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Now I think about that thing again.
Now I think about that thing again.
Ever seen someone going out of their way to kill people with kindness and then resents the whole world that people don't kill them back?
Now, if you really want to go down the dark road of telling one gender to go to therapy to fix their sadism. You need to tell the other to stop promoting masochism as well. Because sadism and masochism both need each other.
For I remember when Miss Vietnam said the most important trait in a woman was sacrifice and everyone (on TV) applauded, I wanted to throw the remote away. But that was early 2000. They rebrand it as empathy and kindness now.
Masochists need sadists. Otherwise they can't be a victim, and they have to be one. Like half of the time, they don't even need an actual sadist, a perceived one will do. See how projection and projective identification work.
You can't have a culture that both promotes masochism and blames sadists for enjoying the show.
On the other hand, reading that story about European priests on World News as a kid was a big mistake.
There was a popular teen magazine that I read when I was in elementary. I wasn't a teenager, but I grew up faster than the rest of them combined so that was appropriate.
They had short stories submitted by young adults from different regions. I always wanted to be featured in that magazine when I grew up. But traditional newspaper was already over in junior high so that blew.
Different regions have different voices of writing. The North is more traditional so the writing was more formal, distant and philosophical. The South had better weather, better agriculture so the writing was more happy and innocent, often about relationship between families and schools.
The Central used a lot of regional dialect so I picked up many words none of people around me knew. We collected old clothes to donate to that region as they often had floods many times a year. It's different now that we get updates through online news and social media. But back then it was stories in children's magazines.
My neighbor taught us how to steal money from our parents. And we did it successfully. Then I used that money to buy books.
Probably should have just told parents to buy them for me directly. That would make me less of a criminal.
Most of the time, I don't feel like I'm informed enough about a particular issue to make an announcement about it.
But when someone who is obviously less informed than me tells me how to think in a morally superior way, I take it as a cue to look for evidence in the opposite direction.
Still angry since yesterday as I saw someone said people working in helping professions should take on a certain side of a certain current political issue because “we should always choose the side of life”.
I mean, people have bad political takes every day so I might have to learn to take it easy. What made me angry the most was how people associate a job someone does with how they should think. And that came from someone who studied Freud and stuff. Didn't you take notes when your teacher talked about False Self?
False Self is basically a manufactured identity to serve certain purposes. For some people, to gain affection or social advance. For others, for safety.
One example is job stereotypes. You know how they tell people in STEM shouldn't use their hearts and people in arts shouldn't use their brains? And stereotypes work because many people lack sense of self. And I wouldn't mind if they didn't also tell others people what to do out of their own narcissism. Damn it, I haven't read the articles and you tell me I have to stand against the machine!
See how you created the false self to genders and now you have to invent new categories so you can diversify the original false selves? How has that worked out so far?
I decide that Life of Sin pt.2 is the best out of the 6. Then pt.4.
When I was 16, my sister's friend asked her: “Does Son still say inappropriate things on the internet?”. She thought what I said online was shocking, she should hear what I said to my teachers in their faces.
But the internet was safer back then. And I was a minor so society owed me protection no matter what.
Since my nemesis spread false rumors about me and my family everywhere because he was sadistic and an idiot, most people didn't want to be friends with me during that time. Which, I counted as a blessing because I didn't have to make those damn conversations with boring people about the ugly weather anymore. It worked for both of us as it turned out.
As I started posting my daily notes about my life as a teenager, a bunch of strangers of different ages and from different cities felt it suspiciously relatable and wanted to be my friends. Others were people from school I never talked to in real life, but found me interesting and didn't care for what others said.
So this is not the first time I have spoken out to the world. But way more secretive and selective this time.
What's up with people who publicize every little detail about their lives on the most crowded social media platform then cry about being watched by strangers? Oh but then also throwing tantrums they are being violated when someone blocks them because they are annoying? Oh but then they are also the ones who brag about people don't respect their invisible boundaries?
In psychoanalysis, freedom also means responsibility. Meaning understanding yourself comes with the responsibility of choosing where to express yourself, how to do it, with whom to do it and in what capacity.
Here you are doing just the opposite of it.