Mom Life of 6

And to think that’s it all started with 👋 and it ended up with nothing left.

I ended with a broken heart 💔 from my own stupid emotions. From figments of my imagination 💭, thinking that I actually meant something to you. Hoping that those long night on the phone made and impression on you, hoping that letting you see my soul was special.

And instead it left me empty inside wondering what’s wrong with me ? What is in me that you didn’t want ? Why was I not enough? If you only began to understand the amount of Love I had to offer , just to you, because it could’ve been anyone but I choose you and you didn’t pick me. I lay in sleepless nights thinking about you and all the possibilities of all the things we could’ve accomplished together. And all I have left is me.

And for an instant time stood still while my brain tried to process all the feelings my heart was feeling. All the what ifs, all the countless of possibilities of all the possible outcomes. In all only the worst possible outcomes were the results. Because if you expect the worst you are not let down right? You don’t end up broken once again, because it was never meant to work out.

“Because if a guy is treating you like he doesn’t give a shit, he genuinely doesn’t give a shit, no exceptions “

I’v seen this movie countless of time, here lately it’s been my life. The difference is now loosing people is something I’m used to. I don’t expect people to stay in my life, because if they wanted to their actions would prove it. If you actions don’t match your words “ it is what it is” Maybe they are just a lesson in life. I hear people talk about people coming in to our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime and maybe you were just a reason a lesson to be learned.

You brought things into my life in such a short time that I am thankful for. You helped me see things in me and things in other people and for that I am grateful. I learned the value I have and that I deserve so much more that you had to offer. I believe I care too much and love too hard and I can’t change that part of me. I realize that I lost someone who doesn’t care for me and doesn’t love me, but you just lost someone who genuinely cared for you and would’ve done the best to make you happy, so in the end I didn’t loose.

I'm begining to think the type of love I search for, is indeed extinct........

Maybe it's just me, but I believe in a type of love that is rare. I believe in a love that is pure.

Imagine finding the perfect person for you, no not the perfect person, but one that is perfect for you.

The one person who is willing to stay, through the easy and through the hard parts of life. The one person who is willing to try. The one person who will accept you with all your flaws and insecurities. That person that is gonna hype you up to help you achive your goals , help make your dreams come true. So I guess your ride or die.

The person that can tell your mood, and know weather you need a hug, a laugh or to be left alone. They will know the importance of knowing your favorite color, your favorite food, your favorite song. Someone whot will get to know the real you.

I want someone who will take me at my best but also at my worse. Someone who is willing to fight for me even when I don't think I'm worth fighting for. I want someone who will not give up on me even when I want to give up on myself. Someone who is willing to fix what needs to be fixed.

In return I offer my unconditional LOVE, I want to know the real you, the good, the bad and the ugly. I want to know where you come from and where you want to go. I want to know what made you the person you are today and who you want to become. I want to know your goals, your ambitions, your dreams and help you achive them.

I want you to trust me, and know that I will be here when you need me the most, and even when you don't.

I want to Love you everyday for the rest of my life.