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Goodnight 1 foot 3. See you later.
Goodnight 1 foot 3. See you later.
It was much more diverse when it was about a whole zoo.
I'm coloring these chicks and it's getting really boring.
Activists are very stupid. Their thesis is that dysfunction is caused by trauma, so if you give dysfunctional people unlimited love and validation to reverse their psych, it will cure them, because that's how fiction works. Or how socialism works. You simply give power to the people who never had power before because they have a better record of never having power to abuse it than people who had and did. All great ideas!
In reality, one better way to deal with a narcissistic personality is 50% of compassion and 50% of confrontation. Which, also has to say, confrontation is just as compassionate as compassion. Since most people can only do either, and not both. Everyone agrees I'm the best candidate to do that task.
I do have the ability to detach and have a history of doing that sort of thing. That was how I got a bunch of 2nd graders following me when I was in 5th grade. But to change a certain dysfunction of a kid is much easier and takes a lot less time than an adult. And while I do take pride in however small helpful ways that I can do, it does make me feel like I'm too calculative and can't just simply have a good time around people.
My mom is pretty cool. She said she hoped I would find a “soulmate”. I don't think she ever used that word for anyone else. Accuracy is important. For one relationship that I have control the most of who I choose to have in my life, I would like to have it all rainbows and butterflies and tactic-free. Except for some fun manipulation from either side that I can enjoy.
I had rolled rice pancakes this morning. It was tasty.
A lot of people commented on my solid sense of self, as opposed to having it fluctuate based on who one associates with. And I know that fact is true. Though I did overestimate myself in the past and tried to solve many cases way above my ability.
Trying to be yourself as a kid was very costly. Because you need a certain amount of narcissism to believe in yourself when everyone else says otherwise. But too much narcissism will affect how you form relationships with others. Especially when you haven't known much about yourself and what triggers your narcissism.
As an adult, it was mostly about collecting past mistakes to see the patterns and what caused them to make decisions. Sometimes it is between your sense of self and a bad influence. Sometimes it is between your sense of self and an unfit job. So it's still not easy. But it's between life choices. As an adult, I can be poorer, can be less prestigious, can be less popular for as much as I can afford to be myself.
There is a certain pride in helping A LOT of people hit rock bottom sooner rather than later.
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Not to brag but my relatives have literally NO WAY to contact me. Because I don't care at all for those people. I mean some of them are nice, like 1, that I can have pleasant conversations with. But I never understand why I need to value relationships based on something as vague as bloodline, when I can have better metrics like quality time and effort.
Took a day off. I’m back roasting everyone again.