Getting to Grips
I didn't think this was going to happen to me, but it did. I kind of lost my purpose. It's hard to explain. I think I'm only now just understanding that it has happened, and I'm retracing my steps to how it happened.
Or perhaps, it would be a better idea to move forward with it. Change. I've already changed my country of residence, I've moved somewhere where I only know one other person directly as a friend, everyone else is new. I've also not got a job, that's a real kicker at the moment and a daily concern that haunts me in the shower. I have enough money for about the next month if I start being very frugal but after that, it's going to become a bit of a problem.
Add on top of that, my friend who moved out here a couple of years ago got made redundant just before I arrived and their permanent residency is in flux. Yet while the obstacles seem to be expanding in number, my worry doesn't. Not in a noticeable way of panic. In essence, it feels a lot like I don't care.
I hope to expand on this later today. Finishing this part of the post at 6:43 am Pacific Time.
Picking this back up at 14:19 pm.
I've had some rest, showered, eaten, a bit of coffee and looked around for some jobs in the Downtown area. I really need to go do some work on a generalized CV/resume just to find something fast for the next couple of months and to get me on my feet.
Finishing off from the earlier ramblings, I guess I don't feel worried because I feel a lot more freedom at the moment than I have in a long time. No stress about making sure the product I'm working on is reviewing favorably with the community or tech issues that aren't being addressed by the development team filling up my inbox daily. I suppose there is a trade-off in effect.
Let's see how this new me and new blog keeps up.