.

Plan lifts up his hand and caressed Mean’s cheeks

“I hurt you so much.”

“You did”

“How could I did that to you?” Plan’s tears starts to flow

“...”

“You know, I never stop loving you. Never. I did said that I don’t love you anymore when I left but I thought that if you hate me it would be better for us.”

“...”

“You won’t have to suffer. Your parents will accept you again. You will find somebody else, somebody that’s better than me.”

“I told you, didn’t I? I only need you to stay with me.”

“You know even tho I was the one who broke you, I was the one who left you. I was broken too. As broken as you.”

“...”

“I was hurt and no one can heal me from it. Your best friend was helping me because I have ever helped him to get his girlfriend that has become his wife now.”

“I have forgiven him long after you left.”

“Do you know that I have ever try to kill myself?”

Mean is shocked

“What?! Are you crazy?!”

“I was hurt Mean. I have no hope. I have nothing. Everything is gone.”

“But you cannot do that! Don’t ever think of killing yourself no matter what happen.”

“As long as I have you, I’ll be okay.”

“Plan. Why do you keep repeating what I said to you?”

“Because as I said before I want to tell you that I depend my life on you now. I mean even before this I also depend on you but after leaving you, I realized that I cannot live without you.”

“Why did you came back?”

“To get you back. That’s my first intention coming back to wasabi. But seeing how much you hate me, I can’t seem to approach you.”

“...”

“You seem so ignorant towards me. I hate it. I’m hurt. So, I start to hate too but not to you, to myself.”

“Why are trying to get me back? Are you even ready to face problems with me again? We’re still going to face a lot of problems moreover we’re popular now, there will be many fans that disapprove our relationship.”

“I can’t live without you anymore. I will do anything to stay with you.” Plan smiled

“But I’m still scared.”

“I’ll wait.”

“...”

“Let’s just start from being friends.”

Plan move closer to Mean kiss his cheek and put his head on Mean’s shoulder.

“I’m the wave afterall. No matter where I go, I’ll always go back to you.” Plan closed his eyes.

Am I ready to fall in love again? – Mean

They enjoy their moment in silence. After some time, Plan starts to feel cold. Mean notices it so he removes his jacket and drapes it over Plan.

“Let’s go home. I don’t want you to catch cold.”

“But I like it like this.”

“It’s late, Plan.”

“I love spending the night with you.”

“Plan...”

“I wish time stops now.”

“...”

“I wish this day never ends.”

“Stand up”

“I don’t want to go home yet.”

“Just stand up”

Plan stands up, looking disappointed but then suddenly Mean goes down.

“Come.”

“Huh?”

“Come on, quickly”

Plan was shocked but he was so happy. He jumps onto Mean’s back and circles his hand around Mean’s neck.

He’s so happy. He puts his head on Mean’s shoulder and closes his eyes. He smiled from ear to ear.

Mean carries him to walk around the beach for a little while.

“Why do you turn into someone so fragile now?” Mean said

“...”

“You used to be so strong and independent. You never whines. You never like this.”

“Because I have fears now.”

“What fears?”

“I have fears of losing you again, fears of you hating on me, fears of being alone, and fears of you leaving me to go to someone else. I called it the fear of Mean.”

“I will never leave you but will you do the same to me too?”

“I’ll always be the wave for you”

Plan hugs him tight

“Then I’ll be the ocean” Mean smiled.