the willow tree

a calm serenity rustle in the leaves

i began writing fiction back in 2013. most of my stuff just isn't worth anyone's time, so here's a list of my least embarrassing stories.

2020 [https://write.as/sibachian/red-as-in-christmas] 1747 words.

2018 [https://write.as/sibachian/just-one-of-those-days-on-an-old-derelict-ship] 1727 words.

2017 [https://write.as/sibachian/angelic-extinction] 2624 words.

2016 [https://write.as/sibachian/the-spectral-investigators] 3900 words. [https://write.as/sibachian/house-secret] 14898 words.

2015 [https://write.as/sibachian/the-man-who-ate-himself-a-thousand-times] 2729 words. [https://write.as/sibachian/holographic-sky] 5935 words.

Romanji Betydelse
medaka medaka (japansk risfisk)
kairyou improvement, reform
kiwami ryuu polar dragon
kiwami extreme, very, polar
ryuu dragon
ryuusei meteor, shooting star, falling star
komachi belle; (town) beauty
aka red; crimson; scarlet
ki yellow
kou, beni, kurenai red, deep red; crimson
cha brown
shiro, haku white
kuriimu cream
ao blue
burakku black
kuro black
ougon gold
kohaku amber
shuaka vermillion
orenji orange
pinku pink
kouhaku, sarasa red & white
kin gold
midori green
tekkamen iron mask
miyuki miyuki
bekkou tortoiseshell
furu bodi full body
toumeirin transparent scales
katahoho red cheeks on the side (special case of toumeirin: gills are red only on one side)
hoho nashi transparent scales; non-transparent gills (special case of toumeirin: all other toumeirin characteristics apply except for the transparent gills)
hitoumeirin non-transparent scales
arubino albino
ruubi ai ruby eye
sumooru ai small eye
deme protruding eyes
panda panda (iris and the entire eye are black)
memae forward facing eyes
biggu ai big eye
rame lame (cloth made from gold or silver thread)
tashoku multi-colored lame
sanshoku tricolor
nishoku two-colored
nishiki bicolor
chenji karaa color changing
toukou head light
youkou side light
aojiro pale
zenshin tainaikou full body internal light
fukumakukou peritoneal light (bright light in the peritoneum)
gara pattern
buchi dappled; speckled; spotted; black spots appear in various area of the body
burakku rimu black rim
kyou hikari “strong hikari”: light on the back is more pronounced than usual
gintai silver belt: the body is wrapped in a 'belt of light'
daruma body length is shortened to around 50% of normal
han daruma half daruma, body shape is slightly longer than regular daruma
hikari daruma combination of hikari and daruma forms
hirebi brightly colored fins.
tainaikuro internal black
tainaikou internal light
taigaikou external light (light outside of the body, extracorporeal light)
fukumaku ao peritoneal blue (blue chromatophores in the peritoneum)
hirekou fin ligh (bright light on the fins)
isshukou circling light (fin light that circles the edge of all fins)
haichi hannou nashi background independent color (usually, body color changes depending on the background. in this case, the body color does not change)
hige beard (there is a small protrusion near the chin; this appears only in “demae” (protruding eyes) medaka
choutengan upward facing eyes
mozaiku panda mosaic panda (an albino with black areas in the eyes and on the body)
shiisuruu see-through (no chromatophores, therefor the body is transparent even the organs are visible)
oorora aurora
taikei body shape
no possessive particle
kettou lineage; pedigree
keitou strain, lineage, family line, system
seru fin sail fin
hishio diamond tail
maruko no dorsal fin
meraa long fin merah
suwaroo long fin swallow
hirenaga long fin hirenaga
rongu fin long fin (dorsal and anal fin only)
hikari literally “light, ray, beam”; refers to a body shape where the dorsal and anal fin have the same length
ujou house name of a breeder.
matsui breeder who bred a certain type of longfin
kei type; style; pattern
hire fin
era gills
hoho cheeks
henka change; variation; alteration; mutation; transition; transformation
naga long
buriido breed

Authors Note: Curiously, while this short was finally wrapped up in 2020. I actually began writing it on December 2016, but each year, when I came back to it around December, I missed the deadline and postponed it for another year. What's unique is how every new segment, written year by year (separated by a line) has an entirely different take and direction for the story. Normally one would rewrite and edit, but I left them all 'as is' to be able to see how my style and maturity changes over time with the story.

John woke up to a Christmas Carols' tuned alarm. Bleary-eyed he hit the stop button and swore. “Every goddamn year...” He looked around and saw the green clothes placed on a chair. “Why...” He flipped his phone open and hit up favorites, making a call to Honeysweet. “To you too... I remember asking—no—begging you not to change the alarm tune of my clock this year.” “Yes, yes...” He said and got out of bed. Scratching his ass, he picked at the clothes on the chair. He found a pointy green hat. “A pointy green hat?” “I work at a computer store, not a shopping mall...” “...Which the parents come in and buy for their kids as presents this time a year.” John let out a sigh with admitted defeat. He knew, when she used that particular line, his inability to sway her with his initial arguments had permanently chiseled her decision. He was going to have to wear the green pointy hat. “Yes, yes... My dear.” He rolled his eyes. “I'll try. See you after work. Love you.” Resigned, he draped himself in the green elf suit then stumbled his way into the kitchen and found the cooked coffee pot. It was still warm on its plate. He poured himself a cup and died a little inside. “I thought we changed the goddamn beans.” He swore as he spits the liquid into the sink and added 'NEW GODDAMN BEANS!' to the fridge shopping list. He had found the coffee to taste like radioactive waste fermented in the underground sewage systems of Hiroshima. “I'll just have coffee outside today...” He grumbled his way to the entryway door only to be flabbergasted once more by the woman. “Really?!” He stared down in disbelief. “Really?!” With a groan, John slid his hands across his face and up his hair then toed at the stitched green elf shoes with white little balls at the pointy bit. He took a deep breath, then slipped the elf shoes on. The transformation was complete.


A short distance from John’s computer store was a street hot drink stand. Serving coffee, teas, and hot choco. “Black please.” He said. The woman behind the stand poured coffee from a pot into a mug and handed it to him. He took a sip. Then closed his eyes with a sigh. He spits the coffee like a fountain; painting the pristine white snow of the sidewalk with the black afterbirth that he now feared had permanently left its taste in his mouth. With a grimace, he asked the woman, “just …give me a hot choco.” The hot choco was a pleasant contrast. If only it had caffeine... The store had no employee entrance and he entered it from the front and was met by his boss jolly laugh. “Your girlfriend called,” Freddy said. Laughing between words. “She said you had the brilliant idea of hiring a Santa and act as our elf for the day. I can see you’re dedicated to the last minute gift sales!” John glared at his boss, “did you know that Hitler banned Christmas during his rule of Nazi Germany?” “Good thing we won the war!” Freddy said. “The hired Santa hasn’t arrived yet. Since this is your idea, can I count on you to handle the setup?” “Yes, yes,” John said, now wholly resigned to his fate. Don’t fight it, he thought. It will just end up making things worse.


It took him a good 20 minutes, but the hard work paid off. John had built a stylish throne in the shape of a wagon by using keyboard and mice cartons. Each at a 15% discount Christmas sale. That sale had been Freddy’s idea though. John disagreed. What if people started buying the items, destroying his hard labor? It was almost eleven, and the store was now open to customers. Santa hadn’t arrived yet. As much as John hated the idea of playing an elf, he now dreaded the possibility of doing this whole event on his own. The customer doorbell rang. A big red-dressed figure stepped in. “Santa?” Freddy yelled from inside the storage room. “Ah yes, Santa!” The big red-dressed figure said. “I was requested for a job?” “Is this a joke?” John said as he walked up to greet him, “you’re supposed to be Santa. Not whatever the hell that is.” “Am I doing it wrong?” The big red-dressed figure asked. John sighed, “this is a children’s event, not a dress-up party.” Santa stroked his long black beard and then pulled a slip of paper out of his pocket, “the letter says; ‘Satan requested for store event on the 23rd! You have your own Santa dress. 4 Hours job. $20 an hour.’ Is there something wrong with my dress?” “Satan?” “Yes?” John blinked. Then looked him over again. Indeed. Red skin. Yellow eyes. Crooked nose. Sharp fangs. John scratched the back of his head. “Satan? As in, lord of hell?” “The very same.” “I see...”


Customers came and went, and all stared at the themed mix of the Satan-Santa with clear discomfort. the words on everybody's lips were: 'That's more offensive than clever.' John had desperately thought of an excuse, 'It's a promotional event for BSD!' albeit the customers were not too familiar with the logo of BSD or even BSD itself, but there seemed to be a general acceptance of the concept, just not the dress itself. Satan clearly wasn't cute enough to represent the operative system. Few brought their children, and thankfully in the situations where they did, they were quite resistant to the idea of placing their child on Satan’s lap.


The day was coming to an end without any major incidents and John had started to relax, well, as much as he could, all considering. “So,” John said to Satan. “Why did you accept the job?” “I’m an entrepreneur John, and a decently successful one at that.” “I don’t think entrepreneurs take on low wage side gigs.” “I didn’t come for that, John.” “Then why did you come?” “I came for you, John.” A shiver ran through Johns's body, “what do you mean?” “Make a wish, John.” “I…” “Make a wish.” John closed his eyes. He had occasionally seen Supernatural on TV, and the whole crossroad demon bit seemed to be the play here. For all he knew, a bid for a wish would end with his soul's eternal damnation. He never believed to begin with, but it was hard to argue with reality when it stood in front of him. “I’m not willing to sell my soul.” He said. Satan chuckled, “you know when the last time was someone consulted me on allegorical accuracy?” “No.” “Never.” “So you’re saying I won’t have to trade my soul?” “Of course not. There’s no such thing as a soul.” John thought about it. “How do I know that’s true? People who believe in you, in the faiths, all claim you’re, well, the devil. It’s your method of operation. Trickery, deceit, lies.” Satan sat down on the throne of keyboard cartons with a sigh, “I’m going to level with you, John. When Yahweh came to your planet, he hijacked one of the many faiths at the time and has been building an empire ever since. Like a ball of light, it wasn’t exactly hard for him to pose as a sun deity. Me? Well, look at me. He was already established long before I arrived and all he had to do to make sure I wouldn’t be able to compete was to make me out as the bad guy.” “So wait, you’re both aliens, then?” Satan snickered, “of course we are, what else would we be? There’s no such thing as deities.” “So the devil is all propaganda?” “My given name is Heylel.” “Let’s say for a minute that I believe you. What do you get from fulfilling my wish? What’s the price?” “Satisfaction.” “What?” “I’m immortal, John. My people have been around for longer than your planet has been around. We’re not the only ones who figured out how to tame the universe to our will, it’s just that while we want to do it for our own satisfaction, there are those who just want to rule. Think of us as an open-source advocate, just a lot bigger in scope.” “Is that why the BSD logo is a devil?” “Now you’re getting it.” “So why don’t you just help humanity get on equal terms with the wider community of the universe?” “Is that your wish John?” “Maybe? But it was a question.” “No one simply asked for it.” “Well then, I’m asking for it.” Heylel clapped his hands together and vanished.


The bright sun of Christmas day beamed through Johns's bedroom window, forcing him out of bed. As he approached his window to pull down the blinds, he saw a large structure bigger than the moon fixed in the sky. Now entirely awake, he went into the living room where his girlfriend sat in horror, staring at the TV. He looked at the TV curious what it was all about, and there he saw Heylel, repeating these words, “I am the herald of change, here to bring a new era of enlightenment to fulfill the wish of my friend John. Together, we will deliver a Christmas gift, for all of mankind, to work towards acceptance into the intergalactic fold.”

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It doesn't really matter how many years we spend honing our skill as a writer or anything, really. We will always have a weakness that is hard to overcome.

Personally, I don't think I'll ever be good at character tropes. As much as I love certain character tropes, I just can't pull it off. At all.

Regardless, the art of writing has a few rules we should all keep in mind when in doubt:

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Authors Note: Written in 2018. This story was actually written for a literature class I was taking at the time. It was 3 times as long originally but the teacher demanded I shorten it as part of the material limitations. I lost the deleted parts, but it's probably better this way. I got highest points in class for it!

“We all have things we enjoy, sitting on my ass is mine.” Rigsby said, he was leaning in his chair and staring at the dark metal ceiling. “Some people paint, some people play with yarn, this? This is my relaxation, it gives me time to think ...and I get to stay as far away from other people as possible while doing just that.”

He pulled his legs off the desk and leaned his sizeable, unfit, upper body over it, bumping his elbow into the desk light as he did. It skewed the light, nearly obscuring their faces. He didn't care to correct it.

“So say,” he said. “Why do you annoy me?”

“But captain,” Johnson the chief of engineer said. Her hands behind her straightened back with a uniform which hid nothing. “The noises and clangs are getting worse as the days go by.”

“So?” Rigsby said, his face losing composure. “I wasn't elected captain so I would deal with technical issues. That's your job description.”

“But captain,” Johnson insisted, with a short glance into his eyes for the first time. “I don't know what to do about it and the people are getting worried.”

“You're getting worried,” Rigsby said with a hint that he really couldn't care about the situation at all, but getting Johnson out of his office was becoming more and more vital to his own peace. He leaned back into his chair again and placed his hands behind his head. “Tell the people the air vents are undergoing maintenance.”

“For days?” Johnson asked. She blinked at his reluctance of care.

Rigsby waited a few moments, expecting her to leave. He finally gave in and sat up straight, his hands planted on the desk.

“Fine,” he said. “What is it you expect of me?”

“We need a full investigation,” Johnson said. “The noise is coming from the walls.”

“But there is nothing out there, beyond the walls.” Rigsby said.

“Exactly.”

Rigsby pushed himself up to stand, his chair slowly rolling away from him.

“Oh, I get it,” he said with a sigh. “So you need me to oversee a walk operation.” He sighed again and rolled his eyes. “Lead the way.”

Johnson turned on heel and left the captains room. The outside of the room was just as gloomy as it had been on the inside. Not enough light to cast a good view and all of the detail was rusty old metal.

They left through a dark passageway and entered into a dimly lit open space. Cardboard and old plating from the lifeboats of an era past had been used to construct stalls in the now defunct cargo bay. The market place was full of life, with hundreds of people having a good time, participating in events, and yelling for sales and trade.

“Hello captain!” The nearest stall owner said. “Can I interest you in some hot beverage today?”

Rigsby just held his hand up as a no, passing the man without a word. There wasn't time for that sort of nonsense. The sooner they solved the mystery, the sooner he would be back in his chair. Enjoying the bliss of solitude.

“This way captain,” Johnson said. Leading him through a small path behind the stalls.

Once they arrived at the other end of the market, they entered a second dark passageway.

At the end of the passage was the staircase down to engineering. This was perhaps the most lit room in the entire ship. It had to be, as it was the only vital part of the ship still in operation. If something here went awry, it could spell death for the entire crew.

“Hi captain,” a boy no more than fifteen said. He was sitting by a screen with a series of numbers flashing by in various colors. He wore the same style of suit as Johnson. “I didn't expect to see you come personally.”

“Eh? Why didn't you?”

“You didn't tell him yet?” The boy asked in a hush to Johnson, shoulders raised, head forward.

“No,” Johnson said. “I was... leading up to it.”

“Told me what?” Rigsby said, the annoyance was clear in his tone.

“Well, you know the logs from back when our great grandfathers got stuck here.”

“I've studied them just as much as the rest of the crew.” He said.

“Well,” Johnson said. She looked concerned. “You know how in the beginning, a lot of debris ended up causing damage to the hull, which then had to be repaired externally.”

“Yes?”

“Well...”

Rigsby closed his eyes and mouthed a silent “Fuck,” then faced Johnson. “When was the last time someone repaired a leak on the outside?”

“The last time,” Johnson said. Thinking. “I believe I was five years old back then.”

”...and that was how long ago?”

“Twenty four years ago.”

“What,” Rigsby said. “You mean to tell me the evac suits haven't been used since? How do we even know they still work?”

“Well, captain,” Johnson said. “As you said yourself, there's nothing out there anymore.”

“Clearly I was mistaken considering what we're about to do.”

“Yes, well,” Johnson said. “No one expected this to happen.”

“Remind me to make it law for routine inspection of the evac suits.”

“Yes captain.” She said with what couldn't be anything other than shame.

Rigsby and Johnson left the engineering operation room and into the nearest airlock. They had twenty suits to choose from and they each picked one at random that looked functional. Did a preliminary air pressure test. Then got ready for the depressurization.

They sat at each end of the airlock, the com buzzing.

“How far is the walk?” Rigsby asked.

“The noises has been coming from the front of the ship,” Johnson said. “Same place as all the damage in the past, so I gander about fifteen minutes.”

“It makes sense that it would be at the front and not from the back,” Rigsby said. “Considering what's behind our engines.”

Once the room had been turned into a vacuum, they opened the door to the outside. Pitch black, just as promised. The first time someone on the ship saw the empty void in twenty four years. Neither of them felt comfort in the void, and it was apparent.

“It feels like my stomach has been gouged out,” Johnson said. “It must have been terror working all those shifts out here in the black back then.”

Rigsby grunted. He didn't want to admit fear of the emptiness to himself. He kept occupied with his evac suits status.

They each used a set of magnetic clamps to climb their way along the hull. The nose of the ship was squared and the ship itself large. They wouldn't be able to tell what was causing the noise until they reached the edge.

It took them a good eighteen minutes to reach the nose.

“Johnson,” Rigsby said, looking back. He struggled to let his gaze go of what he saw. “A-Are you okay back there?”

“It's hard to believe what I saw, captain,” she said.

“Y-You think,” he stuttered, turning back to look at the nose of the ship. “You think maybe we have an opportunity here?”

“Um, captain.”

“I mean, think about it.” He said. “Just get one man in each suit and deploy a team of welders!”

“Captain!”

“Let's just head back and prepare,” he said in a smug tone. “This is going to win me my second term!”

“Cap...tain...”

“What's wrong with you?” He asked and turned to look at Johnson again.

Johnson dangled with a single hand at the magnetic clamp.

“Shit!” He yelled. “Johnson!”

There was no answer.

“These suits are fucking suicide,” he complained has he began to clamp his way towards to her. “Fuck.”

He pulled the string buckle from his suit and connected it with hers. Nudged her hand out of the clamp, then started climbing towards the nose of their ship.

“You fuckers better not be hostile,” he mumbled. He had limited time to act before Johnson would die from asphyxiation, going forward was her only option for survival.

At the nose of their ship, was another, smaller ship. Alien in structure, it looked far newer than theirs ever did. Even when it was newly constructed, a stylized structure had not been part of the design. Getting the mission done had been.

He found a hatch at the bottom of the alien ship and opened it. There was a big green button in there that read 'Pressurization'. He locked the door and slammed the button hard. The room filled up within mere seconds. With that, he immediately removed Johnsons helmet. She was unconscious, but breathing.

As Rigsby removed his own helmet, the door to the airlock opened, and another human stood on the other side.

“Hello?” He said.

“What?” Rigsby said in turn.

“My name is Miles McCarthy.”

“What...”

“Oh, sorry. Let me introduce myself formally.” He said. “I'm a xenoarchaeologist and I found your ship here. It's very exciting, oh and, your friend there. Is she alright?”

“What is going on?”

“I've been studying your ship for a few days,” he said. “I didn't think anyone was still alive in there. It would have been much too dangerous for me to go inside without a team. You know, protocols and all that.”

“I'm the captain.” Rigsby said, stunned.

“I'm a captain too!”

“Rigsby.”

“Right, well then.” He said. “Captain Rigsby. Your ship is old, very old. There aren't that many records of this ship type. I've only seen some virtual reconstructions. So tell me, how long ago do you believe you left harbour?”

“Our great grandfathers left in 2127.” Rigsby said. “That was about two hundred years ago.”

“Oh, that's really something isn't it!” McCarthy said, all excited. “That was over thirteen thousand years ago from my perspective!”

“No one came looking for us in thirteen thousand years?”

McCarthy laughed, “you do know where you are, right?”

“Yeah, in the void.”

“Right,” McCarthy said. “It's only been about the last thousand years that we can even get this close to a singularity. It's frankly quite mind-blowing that your engines has create an equilibrium, keeping you from falling all the way in.”

Johnson regained consciousness. “W-what's going on?”

“Hello there, miss!” McCarthy said.

She stared at him blankly.

“I think,” Rigsby said. “I think we're about the be rescued.”

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Authors Note: Written in 2017. I had constructed a large universe for this story, but in the end, I only ever finished this one short. It's still decent as a standalone tale tho!

The last three men in existence found themselves at a long since abandoned pub.

A candle illuminated the small segment of the bar disk where they sat. Their silhouettes idling by the low light. One of them, a clean shaved brittle old man in rags by the name Gordy, sipped from a glass of dark liquid. Poured from—as far as he knew—the last bottle of liquor in existence.

He coughed to the taste. “This is awful.”

Behind the bar disk stood an old spindly gentleman with a priest collar called Mitch. He sported a mustachio yet carried it with a sense of nostalgic pride.

“Well,” Mitch said as he scrubbed a glass clean with an old cloth. “It's the last remaining bottle for a reason.”

Next to Gordy sat Kenneth. Muscular despite his old age and dressed like an army man with a rifle slung over his back. His great beard and long hair covered most of his face. There was a glass in front of him with the same liquid. “What's in it?”

“Gammel Dansk.” Mitch said.

Kenneth picked up his glass and inspected the content with furrowed bushy brows.

“Well boys,” Mitch said as he held a personal glass with liquid. It was clear but with a yellow tint and not black like the ones he had served. “To the end of all.”

Gordy mumbled as he saw the clear liquid. He had a suspicion that Mitch might have saved a last batch of tequila for himself. “To the end,” he grumbled and held his glass high.

“To the end!” Kenneth agreed in a cheer as he clinked into their glasses with his own. He had a smile on his lips. They had gone years without a bottle, this was one last opportunity to get shit faced before they had to move again. That they had found the pub last week with some liquor left untouched had been short of a miracle in his opinion.

“The last end that is and ever will be...” Gordy added as he pulled an old sheathed dagger out of his pocket and inspected it. “Depressing...”

His comment made each of them sigh as if a dark cloud had materialized above their heads.

“Well,” Mitch said as he stretched his back. “Blaming ourselves serves no one as we're all that's left. Let's not brood over our past.”

“We still have each other.” Kenneth said as his eyes sparkled with renewed vitality. He took Gordy's hand and squeezed, “and all eternity ahead of us.”

“I was not meant for eternity,” Gordy said with shaky voice. His sad eyes stared at the dagger between his fingers. “I do not regret what I did for you—both of you—if I had to do it all over again, I would. But the burden of our sin weights on me and I find myself asking; am I to blame for all the misery? Am I the sole person responsible for the end of days?”

“I didn't mean to imply—” Kenneth started but the entrance door slamming into the wall and interrupted him.

Gordy slid the dagger back into his pocket and faced the intruder with a blank stare.

“Hello,” a boyish-looking figured said as he entered the pub. Moonlight reflected in his chiseled face and beautiful blonde curls.

“Leave.” Mitch said, not bothering to look.

“People only.” Gordy added.

The young boy gave them a raised brow, “Am I not a person?”

Kenneth scoffed, “we know what you are.”

“You're an idea, a concept.” Gordy said. “You don't belong here or anywhere.”

“That is alright.” The boy said. He ignored their hate and approached the bar disk, taking a seat on the far end, away from the three aged men.

Mitch rolled his eyes, “I suppose you're going to ask for a glass of liquor?”

“If you do not mind.”

Mitch poured the last bit of Gammel Dansk in a dirty old glass and sent it skidding across the bar to the boy. He caught it with ease.

“It fills me with such joy that I have finally found you all.” The boy said.

“Yes, well, it was bound to happen sooner or later.” Mitch said. “We haven't heard from the other group in over five months, so I suppose we are the last of the last.”

“Such a shame,” the boy said with an eeriness in his voice as if to mimic sympathy. “If only it could have been prevented.”

“Such a shame?” Kenneth said. “You've killed us all!”

“That we have,” the boy admitted. “Though, I would perhaps not use the term kill. Nevertheless, it is what happens when your kind meddle with things they do not understand. It was not the first, but it will certainly be the last.”

Gordy responded with a nervous twitch to his comment and the boy noticed.

“You feel responsible?” The boy asked.

“Get on with it, boy.” Gordy snapped at him.

The boy swept his glass as if he had no sense of taste, which was most likely the case. “I am sure you have prepared yourselves already, but just in case, I will allow you to take a minute.” He said as a pair of grand wings exploded from his back and filled the room. They had a golden glow which radiated like sunshine throughout the pub.

The blinding glow only lasted half a second, in the other half each of the men had made themselves ready for a fight. Gordy threw his glass of liquor at the boy, it still had some left in it, and then he followed up by throwing the candle. The boy's upper body caught fire. Kenneth grabbed the rifle from his back and blasted a shot at the boy's abdomen. Mitch pulled a shotgun from behind the bar disk and let a wide spread of pellets bombard the boy's entire body. From the holes, they could see right through his body.

“You know,” the boy said as the bullet wounds rejected the metal and closed themselves. “Those things do not actually work on me.”

The fire still burned on his upper body but he didn't seem to care or even take notice.

“Fuck!” Kenneth yelled. “He's one of those!”

“It's Abby St. all over again.“  Gordy said.

“Nowhere to run this time.” Mitch added.

“Nowhere indeed,” the boy said. “Now, please, if you may. You are the last of men and I am here to collect.”

“Fuck you and your fucking rapture!” Kenneth yelled as he ran towards the boy with the butt of his rifle. He swung it wide in the air hoping to strike. The boy didn't even bother to dodge, he just waved the back of his hand and a gust of wind swept Kenneth into the wall.

His body crumbled down on the floor. Unconscious.

Mitch had taken the opportunity to jump over the bar disk. Despite his advanced age he was still as nimble as a monkey. He attempted to squeeze himself under the right wing of the boy while he kept busy with Kenneth. The boy slammed his wing down without looking, blocking Mitch's path as if he anticipated it all along.

Gordy was never one for acrobatics and had instead reached for Kenneth's glass. He threw it into the boy's face. The fire soon caught up from the chest and blinded the boy as his face burned. He used the opportunity to crawl his way past the right wing and to the door.

“You had your epoch,” the boy yelled behind Gordy as he stepped out. “It is time to let go of your mortality!”

“Shut your trap you glorified carrier pigeon!” Gordy yelled back as he made a few steps outside. The darkness outside caused him not to notice the swarm of winged fiend's waiting for him until it was too late. Basking in the moonlight, thousands of them had lined up in an ever expanding circle around the pub. He stopped in his track and frantically searched for a route to escape by with his eyes.

“Raphael, actually.” The boy said as he joined Gordy on the dark street. His radiance giving glow to the outdoor environment like a giant searchlight.

“Why don't your shitty army glow like a Christmas light the same way you do!” Gordy said as he turned to face his enemy, fingering the blade in his pocket.

“I allow myself some privileges.” Raphael said. “As would you all.”

“Oh fly off!” Gordy cursed.

Raphael placed two fingers on his lips as if in thought then pointed them at Gordy. “Do you even know why you are the last mortal in existence?”

“Because you just killed my comrades,” he said with a sneer, eyeing the army of angels with vengeance in his heart. A seething hatred growing in his soul.

“Oh, not at all.” Raphael said. “But that's beside the point. As the last of your kind, I believe at least one of you deserve the knowledge of why.”

“Delightful.” Gordy said through his teeth.

“One of you mortals committed a sin so severe, the death of Christ pales in comparison.”

“Uh-huh,” he said, keeping an eye around him and fingering the button on the dagger's sheath.

“You don't seem surprised.” Raphael said. “Not at all curious what it was one of you did to cause the end of your little world?”

“Not really,” he said as he used two fingers to loosen the dagger from the sheath. “Look sonny, I don't know what you're playing at but get it over with. I've lost. There's nothing left I can do to fight. Half your face is burning and you don't even care. What can a lone man do against a God? Nothing.”

“Don't! ...Call me a God.” There was a hint of pure fury burning in his eyes. To suggest an angel is a God was of the highest offense.

“Fine. Whatever.” Gordy said. He did not want to risk the opportunity he sought. “Get on with it.”

“Very well.” Raphael said and approached. He reached for Gordy's head with his long fingers. Gordy assumed it was the process required to extract souls from their host vessels. To lay his hand on his head and send his soul to the celestial city. Moments before Raphael's hand touched, Gordy twisted the blade into his heart.

Raphael's jaw dropped. He had suffered bullet wounds, explosions, incineration. A long list of violent ends of confrontation, but never touched by a human. In the end, they always gave in. They always allowed him to let them pass on to the beyond. It was part of his show. The damage often inflicted to his body and healed as a display of intimidation and might. Creating the illusion of an unstoppable force.

“How dare you!” Raphael shouted in a deep-layered inhuman voice. His wings spread wide and mighty, splitting into two sets of four. The army of angels screeching in unison like uncontrollable creatures of horror.

Gordy staggered back and lost footing from the stress of commotion, ending up on his rump.

“How dare you!” Raphael repeated as he pulled the dagger out of his chest. He held the dagger in his hand and looked down upon Gordy as if to punish him, but then... He lost footing. His legs weak. “What... what have you done to me?” He too, fell onto his rump.

“The same thing I did to Azrael.”

Raphael looked at the blade in his hand, his lips began to shiver at the sight. “T-This can't be! You gutted him with his own blade?!”

“You are an idea.” Gordy said.

“I... Why...” Raphael began to lose his ability to speak, to form coherent thoughts.

“What happens when an idea dies, Raphael.”

“You bastard...” Raphael mustered. His body decaying, pieces flowing off like ash in the wind.

“Ideas don't have self-awareness. They don't think for themselves. They are mere thoughts by others. You are the delusional manifestation of those thoughts.”

“You...”

“Soon, those thoughts will disappear forever.” Gordy said. Raising himself up to stand. “But. My people, they live on.”

“I...”

“Yes, that's right. I will be the last. But I will be eternal.” He pointed to his temple. “In here, my kind will live on. Be remembered. Always. You? I will forget.”

The last of Raphael's body vanished with the wind. Gordy looked out across the angels around him. They had all frozen in place. As he stared at them, they too puffed into dust and swirled like an endlessly large spiral towards the night sky. Untouched by the dust, he found himself at the eye of the storm.

He bent down and picked the dagger from the ground. Sheathing it and stuffing it into his pocket. He had acquired it by happenstance one fateful day and turned the world into chaos the day after. Raphael may have been the Archangel of Judgment Day, which Gordy supposed this was. But the Lord's personal assassin, the Angel of Death had also been slain by his hands. There was also a third creature. He wasn't entirely sure if the third one had been an archangel, but he was certain it had been something similar. He knew what it had represented, and how after killing it, he had ended the world. This left him without question, without doubt in his mind, that the others would come for him. They would find an excuse to one day come and claim their revenge. He was certain. If the Lord would allow it.

Gordy walked with heavy steps back into the pub. The souls stolen from his old fellows, now gone forever, their empty vessels left on the floor. He carried them to the bar disk and prodded them up in chairs.

He crawled across the bar disk and bent down behind it. There, he found an almost full bottle of Malört. “Hah,” He said with a low tone as he nodded to the lifeless husk that had once been his friend. “Mitch my friend, looks like I misjudged you.”

There was still one glass left on the bar disk that hadn't been used in the fight, the one Mitch had drunk from. Gordy filled it up and took a swig. He coughed with a bitter grimace. “I'm sorry boys.” He said. “This one is for you.” He poured some Malört from the bottle down on the floor.

He emptied the glass and placed it firmly down the table. Tears began to roll down his weathered cheeks.

“Why did it have to come to this...” He said with shaky voice. His lips shivering as he pushed his tears back.

“We could have been together forever.” He said as he touched Kenneth's hand.

The tears kept coming, and his voice let itself go. He bawled as he moved his hand from Kenneth's hand up to his hairless neck.

“How was I supposed to know she was Death?”

His upper body crumbled across the table, his hands moving down and finding a rest in Kenneth's.

“I only reacted. She was coming to hurt you! I never knew what it would do to the world... Please forgive me...” He yelled between cries.

“Despite how far we've come...” His cries turned to low sobs.

“Despite ending the world for you... I failed you my love... Please forgive me...”

He squeezed Kenneth's hands, “...Please forgive me.”

In a world bereft of all life, only silence prevailed. Silence, and the sobs of the last man that ever was and ever will be.

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Authors Note: Written in 2016, this was the first lengthier work I published, based on a short story I wrote in 2015 that garnered some popularity among my friends.

“It doesn't matter,” Allen said to his daughter, “In due time, you will understand.”

So unfair! Liya wanted to shout but kept quiet. There was no point arguing further with someone as dense as a rock.

She stormed down the old staircase, its wood complained with creaks and groans. The house should have been renovated at some point through the centuries, yet it never had. Liya would often wonder why, as her great grandfather thirty generations back had built it.

How does the house still stand? she wondered. It should have fallen apart long ago―right?

The neighboring houses were all much younger than theirs. Yet they had seen plenty of renovations over the years, so why hadn't theirs?

'The house is our heritage and legacy; it would be sacrilege to alter it!' Allen would often remind her. 'Remember, it's older than America itself!'

At some point, she thought, someone had to leave one home for another. Else, how would anyone ever end up some place new?

So... Liya wanted to leave.

The idea of spending the rest of her life in the family home was filled with feelings of dread and misery.

The reason why, was as simple as they always were for a sixteen-year-old: How else was she supposed to find love?

They lived in a small town with only five boys around her age. Out of those five, only one was of particularly dreamy stock. Unfortunately, he had never shown much interest in her, as all his energy was used to woo her best friend.

That particular sentiment did not sit well with Liya. What could she possibly offer that I can't? It boggled her mind. Sometimes she wondered if it was all a consequence of her unusual looks. Long straight brown hair. Icy blue eyes. Yet eastern facial features from her mother's side of the family. Do I really look that weird?

Not that she was allowed to be involved in romantic affairs. Her father had made it abundantly clear that she was not to pursue relations with anyone.

'Fleeting love would do none but harm the Barlow family secret,' Allen claimed. Whatever that alleged secret was, she was never told.

“I'm going to Mom's,” Liya shouted as she slammed the front door closed. A small decorative ship wheel which hung next to the door shook by the force and a rusty nail popped out. It fell to the floor with a faint clink.

As Liya walked along the road, she cursed her father. When she was younger, she didn't realize just how different her family was. Now that she was older, she understood how they deviated a lot from the norm. Other families lived under the same roof, shared dinner, had electricity and running water. Not the Barlow family. No, her father would never install any such contraptions, nor let his wife inside. Elsa, her mother, had to get her own house down the street as part of the marriage conditions. Only direct descendants were allowed to place their foot inside the Barlow household. It didn't make a lick of sense to Liya.

Just another of Dad's crazy traditions, she thought.

It didn't help that her question of 'Why' was forever ignored. Her father always gave her the same response when he had no answer: 'In due time, you will understand'. He would say.

Once again, he didn't give me an answer, she thought. Very well, he can keep it.

It had been his last chance this evening. She had tried to make it clear to him but once again, he didn't understand, or perhaps he simply didn't care. Now, she would make one final farewell to her mother, then run away from home, forever.


Allen was still on the upper floor in his study, preparing a ceremony he had planned for the evening.

He procured a weathered old letter from the family heirloom chest. It was time for Liya to know the truth. Just as it had been done through the ages on the eve of the heir's sixteenth birthday. A ceremony of sort. Allen didn't know why it was so, but who was he to meddle with the way things had always been?

According to Nora, his mother. Not following the doctrine of tradition could forever break what made their family unique. 'It's like introducing a street mutt to a family of cats', Nora would explain. 'Nothing good ever came from that'.

Allen poured himself a glass of whiskey and plopped down at his old wooden chair in the study room. The ice in his glass clinked as he rested his feet on the desk and his arm against his flaming red head. A scowl appeared on his tense brows when he thought back on his youthful days.

A young Allen had, against his mother's wishes, left their home one evening. His plan was perfect, or so the spirit of his youth had decided. He would hitchhike with Burt Reynolds, an old farmer, who would leave town that evening. Just as he did each year. There was a harvest market a town over, and Burt happened to be an accomplished radish farmer.

Allen climbed up and took a seat next to Burt. He peeked a look at the content of the cart, expecting there to be bags of radishes. With a perplexed look on his face, he turned to the aged farmer.

“Uh... Where is your harvest, sir?”

“Oh, we're not going to the market lad! Your mother came by and offered to buy my entire stock if I happened to find you in my care this fortunate evening.”

“What's she going to do with all those radishes?” Allen asked without thinking.

“Beats me,” Burt said with a hackling laugh then whipped his horse towards the Barlow home.

Sour and bitter, Allen cursed his fate as they arrived.

“Thank you Burt,” Nora said and threw him a large sack of coin. “That will be all.”

Allen crossed his arms in defiance as he left the cart and strode inside. Nora waved to Burt a final thanks as the old man gestured his surprise by the wealth of the sack with coins. It was far more than he had asked for.

Inside the house, Nora handed a Allen a letter. It was old and weathered.


Elsa was happy to see her daughter despite her exhaustion. She had just arrived home from work and closed the door behind her when the doorbell rang. She was an engineering teacher at the local university. She had quickly rummaged through the kitchen cabinet and found a bin of coffee which she cooked for her daughter. She didn't drink it herself, but she always kept it around for times when Allen or Liya came to visit. It also helped her enjoy a particular fond memory of times yonder. After all, it was coffee which had brought Allen and her together as lovers two decades ago.

Liya had positioned herself by the windowsill of her mother's home with a cup of coffee in hand, looking out. Most of the coffee was gone by now and what remained had already grown cold and bitter.

“What's wrong dear?” Elsa asked with no hint of concern, she was a veteran at spotting her daughter's drama cues.

“I can't take it anymore,” Liya complained, “Dad is impossible to deal with, I'm not even allowed to bring my smartphone into the house! How am I supposed to fit in and keep friends when I stick out like a sore thumb?”

She turned around to face her mother, her face did no attempts to hide her dismay.

“Oh sweetie,” Elsa said, “it's just the way things are with him.”

Liya swallowed the bitter content of her mug in jest, her emotions were analogous.

“How can you stay married to someone who clearly doesn't care enough about you to break tradition! You know it's all he ever talks about! Tradition, tradition, tradition!”

Elsa motioned for Liya's mug and filled it with a second serving. She then seated herself at the kitchen table.

“Your father is a good man,” she said. “He does what he believes is right for us, even if it may sometimes seem the opposite.”

“Forget I asked.”

Liya gulped down her refill then went to her bedroom. A room which she seldom used due to how things were, but a room she had fitted with a sense of identity; to be her own. Much more so than the room she had at the Barlow house. In here, she had a TV connected with a gaming console and a couple of games next to it. A computer at a desk with small fancy speakers, a wireless keyboard and mouse. Stuffed animals covering her pink and silky smooth bed. A makeup cabinet cluttered with small boxes next to a full body mirror. On the floor she had a nice blue striped purple carpet. There was also a small stool which was the home of her most prized possession – her smartphone. She rested it on the stool with a charger cable connected to it. The phone was the only device she wouldn't leave behind. It frustrated her that she always had to leave it in the mailbox when she entered her Father's house. 'A “mobile” phone is useless if it's in the mailbox, Dad.' She would often complain. She had decorated the wall next to her bed with a set of small posters and photos of friends and famous studs.

Back in the kitchen, Elsa reviewed an old memory, as she often did when the aroma of coffee hung in the air and she was left alone with her thoughts.

Back when she was a teenager she worked as a waitress at the local coffee house. With her Chinese ancestry, the boys would always pursue her for her exotic promises, never for her own self. She could never quite figure out why they were so fascinated by her almond shaped eyes, high cheekbones, and straight black hair.

One day, a handsome young man had stumbled his way in. He seemed confused and spoke with a thick accent, as if he came from some farmers' home way into the country. He ordered a cup, and she obliged. It wasn't anything fancy, but the face he made suggested it was the best coffee he ever had.

Enchanted by the odd yet polite and charming boy, she suggested he should bring her to dance at the town's hall. The dance was arranged once a week and it was considered the hottest event for the town's young couples. Elsa had not attended for months, but perhaps it was time to try again. It could be a lot of fun with such a cute and fascinating boy.

The evening was pleasant and they shared a kiss. She never brought anyone else to the dance ever again.


Back at the Barlow home, Allen was struggling with the next stage of the ceremony preparation. He wondered how the Barlow's of the past had managed to go through with it.

Well, my mother was no mystery, he thought. She would likely have left me behind if it was up for choice.

Allen never knew his own father. 'If not a Barlow, then not a concern', Nora had said.

It's not like there were any other Barlow's around, he thought. Just a quick look through the ancestral tree suggested there seldom was. Just parent and child.


Elsa knocked on Liya's door. “Honey?” she called “We should go see your father, perhaps we can mend things.”

Liya had packed a few things in her backpack, one of the stuffed toys; a large blue elephant, her favorite. It presented a memory of better times. Five sets of clothes, a handheld gaming console and the phone charger. Her smartphone was snuggly placed in her back pocket. She was just about ready for her adventure.

“No point, Mom,” Liya replied, “I'm never going back there.”

“We have had this argument dear,” Elsa said firmly. “Your father needs you.”

“No he doesn't! All he needs is his house and those precious family traditions of his!”

“Come now, you know that isn't so! How is he supposed to buy groceries without your instructions? You know he's dense with technology, especially when it comes to credit cards.”

“He has you, Mom, maybe it would get the two of you back on track with your marriage if you took care of things again.”

“Liya, that's not fair! You know our relationship has always been complicated!” she said and then added in quiet voice, “... But stable.”

“Fine, sorry, but I'm not going inside the house, we can talk, but I'm done with that place.”

“Good enough for me.”

Liya opened the door, she had the backpack on her back.

“What's with the luggage?” Elsa asked.

“Precaution,” Liya said with a shrug. She had no desire to discuss it further.


Allen stood at the porch, almost all preparations done, mind made ready. Now all that was missing was his daughter. He worried she might have planned to stay the night at his wife's place. That wouldn't do, as it was the final eve of revelations. It could only be done on her sixteenth birthday as it had always been. If it was delayed, perhaps it would be the end of their special place in the universe. Allen also didn't like the prospect of seeing his wife if he went there to bring Liya home. He wasn't sure he could handle it if he did.

He heard two sets of gravelly steps scraping against the asphalt, someone was coming. He hope it would be Liya and one of her friends seeing her home, but alas that was not meant to be. A knot built inside his stomach as he saw Elsa emerge together with their daughter.

“Why...” Allen murmured.

“Hi, honey,” Elsa said, “you upset our daughter again, I hope we can clear things up a bit.”

A tear rolled down Allen's cheek, “You're not supposed to be here.”

“Why would you say that?” she demanded. “If this is how it's going to be I'd rather take our daughter back with me.”

“No,” Allen said with more tears pouring down his face. “That's not what I meant.”

“What's wrong Dad?” Liya asked, she had never seen him cry before.

“I don't think I can do this.”

“What do you mean?” Elsa asked, her brows curled with concern.

“Our daughter, it is her time to take the family rite of passage, to take ownership of the house.”

“I don't want it! You can keep it!”

“It's not about what we want, it's about honoring the family.”

“But honey, why does it make you sad?”

“Because it means I... We, have to leave you behind, my love.”

“What kind of stupid tradition is that!” Liya shouted, “Unbelievable!”

“The one that matters most,” Allen said as he collapsed to the ground, bawling.

“Oh, honey,” Elsa said as she stepped up on the porch and draped him in her arms.

“I am scared... The two of us will part forever... Confronting it now, it feels worse than death... I thought I could handle it, that I was strong enough to go through with this... Yet seeing you here, in front of me, it's too much,” he said between sobs.

Liya had enough with the drama. She didn't want the house nor its secrets. She didn't care for the traditions. It was all nonsense to her. Stepping past her parents and entering the house, she saw the preparations. Her father had lit candles on a round table next to the old staircase. The candles illuminating an old weathered letter.

Is this what it's all about? she thought. The family secret that's been ruining my life was an old piece of paper?

She fought the urge to tear it apart as she started to read. A quick glance revealed it as a set of instructions and theory behind the family secret. At the bottom, in big letters, there was a message from Earl Barlow himself, the man who built their home:

“I write this for my son, who will hand it to his own, who will hand it to his, and so it must pass forever.

Congratulations on your sixteenth birthday. It is time for you to now assume a great responsibility. This task that has been passed to you will transcend you beyond human understanding.

With this house, the world is yours.

By twisting the handles on the wheel next to the house entrance door, you command not only time, but space as well. You can move the house anywhere, be it in times past, future, unknown lands, or famous cities. Explore what has been, and what will come to pass.

I do not myself know how this came to be, only that it is. I thus urge you to follow the steps listed, so that our family's power, this house secret, will remain with us for all of time.

As a final heed, there is no control behind the directions of travel. I built the house on Scottish Highlands and by happenstance fiddled with the wheel. It brought me and the house to a green plain with strange looking wisents and long necked camels. I had seen camels on my travels through Asia, these were not of the same ilk.

It is now your destiny to command the house. This being your sixteenth birthday, you have to turn the wheel to fulfill your duty: to know truth. You may turn it as many times as you wish.

A word of advice: let your children acclimate and prosper where you settle, until their time has come. Just like I did you.”

She put the paper down and walked over to the ship wheel, carefully studying its shape and purpose. It had always been there, yet she had never before identified it as anything but a piece of decoration. Passing it by, day by day, without a second thought. Now, it could potentially be something more, something alien, something bigger than her. It was as if a strange reality exploded in her mind.

For most people, just as for her, consequence was secondary to action. She turned the wheel.

As she opened the door with a slow motion, her view gave her a sinking feeling in her chest. She couldn't believe she almost bought what the old letter had stated. There, on his knees, was her father, crying into her mother's chest.

“Is this a joke?” She said. “Dad, it doesn't work.”

“What?”

“The wheel.”

“What?”

“The wheel, Dad.”

“Did you break it?”

“No, Dad,” she sighed and rolled her eyes, “I just did what the paper said.”

“You were planning to leaving us behind?”

“Honey, what is she talking about?”

Allen wobbled up on his feet and entered the house. He closed the door, leaving a confused Elsa on her own at the porch. He took a deep breath then turned the wheel. As he exhaled, he slowly opened the door again, Elsa still stood outside. He repeated the process, yet nothing changed.

It's broken... he thought as shiver ran through his spine. He staggered back from the wheel. It's broken? he thought again, staring at the wheel, confusion plastering his face. It's broken! he thought for a third time as a thin smile formed on his lips.

“It's broken!” he proclaimed at the top of his lungs with wild smile.

He dashed out the door and embraced his wife in his arms.

“Elsa, it's broken!”

He took a small step back from her, creating a short distance between them. He gripped her hands in his, and pulled her into the house. She rejected his pull for just a moment, all those years, forbidden to enter. Like an invisible force, she couldn't help but feel like something bad was about to happen. She looked into his eyes, they were still red from his tears, but there was a glimmer of hope and joy. A glimmer she had not seen for years. She fell into those eyes, like she had so long ago, She let herself be whiskered away. She was pulled into the dark, mysterious and forbidden place – The Barlow Home.

Liya looked at her parents, their faces expressing emotions she had never seen before. Were they happy? Scared? She couldn't tell what it was.

Allen pulled Elsa up the old staircase.

“The family legacy is over! No more do I have to fear losing you,” he said as another tear slid down his cheek, this time of joy. “No more do we have to remain apart.”

“I don't understand.”

“I am finally free from the family burden,” he explained. “Free to live my life together with you, at last, my love.”

Her eyes watered, “Does this mean...?”

“Yes! A hundred times, yes!”

Liya could hear her parent's voices vanishing up the stairs. She didn't mean to ever set her foot inside the house again, but those feelings were now fading. She took a look around, imagining what changes there could be now that the family secret appeared to be broken. She walked to the door that her father had left wide open.

What now? she thought. Should I make a run for the last bus of the evening?

Was her reason to leave no longer there? Liya stood in silence, contemplating her choices. She was lost. For the past three years she wanted nothing more than to leave this house and have a taste of freedom. Now, was that reason gone? She felt like a fire out of fuel.

Will Dad come to accept change? Could we be a normal family? For a moment, she had these thoughts, but the memories of her father were painted with rigid traditions and bizarre rules. Change... It is what I wanted... right? Her contemplation began to pound inside her skull as if a hedgehog was lodged tight inside. There will still be a bus waiting for me tomorrow... I should sleep on it.

Liya closed the door then turned around with an overwhelming sigh. She felt something under her foot and took a step back. There, on the floor, she saw an old rusty nail. She plucked it from the floor. Her eyes trailing the direction of its possible origin.

”...What if?” she said to herself, matching it to the wheel. It fit, she turned it, then opened the door.


A surreal nothingness presented itself outside the house. It was, for all intents and purposes, a pure black void. Liya felt a sudden rush of fear pulse from her head all the way down to the soles of her feet.

“Shit...” she whispered to herself as she stepped out on the porch and looked around. “What the hell happened?”

The void seemed to defy all logic. She could not see or feel anything from it, there was no light nor wind. Yet somehow she could draw breath, somehow... She could see her hands and the porch. There was even a sensation of humid warmth in her lungs.

What is this place? She wondered as she carefully bent down at the edge of the porch then reached for the blackness with her fingertips. There was pressure there, like touching the floor. Not that she could see it, yet by some means; there it was, and it felt to her as cool as stone.

She summoned all her courage and ventured off the porch and into the darkness. Once she had made a short distance from the house, she turned around to look.

Maybe I should go back, she thought.

Before she could make her decision, a quiet thud sounded from the direction of the house. It made her to jump in fright. The wheel came tumbling through the door, onto the porch then wobbled towards her. She froze, eyes locked on the moving threat. It eventually reached her and she stopped it with the tip of her shoe then quickly took a few steps away. As it tipped over to rest, one of the handles loosened. Her gaze trailed back to the door of the house. An option for safety that remained open.

Yeap, back I go, she thought.

Just as she was about to dash for the door, she stopped in her tracks and observed the wheel intensely.

Calm down, Liya. It's just a wheel. I'm gonna need it to control the house.

As she bent down to pick it up, a rush of eerie white static noise closed in on her location. Hyperventilating, she tightly gripped onto the wheel, hoping to ease her fears. Her hair began to stand, as if thunder loomed in the air.

Mom... Dad... She panicked, gaze fixated on the house. She was desperate to get back, but the house began to shrink as if flying away from her. Soon, all she saw, was darkness.


“So, what do you think?” Allen asked as he stared into Elsa's beautiful brown eyes. Nothing about her had changed since they day they had first met. Her flexibility, optimism and passion of life was what kept their marriage together. She was his pillar, his light.

Sure, the past few years had been rough and difficult, especially with Liya's constant search for conflict. But even then, Allen knew that everything would be alright as long as Elsa was by his side.

What he had tried to do was insane! To leave her like that, why had he even considered it? He could not fathom a life without her. For them to have the ability to stay together wherever they were, be it in the Barlow House or elsewhere in the world, it was a dream come true.

“It's lovely, honey,” she said with a sweet smile.

The smile on his lips just wouldn't rest. He had been smiling so widely all this time, the muscles started to strain, yet he couldn't stop.

“I know it's not much,” he said. “It's rather derelict, in more ways than one.”

“Nonsense, it's your family home, your treasure!”

“Not anymore,” he trailed off. The smile still wouldn't settle. To finally be free from the shackles of the Barlow's secret was a release.

We can finally lead an ordinary life! A life that Elsa and Liya both deserve!

His smile faded as it dawned on him how it had never been the Barlow House Secret at the core of their misery. He had been the center of it all along.

“I should have done this a long time ago,” Allen confided. “It would have saved us a lot of trouble...”

What had been the point of the House Secret in the first place? He never wanted the house's powers. It never did anyone any good. The only good thing the house had ever done for him was guide him to Elsa, the love of his life. As a Barlow descendant, he was obligated to keep the family's legacy. He had sacrificed so much as a Barlow and for the sake of Liya. He wanted her to have the opportunity of choices no one else in the world could ever have. To command the house and go wherever she desired, to achieve her dreams and find her happiness.

All these years, he had been so focused on providing her with that gift. He had ignored the fact that she was suffering as a consequence as well. As if he had forgotten what it was like to be in her shoes. Why didn't he just bury the House Secret and all the pain it brought from the start? It would have solved so many problems, problems that, up until this point, had driven him to pieces.

“Everything will be alright, honey,” Elsa said as she gently placed her warm hands on his stiff shoulders. “We still have the matter of our daughter to deal with. I'm quite certain she's still cross with you.”


Birds chirped in the distance and a smell of fresh morning dew hung in the air.

Daylight... Liya thought with a relief, yet gripped the wheel as if it was the only ounce of sanity left.

What had been darkness was now an idyllic, yet unfamiliar place. A lush plain with several breeze patterns danced by the grass. She couldn't see any trees nearby. The horizon seemed short before her and she soon discovered a cliff ahead.

Her knees were weak from distress and she let herself collapsed onto the ground. Never before had the damp earth felt like a blessing. She took a few deep breaths of the fresh air as she rolled over onto her back enjoying the blue sky. From afar, she noticed a faint voice in the jumble of birdsong.

A man's voice...?

She got up on her feet and edged herself to the cliff. A breathtaking view of the plains below seemingly extended on forever. Right below her, near the walls of the cliff, was a small figure tinkering with what looked like a large and complicated machinery.


Allen and Elsa both shared a sense of distress, Liya wouldn't answer their calls. Had she run away, like she said she would? They didn't know, and it worried them. The change they had just experienced together was momentous; it had changed their lives forever—Surely, she understood as much?

The staircase squeaked eerily as Elsa made her way down. Each step had further intensified her anxiety as if the house closed in on her, rattling her state of mind.

“I don't like these stairs,” she murmured.

“Did she go out?” Allen asked, he still stood on the top of the stairs.

“The door is open.”

She walked the short distance from the stairs to the door, then froze.

“Can you see her?”

Elsa wouldn't answer, she just stood there. Allen made his way down the stairs to join her and as he reached the door, he too, froze by her side.


Liya reached the bottom of the cliff and found an old, bald man with a pair of bushy orange mutton chops. He donned an old fashioned attire of blue and grey; it was in complete contrast to the intricate brilliance of machinery he was building. She wondered where he stored the machine parts, as there were no cars nor caches. It was as if everything had been dumped in place, then puzzled together piece by piece.

The old man had noticed her late in her climb down the rocky cliff walls.

“Hey there lass, what are ye doing there?” he asked with a thick highlander accent.

“Uh―hello. I saw you from up top,” she pointed up. “Had to get a closer look of what you're building here. Very interesting. What is it?”

“Something, lass,” he said with a pause, “that ye wouldn't understand.”

“Try me.”

“Well, is a machine. Things, it does.”

“What things?”

“Just... things. Ye wouldn't ken.”

She rolled her eyes at that, then gave him a tired smile.

“Come on, was my dangerous climb for naught?”

“Is complicated, alright?”

“What? Is it classified?”

“Eh, yes―that word.”

“Alright, fine. Be a stranger then.”

“Has anyone ever told ye, ye'r one odd lass?”

“I got more,” she said with a pause, contemplating the wisdom of presenting her next question. “What year is it?”

The old man nicked his head back and blinked his eyes in bewilderment.

“Ye'r an odd one, that,” said the old man, “November the 10th, 1443.”


Allen stepped off the porch and out into the darkness. He shouted for Liya, yet not even an echo would answer his calls. Was there nothing out there to reflect his voice? Elsa gripped the porch rail with her nervous sweaty hands. She dared not to venture further. The black nothingness frightened her to the her bones.

After minutes of futile shouting, Allen gave up and made his way back to his wife.

“I don't know what's going on,” he said as he ran his hands through his red hair.

“You're the wizard,” she snapped. “You figure it out!”

“It doesn't make sense.”

“You think!”

“It's alright, go ahead and blame me. I don't know where to go from here, how to find her, how to get us back.”

“Why...?”

“This must have something to do with the house secret, but I don't understand how. The wheel which directs the passage through time should have been broken, at least I assume as much... But now? I don't know. It could still be broken and we somehow slipped through time, which would be even worse. Still, if that is the case, wherever we are, I don't know if there is any way back without the wheel. I believe it's the foundation of the house's power.”

Elsa collapsed, yet her hand still gripped the railing.

“Even if we had a way back, we can't leave without Liya... We have to find her...” Allen muttered.

“Please, fix this...” Elsa said with a wavering tone.


Liya inspected and prodded the construction. The old man seemed annoyed by her presence, but said nothing.

The machinery wasn't pompous by any means. Rather, it was connected by glass tubes, circuit boards, metal hinges, and so on. In a way, she thought it looked like the inside of a computer, just like one of those she had built back in school. Except this was on a far larger scale, like a network of computers interlaced in a mysterious manner.

She did not understand the date he gave her. Was it six hundred years in the past? she thought to herself. Perhaps there had been an event? Some kind of change that had created a new calendar date for mankind.

“Don't ye have some place to be, preferably someplace that isn't here?” he grunted.

“Nope.”

Her hands were behind her back as she leaned in beside him with a gleeful smile.

“What does that do?”

He turned to her, noticing how close she was.

“Ack!” he stumbled to the side, dropping his tools to gain purchase. “Ye'r such a pest!”

“Thank you!” she straightened her back with pride.

“Tha's not a compliment.”

“Are you sure?”

He groaned then rolled his eyes as he picked up his tools and went back to work.

She moved a pace from him and took a seat at one of the metal panels.

“You know,” she said with a less playful tone, “in the short of a day, I've had experiences most people would dream about.”

He ignored her. She continued.

“Most people would probably think me crazy if I told them about it.”

He quirked an eyebrow and tried to hide it. She saw.

“You think you have it all figured out, but then you realize just how insignificant you are and how little you understand of things.”

“We call that life, lass.”

“How do I deal with it?”

“Don't have to make sense of everything.”

“I mean, like... Where do I go from here? Nothing makes sense anymore, not even my own existence or the world... Nothing.”

“When that happens, think of something ye want for yerself, 'an focus on that. Can't always make sense of things, nor do ye have to.”

“I don't know what I want.”

“Well then, tha's what ye want. Ye want to ken what ye want. See?”

She contemplated that for a moment.

“Are you trying to confuse me?”

A smirk formed on the side of his lips.

“So... What did you do last time? I mean, when you ran into a crisis and didn't know where to go from there?”

“Oh I'm doing it right now lass.”

She looked at him, then around herself.

So he decided to sink his sorrow or whatever it was that led him here into the construction of this thing then? she thought. But why? What does it do?

“Lass, what's with the steering wheel ye got there in yer hand?”

She looked into her hands, she still held the wheel.

”...A memento,” she answered.


Allen heard a faint noise from a far distance. It sounded like electrical charges closing in. He reluctantly let go of Elsa, who had been in his embrace, to look out across the blackness, searching for the source of the sound. In the far off distance, small smudges appeared in the black oblivion.

Allen could feel a static electricity increasing as the alien objects drew in and began to grow. He squinted, trying hard to make sense of the smudges.

“Look there!” he stuttered as he poked at his wife to look out ahead.

Elsa turned around and blinked with a bewildered expression on her face.

A colony of houses came whizzing towards them and settled in varying distances from where they stood. They weren't just any houses; they were all the Barlow House―almost exact replicas of their own. Before Allen and Elsa could contain themselves, the doors of each house popped open.


Liya fiddled with the broken handle of the wheel. The one that broke when it had tipped over before. She carefully removed it from its socket and looked at the part which had been connected inside. It was metallic in nature, and there were two thin spikes poking out. At first glance it just looked like nails, but as she took a closer look it was more akin to connectors.

Was it?

She noticed the old man looking at her with interest.

He wouldn't know ...Right?

“Can I see that?” he asked.

“Sorry, classified,” she said in jest, trying to hide her concern, then reluctantly handed him the wheel with a shrug. Playing it down as a casual gesture.

He inspected it lightly, his orange bushy brows furrowing.

“This...I!” he said and turned around, making quick steps to the edge of the construct. There, he revealed a hatch as he opened it.

She followed him with her gaze. She couldn't see what he was doing in the enclosed space as his head was dipped down below.

“What are you doing?” she said as she started to walk.

“Stay back!”

She took a step back and paused.

“What are you doing to it!”

He got out from the hatch, and looked at her. He had a deep concern in his eyes, yet would say nothing. He brought the wheel from under, the handle now attached, then threw it to her. She caught it, her gaze locked with his.

Vibrations came from the wheel, numbing her fingers.

“What did you do to it!”

“Young lass,” he said coolly, “who are ye?”

”...Liya! But that's not important right now! What did you do to my wheel!”

“Liya what? I very much dislike half-cocked answers.”

The vibrations from the wheel became stronger.

“Liya Barlow! The wheel! Now, tell me!”

The old man paused for a minute then broke into a boisterous loud laugh.

“For a moment there, I thought they've caught up with me! Well, Liya, my lassie, tis' a pleasure to meet another Barlow.”

Liya's eyes widen and asked, “What do you mean 'another Barlow'? Wait, we're getting off topic. Why is the wheel vibrating!”

The old man completely dismissed her question and continued rambling.

“I can see where yer strong personality came from. It clearly runs in the Barlow bloodline!” he laughed and nodded with approval. “I might just have solved yer problem. I think. Then again, I might have been the cause for it in the first place.”

“Hey, old man, I asked you a question!” Liya yelled with concern and irritation.

She let out a gasp when she felt the wheel grow hot from its vibrations.

“Who the hell are you!” she screamed.

The old man smirked and replied, “Earl Barlow, at yer service. Take care of yerself, young lassie.”

Before she could rebut, once more, darkness swallowed her whole.


Elsa puffed and panted. The strange phenomenon seemed to have slowed into a stop. There were more houses than one could count.

With wide eyes, Allen moved down the small steps of the house.

“What is going on?” he said. “What is this!”

A crackling sound exploded from the door of their house and a dazed Liya stumbled out soon after.

“Mom?”

“Liya!” Elsa cried and ran to tightly embrace her daughter. “Where were you? What happened? Oh my sweet child!”

Allen rushed to embrace them both.

Finally together again... How long had it been since we were all in each other's arms? Allen couldn't recall. He felt like all the tension between him and his family quickly vanished. All that was left now was to get his family home, to merely find a way out of the void.

“Are you hurt?” he asked.

“I'm alright, but I'm not sure what's going on... I met with great grandfather, though.”

“You what?” Allen asked as he released his embrace.

“I don't know? The wheel rolled out of the house and as I picked it up, I found myself on a grassy plain with Earl.”

Elsa made distance to check on her daughter's wellbeing. No longer choking from the family hug, Liya's eyes shot wide open with disbelief seeing a crowd grow outside of their house.

“Uh! What? Ah!” she stuttered like a dumbfounded fish and pointed with a trembling finger.


Like a house of mirrors, countless Liyas stuck their heads out their respective doors. They all had bewildered expressions on their faces. Some gawked like dumbfounded goldfish, others dashed back inside screaming with fright. A rare few allowed curiosity to get the better of them and calmly approached the family, who in turn was now frozen like deer in the headlights of a moving car. It must have appeared to the others that they had been in the void a while longer than the rest of them.

Soon, what stood before them were multiple iterations of Liya; all the same yet different. If she ever wondered how many styles and looks she could explore in a lifetime, all the variations were now present before her: fat, skinny, punk, geek, fuzzy haired... Her mind began to spin.

“What the hell...” whispered Allen as his eyes scanned from left to right.

“So many Liyas... Where did they come from?” Elsa whispered back.

A Liya with pink hair and pop-star dress was first to stand before them. She bent over to carefully inspect the family and then down at her own dress and hands, then turned to look at a crowd of herself that stood in silence.

“What are you all?” She asked.

“I could ask the same question back at all you!” Retorted a Liya from the crowd.

“This is so cool! So many copies of me!” Squealed another Liya with pigtails and jeans.

“How did we all get here?—Wherever here is...” Pop-star Liya asked.

Then they all started throwing questions at one another. It was like a stock market office where everyone's voices were trying to dominate one another. Only the Original Liya stood in silence, deep in thought. She was trying to piece it all together. First, the House Secret, which brought her here. Next was the serene place where she met Earl and then back to the void. Now an army of herself appeared to congregate. She wondered if perhaps her actions had been the catalyst of it all.

She swallowed hard and murmured, “I might have started all this...”

“What do you mean you might have started all this!” Pop-star Liya yelled.

A dead silence was in the air as the crowd turned to face the Original Liya. She had never felt so embarrassed in her entire life, being scrutinized by hundreds of herself. What! She wanted to shout but held back. She could feel her eyebrows twitch with irritation, but otherwise managed to keep her expression calm.

It would be ridiculous to pick a fight with myself, she thought.

After a long, deep, breath, she began the tale of her strange encounters...


”...And he said, 'Earl Barlow, at your service.' Then suddenly, I was here...” She finished her story. After retelling the series of events, of Earl, of the machine and of the wheel to all the Liya's who gathered at their porch.

“Maybe he did something with that machine, like booting it up or something. So, when your wheel got loose it homed in on whatever it could fit for the time, and it sent you there. To the time when he built the house,” A Liya said, she had long black hair and bizarre blonde bangs obscuring her eyes.

“You know what? I'm more desperate to know,” Original Liya said. “In what timeline would I ever get myself such a terrible emo haircut!”

“Ha, look who's talking. Ever heard of the word style?” Emo Liya scoffed. “It's been my signature for the past 5 years.”

“I hope we're not the same age,” Original Liya said.

“Sixteenth birthday, today.”

“Argh... Why!”

“Actually,” Another Liya chimed in. This one had a few more pounds on her but otherwise the same style as Original Liya, “I think we're not from different timelines.”

“What do you mean?” Allen asked. “It's a time machine. We know that for a fact.”

“Do we?” Chubby Liya said. “All we know are the message in Earl's letter, and the Barlow legacy that my father told me about. Plus, I am guessing that the lot of us turned sixteen today.”

“But...”

“Look around you!” A short-haired, tomboyish Liya said. “Does this look like a place in time! Absolute darkness?”

“They're right, Allen,” Elsa said. “From what I can gather, it would seem that the machine travels through a multiverse.”

“Yes!” Tomboy Liya said. “That's what I think too.”

“How else could she have met Earl Barlow?” Allen tried to argue. “He said it was the 14th century!”

“As you can see, the many versions of our daughter have different quirks and personalities about them. It is reasonable to conclude that perhaps time itself works differently as well.”

“I'm confused,” Original Liya said. “If everything is different, yet similar, then why are there so many of me? In a multiverse, shouldn't the chances of me being born rare? Especially considering how different we all are from one another―Which further adds to the confusion! We have each lived a very different life. I mean, I would never get a haircut like those two, or stuff myself like that one, no offense. Clearly, each of these universes are extremely different from our own. So how come I was born, and at about the right time too, for my sixteenth birthday? Considering I met with Earl Barlow, I haven't even had a chance to be born in that time stream!”

“Simply put, the multiverse hypothesis suggests there's an infinite amount of probabilities,” Elsa concluded. “Out of all the universes that would appear to exist, you have only been born a limited number of times. Likewise, I believe the parameters to end up here have limiting requirements ...Wherever 'here' is.”

“So there's a bunch of me that aren't here yet, and maybe never will trigger the same chain of events to lead them here?”

“You said it yourself, you just had a run-in with our great grandfather,” Emo Liya added. “None of us here have had the same experience, we merely turned the wheel and here we are.”

“This might be slightly off topic, but... Mom, Dad, there's also a bunch of you guys coming at us,” Original Liya said as she pointed at the iterations of Elsa and Allen gathering a distance from their porch.


Elsa and Allen stepped off the porch and approached the large group of themselves. Apart for slight weight difference, clothes, and the few lone Allen's, they looked much like themselves. No radical differences like all those Liyas had. Elsa grabbed Allen's arm and held it tight so they wouldn't get mixed up. Others appeared to have had the same idea as well.

“Hi,” Elsa said to the group as they arrived and gave them a short wrap-up of her current hypothesis. “So, any of you happen to be an engineer too?”

More than half of them had never left the waitress job at the old coffee house. Two had pursued a different career altogether. The remaining few were established engineers and teachers just like herself.

“The Barlow Family Secret,” Original Allen said to another while his wife discussed their course of action with her counterparts, “all lies...”

“I understand you have had time to seethe your anger, but I disagree,” another, logical, Allen said. “It sounds to me like the secret just happened to be deeper than we were lead to believe.”

“Why the secrecy though?”

“Perhaps he was running away from something? Or merely wanted the machine to be kept within the family at all cost. It's a very powerful device, after all.”

“It ain't matter...” slurred a disheveled and depressed looking Allen.

He stood next to the Original Allen, who caught a pungent scent of alcohol drifting from his other self.

Ugh, what a repulsive smell! The Original Allen thought as he backed away a few steps, then stared in disbelief. I'm an alcoholic?

“Nothing matters anymore!” Drunk Allen yelled as he crashed down to the ground with a bottle of whiskey and broke into tears.

“It's all for naught...” he murmured with a hoarse voice as he laid flat on the blackness like a stringless puppet.

There was a heavy silence amongst all the Allens. They knew the worst of their nightmares had befallen this broken version of themselves. His beloved Elsa had left him forever, leaving nothing but despair and misery reflected in his bloodshot eyes. It was like a vivid nightmare, seeing the end result of a path the Original Allen had narrowly avoided. It made his heart twist in agony.

“I can't imagine the pain you're suffering,” Original Allen said as he helped the Drunk Allen back onto his feet.

“He had his chances with her and lost—And from that level of alcohol—I'm guessing it was quite some time ago,” Logical Allen said. “It is worse for those of us who assumed the voyage to this blasted place and left her behind in vain for the sake of the family secret.”

“See, if only we had known the truth, none of you would've had parted ways,” Original Allen said. “We have to figure a way for you to get back to her.”

Drunk Allen pushed away from the rest of them, these assholes don't understand, she would never take me back, not now, not ever.

“Leave me be...” he pushed through the crowd and groggily wobbled off into the distance.

“Can you believe that guy?” Another Allen said. “He would put Liya through his drunken debauchery, and for what? Because his Elsa left? How is that fair to our daughter? I don't even want to imagine how she leads a life in a home like that. If anything, perhaps we should keep her safe from him. Anyone wants an extra daughter?”

“I'll try figure out which of our daughter's belong to him.”

“As much as I love our daughter, my hands are full with just one. Thank you very much,” joked a hearty Allen, who received a warning pinch from an Elsa for being inappropriately cheeky at a situation like this.

“Excuse me,” Original Elsa chimed in, “I believe, if we can figure out how the machine works at its core, we might be able to send everyone back to their respective reality.”


Save for the Original Allen―Who was on a mission of his own―The party of adults began to tear apart the Original Barlow Family's house. It was a sacrifice the original Elsa and Allen had agreed to in order to uncover the mysteries of the machinery's operation lest they all be stuck inside the void for eternity. House or no house was a minor concern as none of the families had found a way to escape the bizarre place. They knew the wheel held some potential properties for travel, they just didn't know how to operate it.

Most of the Liyas had little in the form of strength to help out with the tearing. They tried with crowbars and other tools, but their efforts had underwhelming results. The shyer ones had also decided to appear, once curiosity—which seemed to be a universal trait for her—got the better of them.

Neat stacks of old grey wood, coupled with metal frames and nails, had been lined up around the remains of what was once their house. The machine now laid bare.

Original Liya gave a tour around the machine, tracing the steps of her observation from Earl. Once she was done with it, all the present Elsa's began their work.

“This technology is incredibly complicated,” Original Elsa said. “I don't know what to make of it.”

“There should be some instructions,” Another Elsa pointed out. “What about the hatch, anyone found it yet?”

“Should be around here,” Original Liya said, “Ah-ha!”

A group of Elsas gathered around Original Liya. The hatch had rusted shut by age and so a couple of Allens had to work it open. What they found inside was less than climatic, some extra bolts and connectors, and yet another letter...

“Hope you're not one of my dissidents. If you are of the Barlow blood, I assume you have discovered the truth of our legacy; hence, I leave here simple instructions for use:

On the other end opposite of the hatch, there should be a panel with a tiny lever attached to the bottom frame. Flip the lever, and you will be presented with the command console.

Before the command console will accept any commands however, you will need to disconnect the steering wheel. I transferred a control chip to the wheel, which allows it to operate as the catalyst of operations. The house will not be able to go anywhere without the wheel being directly connected. The wheel itself can be used as a travel device if you would ever need to leave the house behind. Be warned though, the house is the heart of operation, if the house cease to work, then so does the wheel's ability to travel between realms.

Once the wheel has been removed, it should automatically release control to the machine itself. To remove the wheel, simply detach it from its mount.

To control the navigation from there, use this set of commands...”

The list of commands were simple and intuitive. It would allow them to reset the machine back to its factory settings, restoring functions he had disabled. It also listed navigation, and other technicalities.

“Well then,” Original Elsa said, “as soon as my Allen gets back, I suggest we take the house for a spin.”


The Drunk Allen's spatial awareness was equal to a rock. This made the Original Allen's stalking easy; however, he found it incredibly frustrating as the Drunk Allen's navigational skills was equally impaired by his poison of choice.

Just find your house already, he sighed. If only I had a proverbial rock to throw at you, idiot.

It wasn't until the fifth house that it seemed like he finally found his own. Even if Allen had never taken appropriate care of the house as instructed by his ancestors, he learned the huge difference between 'run down' and 'falling apart'. The front door hung from a single hinge and the broken front windows had makeshift covers in the form of nailed up translucent tarpaulin.

Better than just barring the windows with wood, I guess.

He approached the door and knocked on the door panel. There was no point in breaking the house further by risking a knock to the actual door.

“Allen.”

“What!” A yell came from inside.

“Can I come in?”

“No!”

“Come to the door then, we need to talk.”

Metal clinked and rustled from inside and shortly after, the Drunk Allen slammed his door open. He held a fresh bottle of whisky in his hand.

“What do you want!”

“From what I've seen, the current trend of our particular situation seem to come with more Liyas than the rest of us which had me concerned about your—no, our daughter.”

Drunk Allen slumped his shoulders.

“A-A-Are you suggesting I don't treat her right?”

“You tell me.”

For a short moment, he had the air of regret about him, but then he puffed his chest and shouted, “Go to hell!”

He started to wave his bottle around by its neck, and it eventually broke as he blundered to the side of the door panel. Some of the content from the bottle flew in Allen's direction which made him stagger away from the door.

“Calm yourself, it's ok to feel pain and regret. I understand, we all do! We're in this mess together, and we all want the same thing – to protect our family!”

“No you don't, none of you understand! She hates me and I lost her, alright? I lost my wife! I will never get her back!”

Allen moved away from the house and sat down on the blackness. To argue with a drunk was always fruitless, especially himself. Knowing his own stubbornness was not doing him any favors right now.

“Where is your Liya?”

The Drunk Allen twitched back and sat down on his porch. He casually threw the broken bottle neck and it cracked once more as it landed on the strange black ground.

“I wish I could see the stars,” he said. “One last time.”

Allen didn't respond to that; he wasn't sure what it meant.

“There's a key, it's in the lock. I don't care anymore.”


Allen had been allowed inside the broken down house. Hidden under the stairs, he found a vault door with the aforementioned key in its lock. He turned it and carefully opened the door. Theories crossed his mind, but he didn't want to jump to any conclusions. No matter how bad things got, he couldn't imagine himself falling so low he would do something atrocious.

“You take it from here,” Drunk Allen said from the stairs. Along the staircase wall was a long rack of bottles. He plucked a fresh new whisky bottle, then headed upstairs.

Behind the door was a Liya, tied up and gagged to a chair. She responded with fright to his presence.

“What has he done!” Allen said in a low voice and immediately removed the gag. Her first response was to try and bite him.

“Don't do that!” he said. “I know you don't know what's going on, but trust me, you're safe now.”

“Safe? ...Safe?! Let me go already!”

“Calm down, I will release you shortly, just don't do anything stupid when you're let loose.”

He untied the ropes, and as soon as she was free, she knocked him onto his ass and dashed for the door. He tried to grab her but it was too late.

“Ahhh!” she screamed from outside.

As Allen made his way out onto the porch, he saw her lying flat on the blackness. It would appear she had stumbled in her shock after discovering her new reality.

“Are you alright?”

“What the hell have you done to me! Is it the alcoholic vapor coming from your person making me see things? Did you drug me? What the hell is going on!”

“It's difficult to explain.”

“Try me.”

“If you come back inside, it will be easier to explain.”

“I'm never setting my foot back inside that house!”

He turned around to call for Drunk Allen to come outside, but just as he drew breath, a snap echoed from above the stairs. Allen raced to the door and froze before he made it all the way back inside, feeling a cold chill run down his spine. What he saw was a pair of feet dangled in view, twitching, yet the rest of the body obscured by the front wall. Allen quickly realized he had a choice, to save his other self, or let him fulfill his choice.

In truth, Allen had never made a meaningful and personal choice for himself. He had never been allowed to. Being stuck in this void spoke for his lack of choice in life louder than anything ever before. He was certain every situation which lead to something good in life had been pure fluke, circumstantial at most. Drunk Allen had shown his lack of choice on how to remain by Elsa's side, she had made that choice for him. Now, possibly for the first time, he had taken matters into his own hands. He had made a choice. He had chosen to kill himself with a rope. If Allen attempted to save his life, then once more, choice would had been removed from the equation.

No, Allen thought, we are both making our choices here, this is the crossroads which we will walk together, me and myself, and I choose to leave him to his fate.

He turned his head away, then quietly, closed the door.

“Follow me,” he said in a solemn tone to the rather fraught Liya. He didn't want her to know what had just transpired and so he guided her on the path back to what remained of his home.


Elsa was getting impatient.

Where did he go?

She looked across the open space and saw an Allen and Liya approach not too far off.

“Honey, is that you?” she shouted.

He waved to her in agreement. The Liya with him was looking around herself like a spooked animal, frightened out of her wits.

“Moving away with your mother, leaving your father all on his own,” Allen pondered. “I wonder if I would have retreated to the bottom of a bottle myself.”

The Anxious Liya stopped in her steps.

“I mean! I would definitely not go crazy like he did and resort to kidnapping!” Allen said as he flailed his arms for emphasize. “...But I would certainly struggle to deal with the depressive reality of losing the two people who makes my life move forward through time. The two who makes it all worth it.”

She warily began to move again.

“We'll get you back to your Mom, don't worry.”

“Honey,” Elsa called out, “could you hurry up? We've been waiting on you so we can take the house out for a spin!”

“Yes, dear!”

He turned to the Anxious Liya, said something, then jogged to the house.

As soon as he stepped onto the house platform, Elsa maneuvered from the hatch to the console and activated it. She had done so once before, and it had worked as advertised. Original Liya stood ready at the wheel, and on Elsa's order, detached it. Once the wheel was detached, she input the reset command into the console, and soon after, the very fabric of space itself began to warp out of shape.

All the houses began to spin free in the air and slamming into one another; and so did all the Allens, Elsas and Liyas too. They twisted and swirled through the void. Those who still hid inside their houses were sucked out, those trying to make an escape were flopped high up in the air like ragdolls. Each and every one of them would slam into their counterparts and then disappear, leaving a single physical existence in its wake.

It was as if matter and antimatter had finally found their match, except the particles were not microscopic, they were whole houses and human bodies. The eradication of existence happened at an ever increasing rate.


Only one House, one Allen, one Elsa, and one Liya remained.

Liya groggily made her way up on her feet. She couldn't think clearly; she didn't know what had just happened. She was scared and confused, not just of what had happened, but by the strangeness of her mind.

A few paces off, she saw her father. He too was just about to get up on his feet and held a hand to his throbbing head. She assumed he felt the same way she did. Behind her, Elsa too was trying to get up.

“What went wrong?” Liya mustered to her mother.

“I don't...”

“I feel mighty ill.”

“Concussion? No... I...”

Allen wobbled his way near and groaned, “What happened?”

“I...” Elsa sat back down, her head spinning.

Liya and Allen followed suit. Neither of them could stand properly.

“It feels like there's a ball bouncing around where my brain used to be, I can't think straight,” Liya said as she curled up like a baby on the cold blackness. “It hurts.”

“I think I know what is happening to us,” Elsa said then laid a reassuring hand on her daughter, “but it doesn't explain why it's happening.”

“Bring it,” Allen said, he was crawling towards them now. “I need to understand this sensation; it's freaking me out.”

“Try to remember,” Elsa said, “our first kiss.”

Allen did as his wife requested and his head began to hurt immensely. What his memory presented him with was not just the kiss at the dance, but numerous kisses in numerous locations. Yet his feelings were all one and the same. The feeling of a sweet first kiss.

“Wow.” he gasped.

“I believe all our respective consciousness have melded into one,” Elsa explained.

He nodded.

“But why? We established it's a multiverse, not fragmented timelines.”

“My head is feeling better,” Liya said. “It's confusing though. How will I know what's real and what's not? How will I know which version of me is me?”

“It's all you, in a way,” Elsa said. “Maybe that's enough.”

Liya thought about it. Perhaps her mother was right, she wanted to experience life, a life that wasn't locked to the Barlow house. Well, she had gotten that, yet now she had more. She had the collective experiences of all versions of her who had been here in the void. Lifetimes of experiences. Was she still the Liya who met with Earl, or was she the accumulation of all Liyas into one being? Or perhaps one of the many Liyas? But beside that, in what universe did she now belong? Or perhaps it wasn't multiple universes, but fragmented timelines, and all she had to do was plop back into the one she had left?

Allen began to think about his death, he saw himself grab a bottle, take a full swig, then tie a prepared noose around his neck.

“Argh!” he screamed, wrapping his hands around his head as if protecting it from walls folding in.

“What's wrong honey?”

“Something bad happened before. It's part of me now. I will have to learn to control it...Somehow.” He nodded reassuringly, mostly for his own benefit.

“What do you mean?”

“Please, I don't want to talk about it or pursue those thoughts further.”

“Okay,” Elsa replied and reached soothingly for her husband.

They all stayed still for a while, trying to control their thoughts and come to terms with the experience.

“So, what now?” he asked. “We need to find a way back.”

“There's just the one house left. We should try to operate the wheel before we do any more through the terminal. See if it works.”

They got up on their feet, their minds still floating in a strangeness. They made it into the house, closed the door, then turned the wheel.


As the Barlow's opened the door, they found themselves in a dark place once more. This time, however, there was a distinct lack of light and a smell of dust in the air. Liya found her smartphone still snuggly stuffed in her back pocket. She activated the flashlight. Her mother did the same.

As they ventured out through the door and onto the porch, they noted a cemented ground. There was no draft nor stars, just black. They each agreed it had to be the insides of a building.

Allen held tightly to his wife's hand and followed out into the room.

“Echo!” Liya shouted, a short moment later it echoed back.

“Large building,” Elsa said. “Find a wall opposite of me, and we'll see if we can find ourselves a light switch.”

They didn't have to walk far until they found a wall each, Liya on one end, Elsa and Allen on the other. They began to follow the walls and after a few minutes of careful procedure, Liya found a big lever attached to a power grid box. She flipped it. A thumping sound of fluorescent lamps crackled and the interior revealed itself to be a large hangar-like structure with strange machinery neatly stacked in the center of the unnecessarily large empty space, with desks and cabinets littering along the walls.

At one of the desks, there was a slumped white lab coat covering a husk next to a set of computers. They approached it.

“Been dead for a very long time,” Allen pointed out. “It's withered to the bones.”

He lifted one of the arms of the coat, and a gun dropped from its hand. On closer inspection, whoever this had been, had made quick business of their life. His thoughts drifted back to a bad memory just moments ago. The memory of the noose around his neck, and the last thoughts before stepping off the railing. The tight rope strangling him, giving him the mercy he wanted―Death. Allen could vividly remember the last few minutes of his life: suffocating, choking, blood rushing, eyes burning, body swinging like a pendulum, and his life flashing before his eyes as his consciousness faded into oblivion. It frightened him how he could almost sense a thankfulness for allowing himself to commit suicide, yet another part of him would never had even considered such a fate. Elsa could see her husband's unease.

“Honey? What's the matter?” she rested a comforting hand on his arm.

“Nothing, dear. It's the headache from before. It'll go away soon.”

Elsa nodded then pulled the chair with the husk away from the desk, revealing a keyboard that hid beneath. She booted the nearest computer, and it came alive on the screen in front of the keyboard. The operative system was the Unix sort, possibly custom made for the operators, but thankfully not password protected. She used the keyboard to navigate to a video clip at the center of the desktop. The file name read: WATCH ME. As she clicked the file, a brunette wearing a white lab coat appeared on the screen.

“The Big Rip,” the woman said, likely the now dry corpse, “if you're watching this Earl, then be glad that you made it this far. We lost track of you soon after you went on your mission, but we know what you did, you bastard! If you want to put things right, you better do so as soon as you can, because the universe won't accept your nonsense. You're the most selfish asshole I've ever had the displeasure of meeting.

If you're someone else watching this, then I'm sorry. There's nothing we can do to stop it. The Big Rip is upon us, and if you're lucky, you'll have a few more years of life before it's game over.

You see, all matter of the universe, from stars and galaxies to atoms and particles, space-time and reality itself, is about to lose its integrity – to be torn apart in the cataclysmic event we call The Big Rip. The expansion of the universe has reached such heights, and at such rapid speeds, that soon, it will all be over. Nothing will be able to continue its existence when it happens, and it will happen soon.

In simple terms; we had devised a plan. A team of scientists – myself, my colleagues and the nefarious Earl Barlow—have managed to create a miniature universe. Our goal was to build a second mechanism inside this pocket of a universe and open a passage from here to there, channeling a stability between the two into a state of equilibrium. Just like if we have two bubbles, and the integrity of air seeps into the other at a rate in line with the expansion of space being generated in the first. The theoretical effect would have saved the universe, life, and everything else from certain doom. Yet, there was a catch.

A dead man's switch. Someone would have to manually configure the machine on the other side to keep the values in precision. Unfortunately for all of us, this could not be automated due to quantum uncertainty and as added security, for hell knows what reason, the device required Earl's DNA, indeed, his genetic imprint, in order to activate it. Once set up, the two universes would merge into an hourglass structure, a stable unit of impeccable balance, were the effects of spatial transfer would simmer indefinitely.

Earl Barlow nominated himself as the brave soul who would go down in history as the savior of existence itself at the cost of his own life.

We know that he did not complete his mission. We know that he managed to escape the pocket microverse before the transfer could be completed. We know that he doomed us all.

He used the technology on board to rig up an infinite amount of universes. He split our universe into multiple minor ones. Each universe will have an unequal spread of energy, and I bet you he took that into account. What it means is that, time flows differently, events play out differently, and the rate of expansion of each universe would hence vary on a scale so large he would be able to live out his life in a large number of them.

Unfortunately, many universes have already perished, and many more are to follow. This one in particular is on the brink of annihilation.

For this reason, Earl is the biggest most pompous narcissist to have been born. He is an asshole of reckoning. Destroyer of universes. He has already caused billions upon billions upon billions of deaths across his own made multiverse, and he is yet to cause more.

The only way for this to be reversed, is for the universes to be melded into one, to turn reality back into the one universe and the one man-made pocket-verse, and set the device on its task. To have Earl make the sacrifice that was required of him.

Alas, as you are watching this, unless you are Earl, I guess that is an impossibility. We cannot trace him. He has camouflaged the device, and reconfigured it for his own purposes.

I am sorry.

...So very sorry.”

The woman then raised a gun to her head then pulled the trigger.

Allen and Liya looked away from the horrifying scene on the screen. Elsa turned off the video shortly after.

“The Barlow House secret,” Allen said. “I thought I hated it before... But this? The truth of it all? I don't have the vocabulary to express how I feel.”


Earl stepped onto the platform. He waved a final farewell to the scientists and friends he would now leave behind, forever, as he walked towards oblivion.

He activated the machine, and it sent him into a black void.

After he made his readings and set the machine up for its purpose, he closed his eyes. He had long since come to terms made himself ready for the end. He would live on in legends and myths.

Headline, “Earl Barlow, the man who saved the universe.” It was a nice way to go, he thought.

It was time.

As the machine began to process the space between time and space, his life rushed in front of his eyes. He had left nothing behind other than a name. What good is a name when you're dead? What good is a legacy when there's no one to honor it? In time, a name withers and dies, fading like a canvas, slowly but surely. In time, his efforts would be seen as the invention of the wheel. Who remembers the inventor of the wheel? Who knows the name of the first firestarter? Who even knows the name of the inventor of our microchips? That one is even in the text books!

“No!” He bellowed into the emptiness. “This is not how I end!”

He ran to the hatch and ripped out a cable, he would rewire it later. It didn't stop the machine though, but he knew it wouldn't be enough. All he had done was unlock the navigations.

The space of the microverse had begun to expand at an accelerating rate, far beyond the little pocket that barely fit the machine. He could feel it tear at his being, the very molecules of existence separating. He had to act quickly before the entire place would rip him and the machine apart, setting the onset of equilibrium in progress, a self-maintained system of mechanics operating by the very laws of physics themselves.

He made his way to the terminal. He knew, if he could just get out of here in time, he could use what he had to splinter the universe into multiple instances of itself. It would create smaller similar versions of the one universe with an unpredictable consistency of time and space due to the already fragmented merge of energy between the two, but it would have to do. There would be enough universes for life to thrive in, not losing anything but space between space itself. There would be so many versions of him then, so many alternative lives, so many chances to set his existence into stone, to father a child, to leave proof behind.

He hit the command, which threw him off onto an Earth. He could feel his own existence, lagging behind, so many consciousness, ripped apart. It was a strange sensation, but it only lasted momentarily, until his one being melded with the universe it found itself in. All the billions of versions of himself would feel the same way. Singular. Well, save for the ones who ended up in a universe that was on the verge of destruction; but life came cheap in a multiverse, it didn't matter much if he lived or died in some of them, he would still exist, he would still have a chance to further his existence, to matter.

He began his customization of the machine.


“We have the machine,” Elsa said. “Earl's reconfiguration was probably the means to travel through the multiverse.”

“You're not saying we should...?” Allen asked.

“It is our responsibility.”

“But we don't even know where to begin,” Allen objected. “How to configure the machine! Even less how to get his DNA!”

She looked at him like the idiot he was for that last sentence. He considered her look for a moment.

“Ah.”

“If we don't, everything will cease to exist.”

Allen contemplated her words. Was this truly a choice? A choice that his great grandfather had originally made all those years ago? A choice that he had now inherited? No. His hands were tied, to sacrifice himself in favor of his daughter and wife was not a choice but yet another nature of the House Secret. To let the universe wither and die, his daughter and wife along with it? Or make the sacrifice so that they can live? Not a choice, he decided. Another trick, a remnant, left behind by Earl Barlow – the universe's most asinine man – then forced upon Allen once more.

“You're right, it has to be done and I will do it. For you, and for our baby girl.”

“We will need to do this together. I will manage the technicalities and you will provide your DNA. At least this way, we will leave a fighting chance for Liya.”

Allen was flabbergasted as he realized he wouldn't be able to even make that choice by himself. Once again, choice was taken out of the equation. He knew of no way to save his wife.

“What are you saying?” Liya asked.

“We need to make the sacrifice so that you can live.”

“I don't want that.”

“It's not up to you honey,” Elsa said. “Think of it as running away, just like you always wanted.”

Liya shook her head, tears welling up. “That's a bullshit thing to say and you know it. There has to be another way!”

“I'm sorry.”

“How will we get to the microverse now that the machine got us here?” Allen asked. “How will we meld the universes together?”

“With the reset we did, there should only be two sets of coordinates for it to go. Here, and the microverse. We should be able to configure the machine so that it attracts all the other houses from the multiverse into the microverse, just like how the wheel had originally thrown Liya into the version where Earl was still configuring the machine.”

“Alright.”

“Please, think about this!” Liya shouted. “Don't do this!”

“It has to be done,” Allen said as he embraced her.

“What about me!” she screamed with tears. A flash of memory graced her mind, a memory of things told when Allen... Died? He had said, 'No matter what happens, I will always love you and from now on, I will always be there for you, to protect you.' “Remember what you said! You said you would always be there for me! Please! Remember!”

“Oh honey, there is no other way,” Elsa said as she joined them and stroked her on the head as her daughter broke down crying.

“You can't do this! Mom, Dad, I'm so sorry for everything... Please... Don't go.”

Tears rolled down their cheeks. To say goodbye like this was something none of them had ever imagined. They remained in embrace of each other for an extraordinary amount of time.

“Farewell my child, know that I will always love you,” Elsa said as she pushed Liya off onto the concrete.

It was as if time almost came to a stop as she felt her hand slip off her mother's wrist.

“Be strong,” Allen said with a wavering voice.

“No please! Dad! This isn't fair! Don't leave me,” Liya begged as she crashed to the ground feeling faint. The grasp she had of her mother's wrist fully lost. Her constant tearful pleading and screaming fell upon deaf ears.

“I love you,” Allen said with a kind smile.

He and his wife both waved farewell from the door and then closed it with a lock.

“I love you both,” Liya whispered through her hiccups.

She had never felt this heartbroken before. Her parents were going to sacrifice themselves and she was powerless to stop them. Now alone, left to fend against the world on her own.

There was a loud sound like thunder followed by an almost invisible bubble of electricity wrapping around the house, then it suddenly vanished as if it was never there, air whipping up dust in the wake of the previously occupied space.

Liya froze and held her breath. She stared at the empty space. With nothing but her name, a smartphone, and the clothes on her body, she was now definitely all alone.

'Gone...' her mind echoed.

She wished it was all just a bad dream. She is going to wake up and it's going to be her birthday. She will tell her parents that she loves them with all her heart, it's going to be a fantastic day, and there's no such thing as the 'House Secret'.

“Liya, please wake up,” she pleaded and she pinched herself.

She turned to slapping her own face hard until her cheeks started to sting.

“No!” she screamed ballistically and broke down crying again until tears refused to come.

Liya could not tell how long she laid on the cold ground, exhausted and numb from all the crying. She took a few deep breaths and got onto her feet. Her legs felt weak but she could stand.

Staying here will resolve nothing, she thought. They aren't coming back.

Liya took a series of heavy steps to the large hangar gate. There was a human-sized door in the middle, she opened it, took a deep breath, then stepped through.


Earl hummed an old song. A song with passion from his ancient roots. A song that would dance in the wind of the old highlands and grace the everglades with spirits and courage.

“Scots wha hae wi~”

It had only been days since he slipped out of the microverse. He had hopes that he was one of those who would live a full life, yet he knew deep down that he might be one of the ill-fated. Despite the knowledge that other identical versions of himself would get to live on and die a humble death. He couldn't help but feel like part of him was still in regret. Regret not for the acts he had committed, acts that sealed the fate of the universe, but for those of himself that would soon find themselves at death's gate.

In a way, he felt it both pleasant and unsettling when that young lass prodded the machine. He thought for sure he had escaped the worst of it after asking the date from a local. But meeting her had meant two things: Other versions of himself had succeeded in their goal and left an annoying if not exceedingly charming legacy with a burning passion and fearlessness he admired. But it also meant that, whichever universe he now found himself in, it was doomed.

Time flowed in this microverse by a manner that was way out of scale. It was unpredictable and unstable. Meeting the lass, he understood how countless generations of his kin had already passed elsewhere.

Resentment boiled inside him. All the efforts. All the sacrifices. All the betrayals. Yet, this version of him, this one stray straw at the field, would never become ripe for harvest. Would never see a future with children and grandchildren.

It wasn't right. Not after the price he had paid. Not after giving his soul to the fate of nature. He did not consider himself a deity, he was merely enforcing the laws set by physics. Laws which had created the universe and now saw to unmake it. Why then, should he be punished? Why then, should he suffer?

No, he thought. I deserve life, I am Earl Barlow... I bloody make my own fate!

He used a strand of long and straight brown hair which he had found during Liya's visit. Instructing the part of the machine originally designed to authenticate his gene. Now it was repurposed to find her.

If he could get there, he would exist in a universe where the other him had long since perished. A universe without the potential for conflict of his own time stream. In such a universe, he could start anew and keep alive.

He activated the machine, and it warped him through the plane of realities. What he saw was like streams of videos overlapping into one another, with a series dim lightning's binding them together like a flip show. Soon, the machine had locked onto its target. When it came to a stop, he hurriedly stepped outside then began to lightly jog along a road which to him seemed far too familiar. Daffodil seeds were caught by the wind of his arrival when air was displaced, and it flew around him in an almost magical manner.

As he walked down the road, it led him to a building which he thought he would never lay eyes upon again.

My old research facility, he thought as his stomach twisted. Why?!

He turned back, and his jog went into a sprint. He ran as fast as he could, he didn't know why he was there, but he had his suspicion. If he could get back to his machine in time, maybe he could escape into a different time stream, a different life, anything would be better than here! This place had the same fate as the one he had just left, and it had angry people looking for him on top of that predicament.

Just as he reached the machine, what he had feared, happened. It vanished with a low hum of lightning before he could touch the porch. Once more, daffodil seed began to swirl in the air. He got down on his knees, hope escaping out of his mind.

Did they find a way to track me down? he thought. But then, how did the machine bring me here? I'm certain that strain of hair belonged to the lass, did it not? It should have brought me to her, not ...here?

Stranded, he thought. In a universe on the brink of destruction? In a universe where I'm wanted dead rather than alive?

“I give up,” he whispered into the wind. “You win...”

He looked towards the direction of the facility, awaiting the end. Yet what he saw, was a brown haired lass emerging at the curve of the horizon.

A smile began to form on his lips.

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Authors Note: Written in 2016. For some reason, this is everyone's favourite among my shorts.

Don Argus O'Callaghan was one of the few left in the building. His assistant, Mike Teller was also there, standing behind him with a book in hand.

“See,” Mike said, “I think it's safe to say that no ghosts are coming through tonight.”

“They ain't ghosts.” Don said with a tone indicating he was beyond tired of correcting the assumption.

“Of course they are,” Mike insisted, “People just didn't understand the physics back when the word was coined.”

“You arguing semantics?” Don asked. “The intellectual concept of an apparition is far different from what we're dealing with.”

“Yes, but...”

“But what?” Don cut him off. “Metaphysics this, superstition that. We practice neither, this, what we do, is science. Pure and simple.”

“Fine. But I'll keep calling them ghosts. How else are we supposed to convey an understanding in layman terms?”

Don shook his head. Useful assistants were hard to find as it was. At least this one was still alive. For now.

“The rift seem to originate from here.” Don said and traced it with his finger. He had discovered—back when he first got into the business—that rifts created small tumbles of air, fragments of atmosphere leaking in from the other side, cooling the room. At the crack of rifts it was especially cold, the classical term would be cold spots.

“This would be much easier with a thermal camera.” Mike said. He was sketching the path of Don's finger as he moved it through the room.

“Good thing I have an assistant who packs the instruments then.” Don said with a snarl.

“You know what, I think I did. Still in the car though.”

“Where it's doing a mighty fine job.” He stopped tracing then harshly glared at Mike.

“I'll go get it.”

Don continued to trace the rift with his finger until it overlapped with a wall. He left the room, which was an office room for an IT firm, then entered the next. It was another office. He sighed, then guessed his way to the rift and found it shortly, it traced half across the room.

“An unusually large rift,” Don mumbled to himself. “Something might have gone through here already.”

They had been called in for the job by their contact, Paul Banach, an officer of the local police force. The case had been dismissed as a wackjob hacker guy being overdosed on energy drinks and weed. The hacker guy claimed a large horned devil fell through the air in the middle of the afternoon, trashing the place. After witnessing the creature, he had made an exit accordingly and called the cops. Don didn't like the prospects of the witness, a horned devil could be anything from a fey class to a demon class. If it was fey, this job would already be done as soon as they found it, or even if they didn't. As the fey seldom liked it here in zero realm. Them falling through was more accidental than not, often as an end result of a bad teleportation. The demon class was a different story altogether, their realm and society was not as sophisticated, which made them rare. But each effort of success led to an invasion. They were dumb enough not to know they lack the technological capacity to invade zero realm, yet smart enough to make an effort out of it.

Wood complained from the hallway. Someone was there.

“Mike? I think we might have something here after all, the rift is sizable. Suggesting it's the end result of an explosion rather than teleport accident.”

No answer.

“It could be one of your so-called ghosts, but if so it's probably long gone. Sleeping in the dike a town out.”

That was the problem with ghosts. They were just regular people, who shifted over through natural rifts. This usually happened if a rift had opened inside their home or workplace. Spend too many hours near a rift, and your mass syncs and aligns with the twin world eventually. These people were easy to identify though, always confused, and swear they somehow ended up miles from their home as if through magic or UFO. Geographically speaking, the second realm was identical to zero realm. Evolutionary too. With the only difference being the planetary tilt having a few hours' difference, hence the insistence of ending up a sizable distance from home. Don had a feeling the same type of occurrence was common in the twin world as well.

Don left the office now, concerned that whoever was out in the corridor wasn't Mike. There, it stood. It was no demon he had seen before, and much too big to be an average fey. It was a dark brown, had a beaked mouth, the body similar to a rhino, with five non-symmetrical horns sticking out of its face. Another set of horns along its rib on each side, and a twinned tail which moved like snakes.

“You're not supposed to be here,” Don said. “Do you need help getting back?”

The beast growled and snarled at him. The first thought running through his mind was that this particular beast was some kind if equivalent to another realm's apex predator which had accidentally fallen through an unusually huge natural rift. His second thought was eloquently simple:

Run.

Don ran back into the office, slamming the door behind him. He looked out through the window and saw Mike still bent inside the car. This presented a couple of problems. He had to close the rift lest this rhino-demon-thing had a family eagerly awaiting their turn to pass through, yet he also had to lure it back through this rift. He wouldn't be able to send it back where it belonged if he shut it down now, and creatures like this simply could not be allowed to walk about in zero realm. It would create all kinds of collateral and logistical issues, not to mention religious and political. The problem with sending things through was time, something he felt just wasn't going to be applicable to a large and powerful feral beast like this one.

Don pried the window open.

“Mike! Fresh new entity! Very ferocious! Get me Paul from the cops division!”

Mike stopped his rummaging and went for his smartphone.

Don stuck his upper body out of the window and reached for a rusty old rain gutter. Just as his hand got a firm grip, the beast tore down the door behind him. Don swung his body out the window and latched his legs around the gutter not a second before the beast rammed the window. The force was like a charging rhino, and the wall cement cracked. The rain gutter loosened in response, and started to bend downwards, Don hanging on for his life, but not visibly showing fright. He was too weathered and experienced in situations like these, or so he would tell his assistants whenever he found himself in a complicated situation, and he was right to do so, as Mike was now his ninth assistant in little over three years. They tended to die when things got tense. Better leave them with a warning.

Mike snapped a photo of Don hanging from the rain gutter which had allocated his position above the street. Thankfully it was in the middle of the night so they wouldn't have trouble with traffic.

“How about you get me a ladder instead of material for your blog?” Don bellowed.

“Right. On it.”

Mike ran to the back of their vehicle and procured a ten-step ladder. He pulled it at the hinges, making it roughly five meters long, and firmly placed it beneath Don. While he held the ladder in place, he had his ear pressed against his shoulder, talking to Paul.

“As you can hear, we're in a bit of a pinch, I think Don wants some backup with suppressive gear,” Mike said to the phone.

“We need to barricade the building,” Don said, reaching with his toes for the top of the ladder.

A soon as Don made it to the ground, he was bombarded by questions from Mike.

“What did it look like? Was it from the Fey realm? Demon realm? Elf realm? Ghost realm? Spirit realm? Angelic realm? Witch realm? Giant's realm? Was it advanced technologically? Did it have any unique physiology? Any records in the ancient scriptures?”

Don didn't have an answer. This was something different. New. He was sure. As with all supposedly mythological creatures they often came from one of the common realms mentioned. In fact, Valhalla was close to a description of how it worked in practice, but there were more realms out there. Realms that were either primitive, or didn't generate rifts as frequent as the main known realms. Some might never even have been crossed or identified in the archived past. Though, what bothered Don the most about this situation was the size of the rift. It had the model of a fission explosion, a remnant of a nuke. Wherever this beast came from, it either survived the end times, or someone intelligent was behind the whole thing. If the latter, this was just the beginnings of what could be a catastrophic merge between two realms of space.

Twenty minutes later, a tired off duty cop arrived. He had clearly been asleep twenty five minutes earlier as his police vest was inside out.

“Paul,” Don said. “We need to barricade the whole area. Where are the rest of your people?”

“Hum,” Paul said. “It's not like I can order something like that, especially if I'd start raving about ghosts as an argument for the efforts.”

“It's not ghosts...”

“See, I told you it's how the laymen will deal.”

Don sighed.

“Anyway,” Don said. “We need to force this thing over to the other side before we sew the rift shut.”

“How are we going to do that?” Mike asked, excitedly.

“We need to widen the rift, it will probably take the entire floor with it, eventually. But it's the only way I can think of, as without barricades, we don't have time to just wait it out.”

“I brought my riot shield, and borrowed a tranq-rifle. Only found the one needle thought. Think it's a horse tranq. Will that do?”

“The beast up there is like a rhino combined with a demon on steroids. No. I don't think it will do.”

“Sidearm?”

“We don't want to kill it. And if its hide is too thick we might just scare it and piss it off even more.”

“Well what would you have me do then!”

“Bait.”

“Uh. Isn't that what Teller is for?”

“Hey!”

“You're both bait.”

Don went to the vehicle and grabbed the thermal camera. How Mike couldn't find it... Disciplinary issue, he concluded. He handed it over to Mike, and asked him to draw up the rift more precisely in his book. They could then map the detonation radius to widen the rift.

“Why me?” Mike complained.

“You're nimble enough to take the window route.”

Don went back into the vehicle and grabbed a handful of homemade explosives, a detonator, a rope, and a pair of ear pieces. He gave one ear piece to Paul and the rope to Mike, then pointed towards the windows.

“How is the rope supposed to help me?”

“Safety line.”

Mike fastened the rope around his hip, walked towards the windows, then turned around with a meek expression suggesting he really, really, didn't want to do this.

“Get on with it,” Don said. “I'm going to need that drawing as soon as the rooms are clear, there won't be any time standing around taking measures.”

Mike gave a half nod with rejection, as if his good and bad consciousness weighed the odds.

“Paul? Ok, do you remember the third floor design?”

“Sure, way too many private offices for an IT firm.”

“Good, assuming it's still trashing the room with an open window and a door turned into a jigsaw puzzle, I should be able to sneak by. You'll make noise, and then immediately make for the staircase, luring it out. But don't let it see you, we don't want it leaving the third floor.”

“Copy that.”

“You sure you can't call someone? Could've used another pair of hands with this.”

“Not risking my job for a ghost rhino.”

“It's not a gh... Never mind. Oh, and bring the riot shield and a taser. No gun, it'll probably be useless anyway.”

“Fine.”

Paul went for his car, grabbed his shield and taser, then put the earpiece on.

Don was slowly walking up the staircase towards the third floor and whispered into the earpiece he kept.

“Making my way up now, I'll take a look at the situation while you get yourself ready. Oh and Paul, your failure is my death. Don't mess it up.”

Paul wearily began making his way up the staircase now. He didn't quite like the prospects of the last words hollered at him. He had known Don for years, and Don often praised him as a great asset, mostly for not getting himself killed. There was a reason for that though, Paul usually went in last, if at all. Which also meant he had little experience with the real deal, despite participation. Kind of like a drone pilot in war times, hand them a real gun and they'll end up shooting themselves before piercing a bullet into the enemy.

The corridor was clear, the beast nowhere to be seen. It was quiet too, which could have any number of implications. Don tip toed through the corridor past the trashed room. It wasn't in there, but he could see Mike's face through the open window. His eyes flicking between the room, thermal scanner and his sketchbook in hand. Good, he was doing his job for once, Don though.

“Paul,” Don whispered. “It's eluding us. I'm going to take cover, on my signal, make a short ruckus.”

He moved to the second room, the door was closed. He carefully opened the door and stepped inside, no beast here either. Well inside, he hid himself behind the computer desk.

“Ok now.” Don whispered into the mic.

Moments later, Paul slammed his shield into the staircase handle. A powerful metallic chime echoed throughout the building.

Silence persisted.

“Again.” Don said.

The second chime roused. Glass and metal frames made a slight buzzing sound, yet there was no sign of the beast. Don got out of his hiding place and made his way to the corridor.

“Something's not adding up.” He said.

There was scraping from the trashed room, and Don sneaked his way there. Mike had crawled inside, rope still around his waist.

“What are you doing? Get back out, it's dangerous to be in here right now!”

“But the drawing is done,” Mike objected. “Wasn't the plan to draw it out of this room anyway? It's not here. I might as well be inside.”

“You just want to get an eye full of the creature, don't you?”

“Of course,” Mike said as he straightened his back. “Don't want to pass up a chance to witness a ghost that's unknown even to you!”

“It's not... I hate you. Gimme the drawing.”

Mike handed over the drawing. While inspecting it and scratching his chin, Don reluctantly pointed at the far end of the room.

“We should be able to manipulate the rift if we place an explosive at the floor over there, just at the edge of the rift. The fact that it goes through the wall here and into the other office is a bit troublesome. We're going to have to blow a hole in it if we want to widen the rift enough to force the creature back, but then it's going to be wider at the middle and we won't be able to capture a wide enough space to encompass the entire floor as most of the opening will be concentrated at the center.”

“Where is Paul?”

“Huh?”

Repeated chimes rang through the building and grew closer. Paul was running up the staircase.

“It noticed me!” Don heard through the earphone. “It's coming up from the second floor! I'm running to you guys, please, please, have a diversion ready!”

“Shit.” Don said. “Uhh...”

Mike snagged the explosives belt from Don, he threw one to the edge of the rift in their room. Placed one at the floor near the wall of where it went through. Then, before Don could stop him, he threw himself out the window and over to the next room. There was the sound of glass shattering, and a few thuds of explosives being distributed across the room.

Dumbfounded, Don made his way to the window, looking for something to hold onto. “Can't believe I'm going out this way again.”

“Explosives up! What do I do with the leftover?!” Mike yelled from the other room.

“Drop them at the wall! Should be enough to make a hole!”

Paul ran through the broken opening of the room, gasping for air.

“It's on this floor!” He yelled.

“Get your ass here! We're taking the fast lane down! Mike!”

“Yes!”

“Get back here, we need that rope!”

Right as Don finished the sentence, the beast broke through the broken door, flaring its nostrils and growling.

“Jesus, what a beaut.” Mike said as his head peered from the side of the window.

Don reached for the rope which Mike had conveniently bound around the nearby metal spikes left behind by the now ruined rain gutter. Paul reached his hand for Don, but it was too late. The beast was already in charge towards the window. Before he could get a grip on Don, he had defenestrated himself through the window. A piece of cloth ripped, and Paul was left half way out as the beast crushed against his behind.

Mike had already climbed down to the second floor. Don swung in the rope, letting it burn in his hand as he descended downwards. He looked up at the still, but barely alive Paul bled from the bottom half of his body, blood making its way down the window frame.

“Paul!” Don yelled.

His eyes flared awake, if only for a moment. The beast had backed off from his body, making itself ready for a second impact.

“You'll be fine Paul! Just reach for the rope on my next pass! Reach for the rope! Pull yourself out!”

Paul shook his head, trying to stay awake and ignore the agony of pain. He reached a weak hand for the rope as Don came on a pass near his body.

“Now, Paul!”

Another jolt of wakefulness brushed him by, and he managed to snag one of his hands to the rope. It pulled away from him as Don swung back, yet miraculously he had enough strength in his hand to let his body yank out of the window. He did not have enough strength to hold on, however. He plummeted in a near straight line. Mike had made his way to the first floor window, still two meters from the ground. He stretched out a hand and braced himself, gripping as hard as he could with his other hand on the windowsill. As Paul reached him, Mike managed to grab hold of his inside-out-vest, giving him some elasticity from the otherwise dangerous impact.

“I got you bud.” Mike said to Paul, knowing he wouldn't hear him. He was out cold.

“Get down fast and lay Paul to the ground!” Don yelled as he reached into his pocket. He procured the detonator and then let himself slide down the rope further. Bleeding from his hand by the rope burn. “Let's hope it's enough!”

Six pops sounded followed by an explosion. The windows on all floors shattered out from the shockwave, and a riot shield came sailing down to the ground.

Don let himself go, there was still three meters left to the ground, but the shockwave had been too much to continue holding onto the painful rope. He landed next to Paul and Mike, bending his legs as he fell and rolling.

“Think we hurt it?” Mike asked, looking up at the smoke and fire seeping out from the third floor.

“Hope not.” Don whispered. He knew the center of the room would break open into the realm of the beast. Just because one widened a rift more didn't mean nothing else will come through. He held his breath.

Nothing happened. They remained motionless for a good five minutes. Still nothing.

“Keep looking for signs,” Don said. “Don't let your eyes waver.”

“Not for the end of the world.” Mike said.

Don walked over to the riot shield, picked it up, and then carried it over to Mike and Paul. He rolled Paul onto the shield, then pulled him along to the car. He opened the car trunk and brought out an adrenaline syringe. It wasn't much, probably wouldn't do anything good, but it was all he had. He jammed it into Paul and hit the injection.

Paul immediately woke up, delirious.

“Paul! You with me?”

“Eh, ...huh?” His eyelids fought to move, they had no sync.

“Can you move your legs?”

“Haa?” He mumbled, and his face morphed into anguish.

“Shit,” Don said. “I'm going to move you into the back of the car and drive you to the hospital.”

Mike had started to back towards their car yet he kept focused on the third floor. Something should have happened by now, shouldn't it? He wondered.

“Hey Don.” He said.

“We need to get moving. I don't know how much blood Paul has lost, but it ain't good.”

“What about the ghost rhino? What about the rift?”

Don cursed under his breath. He couldn't leave in case something worse happened. Nor could he leave Mike here. He wouldn't be able to handle any of the potential catastrophes that could follow an attempt such as this. Nor would he be able to get Mike to drive away from this, even if Paul's life dependent on it. His obsession was on the silver lining of realization.

They waited. They stared towards the third floor. Paul had even regained enough consciousness to peak a look with an eye half open.

Then it came.

Mike brought up his smartphone and pointed it towards the building. A red light burst from the mid-section of the building as the whole floor was swallowed by the widened rift. Any matter will seep both ways through a rift. Usually there's just air there, but sometimes, there are denser matters. Such as the beast, such as the building. A large rift will have greater potential than one of the natural or smaller ones. A rift large enough to encompass the entire floor of a building would accordingly swallow said building if there was nothing on the other end to block it.

The floor disappeared along with parts of the floor above and below. The building crumbled onto itself for a time, and then there was stillness.

“Good riddance.” Don said.

“That was friggen awesome!” Mike proclaimed.

They carried Paul on his shield into the backseats of their car, took their seats, started the engine, and then drove off to the hospital.

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Authors Note: Written in 2015. This is actually one of my personal favourites. A psychedelic apocalypse.

He heard the sound wall break, and as he peered towards the sky, it fell. From every direction, streaks of fire burned through the atmosphere. Paralyzed from shock, he no longer knew where he was, nor how to walk. All he could do was peer towards burning skies above.

Humanity was isolated, not only from continents, but from the sky as well. It was however no surprise that humanity's tenacity to grow strong in times of peril sung true. If there was tenacity, there was capacity. Life moved on.

The world turned from its reliance on technology to a reliance on humility over night.

Part of the ruined city was still habitable and bristling with life. Most however tried not to think of the reason why. With so many now dead, there was no shortage of supplies.

The broken down buildings of the less scarred part of the city had makeshift walls and roof of cloth and plastic sheets. Even now, six months after the event, repairs were underway, and people were considerably happy despite what they had lost. There was a unified eagerness to rebuild among all faces of the people.

On all faces, but Nathan's.

Sure, he still had a job, he was still alive, and he still had his relationship to his long term girlfriend. The downside, which made him sour, was the fact that he, who had never sought a career in anything but photography, now had to sit around in his office, which had for the last three years been almost empty, now, he practically lived there as he identified and distributed photos of architectural value.

Six months, he thought. Six months …If I have to do this for one more week, I’ll succumb to the madness.

The evening light hit his office window, it was time to leave.

He had seen the madness in passing. People who had lost their mind in connection to the event. Those who caught it would preach doom to anyone who would pass their spot on the street. They had a certain fear in their voice and eyes, a fear that seemed almost contagious. Not that it was contagious, it would still take people, but the rate of affliction had dwindled considerably over time.

He left the office, and walked along the street. The sun was setting over the ruined building towards his apartment, which had miraculously remained whole in the aftermath, same couldn’t be said about his neighbors. With the late hours, he was almost thankful, almost. As it was merely a five minutes walk from the office, and a pleasant soft bed waited for him at home. The perfect remedy for exhaustion.

As he neared his apartment, he saw something at the corner of his eye. A sort of flux of colors in all their shades furiously vibrating. He turned to view the oddity, an entire structure across the street was cast in the strange phenomenon. A thought formed in his head, was it an optical illusion of some kind, perhaps gas was leaking nearby and the dwindling sunlight hit it precisely right to create such wonder? A man was walking past the building. Nathan called to the man, and pointed. The man turned his head, then continued to walk like it was nothing. Perhaps he couldn’t see it while he was so close?

Another street down, and he saw the same strange flux, this time only shrouding half a building, a half, that he vividly remembered being sheared off from one of the meteors six months ago.

What in the sky’s wrath is going on?

For six months, he had avoided to intentionally look towards the sky. After the event, the clouds had shifted to brown and black, with streaks of fire still burning like an endless thunder. Despite the strange sky, the sun had still beamed through like it was clear as day. Many said it wasn’t clouds, that no cloud could have formed after the event, instead, the atmosphere had been altered on the higher layers, and rayleigh scattering had turned to its current shape. What they said might be true, there hadn’t been a rainfall since.

He reminded himself with those words, and looked towards the sky.

The sky was in flux. He couldn’t determine color from the distance. It was more like the static from an old TV. He almost considered it beautiful, and then fright struck him like a hammer on his chest.

No...

Why me?

The realization sunk, he had been stricken by the madness.

The static flux reach with its tender tendrils to touch upon the Earth.

Nathan hadn’t left his apartment for days. He couldn’t conclude any reason why he should. After all, he was now insane.

Then his stomach voiced its opinion.

Fine.

As he left his apartment, he witnessed for the second time the tornado-like appendages of the sky. As he watched it touch, it created the colorful flux in its wake, then he heard a crash from behind.

He turned, and a homeless man he had never paid heed to before, stepped out. He was ragged, and looking towards the afflicted area.

“You see it?”

“Sky’s damnation, it will consume us all.”

Was that confirmation? Somewhere deep inside, he was still conflicted. He didn’t want to accept his own madness, he had locked himself away, hoping that it was merely exhaustion, dehydration, mania, hallucination, or a combination of all.

“The universe is dying,” The homeless man said. “No one remembers. No one can see.”

“See what?”

“The sky still falls,” The homeless man shrugged. “It never stop.”

“Oh.”

“The vortex robs the world of its wonders. Everyone forgets. Once, then existence is lost.”

“I need to go.”

Nathan turned away from the man and shook his head, then moved on. He had to get to his office, get a piece of food or chip, and then deal with whatever was happening to his brain. A full stomach would definitely clear his mind.

Had there always been so many of them? He thought.

On each street corner, away from the fluxed buildings, there were people in the shades, crawling in cardboard and rags.

Can they all see it? The world ripping apart?

He didn’t want to confront it yet, so he hurried on his way to the office.

It was still early, no one had arrived yet, not even his boss George, who was often strolling the long corridors all day, every day. Whispers said George lived in his office room, and Nathan had believed it to be true, in these times, it would had made sense if he had lost his home and moved in. After all, he refused Nathan on every occasion when he tried to enter his office.

Nathan entered the cafeteria and checked the refrigerator. The building had been leased a generator in sake of the architectural building plan. It was deemed a necessity to rebuild the city. The refrigerator was empty, save for a can of tuna. Nathan helped himself to the can.

Once, then existence is lost?

A scary thought entered his mind. What did the man mean? Did he mean that anything touched by the static is removed from existence, from mind? He shook it off, that couldn’t be true. Then wondered how his girlfriend was doing.

…I haven’t spoken to her in days.

He tried to remember why. Then he tried to remember her face. Her hair color. Her name.

It’s all gone…. Every piece of memory of her was gone. The only thing he seemed to be able to remember was that he had a girlfriend. Or did he? Why did he think he had a girlfriend? Somewhere, he found a thread of four years of his life being dedicated to something, someone? But what? It couldn’t had been anything but a girlfriend? Could it?

Half the can of tuna was still on the table, as he raised himself and ran out of the building. He met George on the way, but he was running too fast to catch his words. The five minute walk home took two minutes by sprint, he dashed up the stairs to the third floor, and into his apartment. There was no one there. No photos. A single bed. Clothes and dirt everywhere. A typical bachelor's home.

Confirmation.

He thought, finally relaxing. He walked to his kitchen table and took a seat, looking out the window yet seeing nothing. Then his muscles tensed.

That, or whatever that man said is true. She has been ripped from reality. Caught by the vortex. Deleted from existence.

The street brimmed with people passing this way and that. They paid no heed to Nathan, nor anyone else of the madloitering in the street corners and alleyways. There was a food stand nearby. Hotdogs. Nathan knew the distribution cycles, being part of the city rebuild project. The world was slowly crumbling around him, but he wouldn’t just give up on life. Not until the very end. However, rebuilding was fruitless, the flux slowly grew around him, so what would be the point of trying to build when destruction was certain? Whatever nameless sky god loomed the world, it was one of reckoning. Yet he figured he could survive on hotdogs long enough to witness the end. After all, it was free for the mad.

He watched the passing faces. They seemed like they had no concerns, no worries, only hope. If only he could feel that way, but as he thought about it, he realized he never had. Not after the event.

Then he recognized it. Her face. He knewthat face. Was it his girlfriend? It had to be. It had to be her.

She was on the other side of the street. He tried to get out of his cardboard shelter, no matter how unseemly it was. He stumbled out but she moved too quickly for him to catch up. He called out for her. He called her name.

“Rachel!”

Was that her name? It had to be her name. Somehow, he affixed that name with that face. It felt so… Right?

He could feel tears boiling from his eyes, he wasn’t sure why it was so. He felt something inside him seeping out, a feeling he didn’t recognize, a feeling he knew, but no longer recognized? That was the woman he loved, that was the woman who had disappeared. She, who had been deleted by the sky.

“Rachel, wait!”

She ignored him, and continued to walk rapidly down the street. As Nathan made his way across, he saw her turn a corner. He scrambled his way there, and she was gone.

That was her right? That wasn’t an illusion. It couldn’t had been—right? But why didn’t she respond? Why didn’t she turn by name? If that was her name, she should have recognized her own name? Has her memory faded, like mine?

He closed his eyes where he stood, and then the world with all its sounds and smells and sensations vanished.

He stared up a white ceiling. He wasn’t sure for how long, hours? Seconds? Time seemed a fleeting concept. His head rested on a soft pillow, and his back on a soft surface. He felt with his hand and recognized a bed.

“Sky’s wrath,” He whispered. “Where am I?”

He sat up in the bed and looked around. It was a room familiar to him. He wasn’t sure exactly why it was familiar, but it was. Another lapse in memory?

Nathan left the bed and walked towards the door, but as he was about to open the portal, he staggered backwards. The flux. It seeped out from beneath and above the door with its endless fury. He looked around the room once more. There was a bookshelf, a bed, but no window.

Oh. This is my old room in my parents home. I haven’t been in here in years.

He instinctively looked up to the ceiling, next to the lamp was a trap door. A chill went down his spine when he realized the illumination of the room came from the flux and not from the lamp. Electricity wasn’t readily available in the city, and would definitely not be available out here. Their house was after all five miles from the city, surrounded by wheat fields and sparsely distributed farms.

He swung the trap door and climbed up, entering the loft. The breaking of the universe was apparently at the room behind the door downstairs and hadn’t reached up here. It was dark, save for the light streaming in from a small circular loft window. He found it rather peaceful and not at all as stressful as his imagination for the room behind the door.

He crawls his way to the window and squeezes through, ending up at the porch of the house. The garden at the front of the house, as well as the old kennel, and house fence stood clear of any flux. He turned to face the house, yet no visible flux there either. For the first time, he realized the flux could access areas not directly accessible from the sky.

The realization darkened his mind.

He took a seat on the porch steps, and heard footsteps from behind the fence bush. A man appeared, and stopped at the mailbox. It was his lawyer.

“Hello?”

“I am to deliver you this.”

Lloyd reached out a sheet of paper. Nathan left his seat and collected the sheet. As read the letter, it said his services was no longer required at behalf of the city.

“This,” Nathan indicated the paper. “Because I’m considered afflicted by madness?”

The lawyer remained quiet.

“Might as well,” Nathan said, shrugging. “I didn’t feel up to it anyway.”

With that, Lloyd turned to walk back toward his car.

Nathan scratched his head. This made little sense to him. How did his lawyer know to find him at his parents house? No matter. He crumpled the paper and threw it next to the mailbox. As he turned back to face the house, the house was gone. The entire area had been filled by the flux. It extended all the way from the house and out to the parameter of the mailbox. He wasn’t even a yard away from touching it. With a shriek, he jumped out to the road. Staring at the flux without thought.

Once his faculties collected themselves, he was left with a reminding question.

How did I end up here?

The harder he thought, the more his memories seemed to escape him. He knew this was his parents house. But he couldn’t remember them. He had parents, right? How else would he even exist? He knew his house was once right here, he grew up in it, but he couldn’t picture it, he couldn’t reach the memories, they were tucked away into some kind of void, and all attempts to reach them responded with an eerie feeling of retreat. No application of logic could fill the concept, no matter how hard he tried.

I am insane, after all.

Strangely, he realized he could remember everything from when he woke up to now, how it all happened. It wasn’t like with his memory of his girlfriend, that one was just gone, still is, somehow, kinda. He looked back to the mailbox again, and then it dawned on him. He finally had an opportunity to properly test the theory of the homeless man.

The lawyer was just about to step inside his car when Nathan caught up with him. “How did you know where to find me?”

The lawyer looked thoughtful, but then casually shrugged it off. He said Nathan must have told him where he was. How else would he had known where to find him?

“You see the mailbox, yeah?” Nathan said, pointing at it. Lloyd nodded. “What of the land behind the mailbox, what do you see there?”

Loyd raised himself to see above the car roof, then turned to Nathan. “Why, it’s just land?”

“Alright,” Nathan said. “But if it’s just land, why would there be a fence and a mailbox there?”

“Perhaps whoever owns the land never got around setting up a house?”

“Surely it’s an odd thing to put the mailbox first and the house later?”

Lloyd shrugged. “If you’ll excuse me.” He entered the car, started the engine, then drove off. Seemingly in a hurry.

I think I get it now. People, the people who don’t see, the people who don’t understand. They fill the void with conclusions. They ignore what isn’t there, their mind wraps it up into a fine little explanation. Whatever gets erased gets erased permanently, along with all interactions to whatever it was. These people, they are outside reality, their realm of consciousness is adapted to the way the universe used to be, not how the universe is now.

Nathan has reached a conundrum. While his girlfriend was still a piece of memory, in a way. He did eventually see her. Perhaps her memory was as scrubbed as his, and she refused to recognize him, or perhaps her memory had merely filled the void. Only someone struck with madness could see further, have a better understanding? But if that was the case, maybe his parents still existed? They had just forgotten. Unless... Unless they were eaten by whatever it is that is breaking reality apart. He didn’t want to think along those lines. Not yet, anyway.

He cursed quietly to himself, his stomach was complaining again. He looked towards the sun as it beamed through the static. It was early morning, apparently. He reached for his wallet, which he carried in his chest pocket. Five dollars. Seems enough.

Strolling down the street, he came across the petroleum station which he used to hang around as a teenager. Granted, there were only three children around his age at the time, but they had made it a point to always meet and chit chat outside the station.

Some young guy was working the registry, Nathan placed his coin down firmly and had the guy warm him a hotpocket and a cup of coffee. In the middle of devouring his snack, getting sauce all over his shirt, he realized something he forgot to concern himself with,

How in the sky’s wrath did I end up all the way out here anyway?!.

Nathan was jogging. Slightly amazed at his own physiques after all that time sitting around the office and then loitering the streets in a cardboard castle. It would take him all day to get back walking, especially since the populated part of the city was on the opposite of the farmland. He considered for a moment, perhaps he should abandoned the corner, go back to his apartment. He had seen his girlfriend, maybe her memory was foggy but maybe, just maybe, she would remember him? Where she used to live? He had to get back there, to wait for her for a few days, and if she doesn’t come, go back to the street corner and pray she walks by once more.

The thought made his jog turn into long strides. He wanted to get home faster. What if she was already there? If only he could take even longer strides, be home within the hour.

Minutes pass, deep in thought, but as his mind returns to confront the environment he loses control of his balance. His stride had increased alright, he was in the middle of a leap reaching more than seven yards per step. He stumbles to the ground, yet the ground hit soft.

Why was it soft? He was on the road, asphalt and dirt all around him. He felt with his hand. Grass. How come it’s grass?

He looks around. He had landed in a circular patch of grass in the middle of the road, was it always there? His eyes then meet with the very same homeless man who spoke of damnation.

“You see the truth now?”

Nathan slowly nods.

What truth?

Did the man mean the grass? Or something else entirely?

What in the sky’s wrath is up with the grass anyway? Where did it come from!?

“Old man,” Nathan said, speaking with uncertainty in his voice. “Did you make the grass appear?”

“We are all remnants of the old God, left behind,” He said, looking up towards the sky. “Then invaded by his brethren.”

Nathan followed his view to the sky, the ever tumbling, ever folding. Its many tendrils touching the Earth. The omnipresent old TV static. It was as if the very fabric of reality, of existence, had found a way to cease the natural laws.

As he lowered his eyes back down to the man, he was gone.

'Remnants of the old god' he had said. Ugh—try to make sense!

Nathan pushed himself up from the grass, then tried to take on the leaps again, but it didn’t work. How had he done it before? He closed his eyes, imagining himself what he did before, then, eyes still closed, he took up the strides.

If he could get it to work, regain control of that strange power. He would be able to get back home in no time, hopefully before his girlfriend came by, if she ever would. Then he opened his eyes and gasped in shock.

He was falling, his balance lost. He wasn’t on the road anymore, but he distinctly recognized the locale. As he hit the floor, he tumbled into a door. His door. On the third floor.

Before he got up, he started to contemplate once more. Had anything he just experienced been real? Or was he truly so insane that he could not even recognize he had been home all along. Perhaps the sky was clear outside, and everything dandy? Had it all been a nightmare? He looked around frantically, in case there was someone nearby, someone who could tell him his state of mind more implicitly. There was no one. He raises himself back up on his feet, and fingers his other chest pocket. As his fingers touched, they felt sticky. He looked down on his shirt, sauce, all over the place. It had all been real? With a sigh he fished his keys out, and fumbled on the door.

But I had a hot-pocket in my fridge right? I did? Right? Maybe I ate it, imagined all this crap, and crashed my way out the apartment?

As he entered the room, it was as he remembered it from before, clothes all over the place, a single bed, no sources of light save for the windows, and no electricity. He lazily walked with disappointment towards the fridge, knowing full well what to expect, telling himself that hope would be stupid, but even then, still holding a glimpse of hope at heart.

He opened the fridge, empty. Warm. Stupid.

He took a seat at the kitchen table, wallowing over the day and his strange experience. He had been lost in thought and somehow learned to almost fly? He had closed his eyes and somehow teleported back home?

He closed his eyes, imagining the face of his girlfriend, or at least that of the woman he saw before. Perhaps, if he genuinely believed in it, she would appear? As he opened his eyes he was met by another disappointment. She was no where to be seen.

Wait.

There was a photo on the kitchen windowsill. A photo of him, and a woman. His girlfriend? He was sure of it. Confirmation. She was real, his strange power was real, it was all real. Everything thus far, was the truth. He wasn’t insane, he was one of the few who had clarity, who could see reality fall apart around him. It wasn’t just in his mind, it was truly, genuinely, real. A flutter of joy filled his heart.

He closed his eyes once more, trying to grab at memories of how it once had been, before she had disappeared. As he opened his eyes again, the apartment was filled with photos of them together. The single bed turned into a double bed.

Everything was falling into place. With reality breaking apart, he was no longer part of it, he was beyond it!

He imagined himself inside his office room, a few moments later, there he was. They hadn’t waited around, his stuff was gone, it was emptied out, even the desk. He left his office room and strolled out into the corridor, where he was met by George.

His boss stared at him, eyes wild.

“Who are you?!”

“Ehm, you fired me earlier today.”

“I did no such thing, someone,” He eyed Nathan's attire. “Of your …wardrobe—would never be allowed to work in an establishment such as this.”

“Uh, George, I’ve been an employee for five years and one of your best photographers.”

He regards me like I’ve been lost in the flux. Did that happen? When? How am I still here? Was that what happened to Rachel—why I forgot about her? Am I another fleeting memory of a person that once existed, swallowed by the crumbling reality? Is that the foundation of my madness, my power?

“It would seem I have a memory of someone being my best, but, it was never a competition?”

“Regardless,” Nathan said. “I didn’t come to argue, it was merely an experiment.”

George had since stopped paying attention, hollering for security. Nathan made his way to the spiral staircase which lead to the entrance floor. Before he went down the stairs, he saw George pointing an angry finger in his direction, screaming for the security guard who came up from behind his boss.

As Nathan ran down the stairs, he pauses, he was so caught up in his escape to remember how he got there. He imagined himself somewhere else. Somewhere, where his girlfriend would be. After all, her face was now burned into his mind.

Salty air?

He swirled around, the sand was pristine, the ocean light blue, the sky azure. There were no palms or life as far as he could see, except for a woman laying in a sun chair, black bikini, long blond hair, and sunglasses.

He walked up to her, pulled a towel from the back of the chair, flattened it next to her and took seat.

“Rachel?”

She moved her sun-glasses down and looked at him with judging eyes, then resumed her sunbathing. He turned to the sun, letting the sensation of warmth tend to his skin.

“Hello …Nathan?” She suggested, seeming somewhat unsure in her tone.

“Did you watch the world end?”

“I did.”

Time passes without a word. He felt so comfortable, so serene. She spoke again.

“How did you see it?”

“I’m sorry it took me so long.” Nathan said, pausing. “I realized you weren’t there, that’s how it happened. For the longest time I couldn’t understand why or who you were, just that ...you were missing. Like a pain of loss in my heart. Then the world changed.”

“That’s how it works,” She said, letting out a pleasant sigh. “My brother, I knew I had one, but he wasn’t there anymore. I couldn’t understand how I had a memory of someone that supposedly was never even born. No name, no face, no nothing, just a small, tender, memory of a person I knew I loved, yet never existed. There was no refugee in any form of logic.”

“So it’s love that invokes the awakening?”

“I suppose it is, or the illogical perception of love. I tried to talk with you before, Nathan, it’s Nathan right? My memory of you seem to have faded. I wonder when?— Anyhow, you wouldn’t listen to me. It was like talking to a person outside of the appropriate response pattern. Like talking to a machine. No matter the proposition, if it didn’t fall within your interaction of the reality that once was, you would be dismissive and unresponsive. Everyone was like that, it wasn’t just you.”

“I had that before, with my lawyer, and then with my boss.” Nathan paused, briefly. “Is that why you left? Abandoned me? Ignoring my calls as you went by? So that I would be able to see, to awaken?”

“Don’t complain,” She said playfully. “It worked, didn’t it?”

“How did you know I would find you here? Actually, where is here?”

“I didn’t, I think? For some reason I can’t remember you you, just our interactions and my plans from before.” She paused. “You know, here is a matter of point. You came here the same way this place was created.”

“That's …impressive.”

“You have no idea.This is my dream world, my imagination. A place I could seek refuge. I went back once, looking for my brother, but as soon as I found my way back there, I heard someone call after me. I wasn’t sure who it were, I had a feeling, but no certainty, all I knew was a stab of emotional pain.”

“It was recently after I saw the crumbling reality, you were there, in the middle of the street, so I called out, somehow remembering your name. I guess I still had a long way to go.”

The sun was as soothing as the real one, or perhaps a world created by her was equally real. After all, who knew what was genuinely real nowadays anyway?

“What of your brother then?”

“I fear he has been swallowed by a rift.”

“It's more like a flux.”

“My sanctuary, my rules.”

Nathan chuckled however inappropriate it might had been. The memories of her were returning to him, pulsing, like a heartbeat. He was sure she felt the same way.

“You are every bit as complicated as I remember.”

“You, every bit as annoying.” She moved her sunglasses down and turned to Nathan again, there was a smile on her lips, then it morphed to a frown. “Despite our power to create, to bend the laws of physics, we can’t create nor move anything living, just inanimate matter.”

“That’s a shame.”

He decided to tell her of his experience, of his awakening, and of his strange uncontrollable obsession with her. She laughed heartedly.

“I’m not sure if this place will remain once the universe come crashing in on itself,” She said. “I am hopeful though, after all, I designed this place by my own standard of perfection, save for, well, all the life that’s missing in it, like palms and flowers and birds and all that. That, and my brother.”

“Well, like I said, I found you by my imagination to be where you were. Perhaps you could reach your brother the same way?”

Rachel was quiet for a while. She tried to reach her brother, to imagine herself with him. If he was gone, then her whole family was gone. He had raised her, after their parents had died in an alpine accident when she was a child.

“It’s... It doesn’t work.” There was sorrow in her voice. “He might really be lost on us, forever.”

Nathan pondered a moment. He had tried to summon Rachel before, without success. She also said she couldn’t bring any form of life here. However, regardless of the failures, he had managed to grab his memory, to conjure the photos into his apartment, photos he didn’t know existed until they were there, hidden, somewhere, deep inside his memory. Perhaps he had realized she was gone the moment she left, as if she stepped into the flux. Perhaps this was some kind of flux, a space within? Not that he wanted to try and enter the flux intentionally, that would be too much of a risk, but what if this place was like that? A person had to leave the old reality, and anyone connected to them on a deep emotional level would question the logic, awaken into a different, frightening, reality.

He sunk together, sadness fell over him. Perhaps those who enter the flux are gone forever? My parents, maybe they are gone too? It was a plausible possibility. But even then, could exist in an incomplete flux realm of some kind? What about life here? Together with Rachel? Would we grow old together? Were we immortal in this space, where laws of physics no longer applied? Laws of physics… There are no laws, reality is breaking apart! We might not know the full extent of our new found power to alter reality around us, but there has to be a way, after all, the memories are there, faded, but there! He imagined Rachel’s sun chair moved to his left instead of his right.

Rachel let out a quiet yelp. She had moved to his left, chair and all.

“What did you do!”

“If someone walked into one of those rifts of broken reality, are they truly lost forever? How then, could we remember an essence of their existence? They have to existing some form! So I thought, if I move what you lay on, instead of moving you as a whole, then perhaps I can move you? I mean, that’s technically how I moved myself around, teleporting, isn’t it? Either way, it worked!”

She immediately closed her eyes, moments later, a boat splashed in the shallow water a distance from the beach, it carried a man.

“It would seem we’re some kind of demigods, my goddess.” Nathan said with a smile.

“Life is complex, especially the chemical structure of our emotions. Perhaps that's what held us back?” Rachel said, then she stood from the chair and hollered to the boat. “Hey, do you recognize me!”

“Rachel? What’s going on?” Her brother said.

“It’s really working!” Rachel expressed with glee. “It really, really, worked!”

“Whats with the boat though?” Nathan asked.

“Why not?”

“Well, couldn’t you just have set him down on the beach?”

“I imagined him floating around in some kind of aether, a strange dimension of space outside of our old universe. Of course he had to have a boat, so I imagined him on a boat, and then I brought the boat here.”

“Makes sense.” Nathan said, then excitedly did the same as her. He reached into his heart, he couldn’t quite pin his emotions on a single individual, he didn’t have enough memory for that, so he just told himself that he had to put everyone within his heart on a boat indiscriminately, then summoned the boat. Moments later, a boat appeared, with two older people, his parents presumably, and Rachel.

“What in sky’s wrath was that for!” Rachel yelled to the shore.

Nathan smiled contentedly. He could feel the pulses of memory seeping into his mind increase with a much wider pressure, they were warm, and soothing.

There was a bark.

He looked more carefully towards the boat, and saw a dogs head poking out. It old scruffy, my parents dog!

Suddenly, he was falling through the air, with a piece of towel thrashing beneath him, then a rush of water consumed him as he hit the surface. He breached for air, looking around. He was a few paces from the boat with Rachel and his parents, and she smiled devilishly towards him.

This new way of life might be fun.

He swam to the shallow and helped the boat to the beach.

“Now that we know we can bring life here,” Nathan said, smiling. “As goddess of our realm, it is high order that you furnish.”

And so she did.

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Authors Note: I originally wrote this short back in 2015. It was the first story I felt was good enough to be shared. Formatting and style leaves some to be desired, but imo it's still one of my best!

'To whoever discover my recordings, whatever you do, stay away from the table-like instrument near the airlock.'

'When you find the bodies, please understand, it was out of my control,

...But the missing flesh,

...That,

...Was out of necessity.'

'I'm not too sure about anything anymore...

...I think,

...Perhaps,

...I'm going insane.'

'I don't know if I'm me...

...Or if I'm somebody else,

...My name is,

...My name might be,

...Carl Eaton.'

'I'm...

...Running out of time,

...Damn it,

...I just figured this thing out.'

'I'm back,

...Let's start from the beginning.'

I saw her press a button on the tape recorder, turning it off. With rings under her eyes, and hair on end, her exhaustion was painfully obvious. She might be in her mid-thirties, I couldn't be sure, as her face was fair, but her dark brown hair hid strands of gray. Her hands were dirty and worn, but her uniform clean. She must have changed it recently without consideration to hygiene. A pair of spectacles dangled from her chest pocket.

With all the crazy I've been through, keeping calm was no trouble. The room was small, with an ominous one-way window, brick walls, polished wooden floor, two uncomfortable chairs, and my right hand chained to a small wooden table.

In her mind, and with her stern glare, I felt as if she regarded me with little value. It probably didn't help that I wore a white complimentary jumpsuit handed to me earlier in the day. I also had raggedy hair, a shy stub, and didn't look a day beyond eighteen despite my true age.

“I have to admit, Carl Eaton,” She said, leaning back in her chair, eyes cold. “When I first read the transcript, I thought it was one of those silly viral stories.” She moved in over the table, placing her elbows down, and knuckling her hands. “But then I was called to the city morgue.” She shook her head with a sigh. “It's deplorable.”

“You have my log entry, right there.” I pointed at the tape recorder, it laid to her right. “You've read the transcript, probably heard the full log too. Considering the circumstances, I fail to see how anyone could have done differently, were they in my position.”

“Is that your admission of guilt?”

“It's merely a statement. You are familiar with the Andes flight disaster, right? They got pardoned for their alleged crimes. While my situation is slightly more exotic, I should garner the same.”

“Wretched.” She said with disgust. “I'm trying to find myself in your mind, but your justification is incomprehensible. It's not human.“

“It's logic.”

“Do you even know who they were?”

“The bodies?”

“Yes.”

“I suppose I do, in a way.”

“So far, over two-thousand bodies have been uncovered. Just the sheer number makes my stomach churn.” She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, calming herself. “We're still waiting for the DNA tests. It's going to be a while before we can identify them all, which brings me back to you. How did you pull it off? I mean, there's no records of you. You're what, sixteen, maybe seventeen? It's an awful lot of work for someone so young, and to be undetected for so long, I will assume you had help. At least with identity scrub. A hacker, perhaps?”

“Sure I had help, in a way. But not in the way you imagine.”

She looked towards the one-way window, and raised a finger. Then she looked over to me, and raised one more.

“Huh?”

“Let's say your story on the tape is true, then I imagine you would be thirsty.”

“I've grown accustomed to the thirst.”

About thirty seconds later the door opened and an old stern-looking man with a blue shirt and black tie entered, carrying two cups of coffee. He gave me a cold stare, so cold, I could feel it pierce. He placed the cups on each end of the table, and I thanked him with a smile.

The aroma was wonderful; it had been so long since last I was graced with the smell of freshly brewed beans. I took a sip.

As the old man left the room, I could hear him mutter 'animal' under his breath.

“You're smiling, is this amusing to you?”

“Lady, I don't even know your name. Ever since I got back, all I've been told was 'put this on' and 'we will escort you to an interrogation room', and here I am.”

“Right, well, I'm your criminal investigator, Abby Reid.”

“Pleasure to meet, miss Reid. Who was the old man just now?”

“Robert Clarke, commissary.”

I turned to the one-way window.

“Hello Mr. Clarke, pleasure to meet.”

“What are you doing?”

“It's been a very long time since I met someone but myself.”

She didn't respond for a while, just stared at me with a puzzled expression. I couldn't quite discern what was going through her head.

“Let's listen to the recordings, step by step.”

'It was mid-November, not quite sure the exact date, but it was a weekend, that I know for certain, as I was doing my grocery run. Wait.'

'Right, yes. I'm certain, since I purchased a lottery ticket. You see, it's my Saturday tradition,

...Wish I never bought that damn ticket,

...Anyway, so, as I left the store, I scratched it, and lo and behold, I had won a million bucks. With joy, I increased my pace, I wanted to get home fast, drop off my groceries, and head for the bank. I didn't account for the fact that it was winter, and the ground slippery. I slipped, must have hit my head, for when I woke up, I was somewhere else,

...I was here.'

Abby turned off the recording.

“Where is here?”

“The spaceship.”

“Spaceship?”

“Spaceship.”

She shook her head with a sigh again.

“How does one go from slipping on ice to waking up on a spaceship? Do you realize how stupid that claim is?”

“Look, if you want proof of my story, take me to the ship, and put a bullet in my brain.”

“What? Are you attempting a plea of insanity?”

“No, I'm just... You want proof, and I can give it to you. But the only way I'm going to be able to do that is if you bring me to the ship and shoot me. Not that I would die, I'm sort-of immortal, in a way.”

“Ludicrous,” She said, looked almost amused, in a mocking way. “And the wreck is under quarantine. They're still moving your victims, which means it's off limits, especially to you.”

“Fine.”

I crossed my arms, I could feel defiance rise in me. It was an emotion I always struggled to control. She reached for the recorder once more.

'I...

...I didn't know what to do, I didn't understand where I was. I could feel a cold pressure against my naked back. I figured it was a metal surface, perhaps an operation table of some kind. The room was almost pitch black, save for small green buds of light gleaming from the walls and floor.

...I had no means to keep time, but it must have taken me hours. I let my hands grace the wall, as I moved across a large space. At first, I thought the room might be circular, as I couldn't seem to find any corners, but eventually, I reached a glass-like surface with my hand which immediately beamed up with a bright green light by my touch. It had some strange symbols on it, I poked the screen in a few place, and the symbols changed. Soon, the room was lit.'

The recording was paused again.

“Alien spaceship?” Abby palmed her forehead and rested her elbow on the table with a sigh. “So let me get your story straight. Somehow, you got your hands on an alien spaceship, and decided to abduct people, killing them. Why? For fun? Some twisted belief?”

“It had to be alien, no way humanity constructed the technology available on that ship, not in a million years.” I sipped a bit of my coffee, it was still hot. “But the rest of your accusation is wrong, I didn't abduct anyone, what possible benefit could that serve?”

“Don't dodge the question with a question.”

I rolled my eyes.

“I shouldn't have to try and convince you of facts I could prove if you'd just let me.”

She scowled at me, then fiddled with the recorder once more.

'I couldn't believe the size of it. It was as large as five soccer fields put together. Greeble crossed every nook and cranny. There was a metal table at the far end, and the distance made sense. In front of me, the screen was connected to a larger array of input consoles. I started to fiddle with each of them, it didn't do me much good, nothing practical happened.

...I spent days trying to figure it all out, crossing the room multiple times, trying to find a way out, trying to find answers. But I couldn't keep it up, some three days, fatigue caught up with me, the dehydration was unbearable. I lost consciousness.'

“Right,” She said as she stopped the recording. “I'm going to stop here. The next part is just dumb and beyond unbelievable.”

I smiled. To her, it was just listening to nonsense she had read in the transcript, to me, it was reality. I had lived it, through and through, it was as real as this room. This conversation.

“I'm willing to bet my life on it.”

“Of course you are. You wanted me to shoot you earlier.”

“You know; you might be right. I might be insane, and this is all a figment of my imagination. If this is the state of my condition, then I would rather be dead.”

Just as I finished the sentence Robert busted through the door with a piece of paper. He handed it to Abby.

“The DNA tests are in.” His voice was raspy, a smokers' voice.

I gave him a smile in amusement. “Hello again, Mr. Clarke. I hope you've read it.”

He responded with frown in turn then quickly slipped back through the door. Abby put her spectacles on, and stared down the paper. Her magnified eyes rapidly bouncing back and forth.

“Bullshit.”

“It's really not.”

“You said you had help; you must have someone on the inside. There's no way this here is authentic.”

I turned to the one-way window. I still had a smile on my lips.

“Mr. Clarke, would you care to join us?”

A short moment later the door swung open. Robert stomped into the room, chair in hand. He put the chair down next to Abby, and took seat.

“I didn't give you permission to join.”

Robert looked uncomfortable, but he persisted on his chair. “I want to hear him plead not guilty of mass murder,” He had a smirk on his face. “It makes for a warm and fuzzy execution.”

“Electric chair, that's still a thing?” I said with a leer. “Care to spare a last fag for a dying man?”

He rolled his sleeve, revealing a patch.

“Fine,” It would seem they hadn't caught on yet. Good. “As the DNA tests reveal, everything I've said is the truth. If you're still not convinced, you could take a field trip to the crash site. While the corpses near the airlock have decomposed quite severely, and should be impossible to identify by face, the excavation crew should have dug deep enough to find some fresh ones near the opposite end of the ship. Unfortunately, the two of you seem unwilling to cooperate, to understand, to listen. This leaves me with few options to explore.” I pondered a moment. “While I would ask Mr. Clarke to prove me true, I have a feeling he would be inclined to decline. Not because he wants to, but because he has to. I'm willing to bet he would gladly test my theory, if I made it easier for him to do so.”

There was still coffee in my mug, warm, but not too hot. I grabbed it from the table and threw the liquid into Abby's face. She panicked, covering her face with a scream. Robert rose from his chair, which slammed into the floor with a loud clack. I threw my mug at him, he didn't flinch, and lunged towards me. The weight of his body pushed me to the ground. I wormed around in his grip and managed to get my hands on his sidearm. I slipped the safety off, and with a struggle pulled the trigger.

Bang.

Robert moved away from me, staring in disbelief. Abby was coming back from her panic.

“What have you done!”

I huffed blood out of my mouth and gurgled. “The bullet ...through my side ...my heart ...lung,” I coughed some more blood. Abby was staring in fear and bewilderment alongside Robert. “...I suggest ...Call the crash site ...Soon confirmation.”

With all the strength I could muster, I pulled myself up to table, and fingered the recorder which had conveniently been knocked to my end of the table.

'There I was, not me, but me. At the far end of the room, another me. A dead me. I was once again on the table, well, one version of me, while the other one was near the consoles. I am telling you, I would not wish this fate upon anyone.

...At first, I struggled with panic attacks. Was I dying and being cloned? Reincarnating? Going mad? Some kind of government experiment? If clones, was there a diminishing return on the cloning? Was there a limit on the amount of clones that could be created?

...I started to send the dead me out the airlock, while the live me, went through the technology of the ship, learning step by step. There had to be a way to find out where I was. Months must have passed, I could only last three days until the dehydration got me. I was making little progress during all that time. Hold on.'

'Sorry, had to strap the old me down, it kept floating into the audio input. I turned the artificial gravity off long ago, and it has its advantages and disadvantages, things not strapped tends to congregate.

...Like I was saying, I wasn't making much progress for a good while. Frustration hit first, but then fear of a limit to my reincarnations, a limit to the machine itself. I started to consume my old vessels, if that's what they were? Could it be considered cannibalism? Eating myself? I don't know, I don't really want to know. But drinking the blood and consuming the flesh allowed me a few more days, and then I discovered a new limit, iron poisoning.

...I turned off the artificial gravity. It was easier to stock the corpses that way. I used some straps from the greeble to bind them together, I put them near the end of the room, it helped with the smell at first, but eventually, they started to pile up in such numbers that I couldn't access the airlock and discard them anymore, I had mounted a wall of death between the reincarnation table and the consoles. At least the most decay was at the far end towards the interior, and the fresher corpses at the outer shell, close to me.

...It must have taken me over a decade, but I eventually learned enough about the systems to input a journey home. That was a few weeks ago. I'm still en route, and I just figured out the recording function, so here I am, telling you all this, in case I run out of reincarnations, or if there's a copy of a copy degradation flaw, or the ship crashes, disabling the machine, or something else I haven't accounted for.

...Again, I must warn you. Do not go near the table-instrument close to the airlock, you do not want this life.'

Abby shook the lifeless body of Carl Eaton. He was dead.

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