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“Kira, gue tunggu di lapangan aja ya? Takut di datengin Pak Pardi,” Gea langsung melangkah keluar kelas meninggalkan Kira yang masih sibuk mencari topi yang sepertinya ia lupa bawa untuk upacara hari ini.

Kira mencari seluruh kolong meja di kelasnya dengan harapan menemukan sebuah topi yang tidak terpakai, sudah tidak peduli topi itu kotor dengan debu apalagi bau. Hal yang terpenting sekarang adalah tidak berbaris di depan lapangan dengan siswa lain yang juga tidak mengikuti tata tertib sekolah.

“Akira, ngapain kamu masih di kelas?” Kira langsung membalikan badannya dan siap memberikan Pak Pardi alasan, yang sepertinya ia tak akan terima.

“Saya gak ada topi pak,” kata Kira dengan gugup.

“Ya turun dong, kamu kan sudah tahu peraturannya, ayo cepat.”

Kira sekarang sedang menahan panasnya matahari dan juga menahan malu karena ia ternyata satu-satunya siswi yang berbaris di depan lapangan. Muka gue mau ditaro mana ini.

“Makanya, hari minggu tuh gak usah ngumpul-ngumpul gak jelas sampe malem,” kata Janu setelah beberapa detik Kira duduk di kursinya, yaitu di depan Janu.

Kira menghiraukan omongan Janu seperti hari-hari biasanya, entah apa masalah Janu dengan Kira. Gea seperti biasa juga mencoba menahan emosi Kira yang sepertinya akan meledak.

“Udah, udah, gak usah di dengerin. Emang orang sirik, gak ikut kumpul-kumpul,” Nora menatap Janu dengan tatapan kesal, “udah kerjain pr fisika belum, Ra?”

Kira menepuk dahinya, “asli gue lupa banget.”

Gea membiarkan Kira melihat pekerjaan rumahnya, karena waktu pelajaran fisika sebentar lagi, Kira tidak akan selesai tepat waktu jika Gea tidak memberi lihat tugasnya. But today probably isn't Kira's day. Well, everyday isn't Kira's day if Janu was there.

“Semuanya aja lupa Kir, tapi temen lu yang gak jelas gak dilupain,” kata Janu dengan intonasi yang menyebalkan.

Ok that's it. Kira membalikan badannya dan berkata dengan kencang, “masalah lo tuh apa sih Nu? Gak suka banget gue punya banyak temen?”

“Temen lu tuh gak jelas semua Ra, mereka suka ngomongin lu di belakang, dan lu tau kan? Kenapa masih ditemenin sih?”

“None of your business, Januar. Now can you please just shut it? Gue capek banget setiap hari di komentarin terus sama lu and i don't even know what i did wrong to you,” mata Kira berkaca-kaca karena ia terlalu emosi.

Ia kembali menyalin tugasnya dengan cepat dan kembali berpikir tidak ada yang duduk di belakangnya. Bangkunya kosong, bangkunya kosong. Kira tries to ignore Janu for the rest of the period and try just to go on with the day. Until she found a note under her desk.

Kira, please wait for me after school, I have something to tell you, J.

Kira doesn't really have to guess who the sender was, Janu was never really seen talking to her in a nice intonation aka they were always fighting constantly. Janu was actually really nice the first time they met, always giving Kira gifts. Every day there would be food or snacks under her desk and she always knew it was Janu. They were actually really close like texting each other about their day and would rate it from 1 to 10, sudden calls in the middle of the night talking about a cartoon that Janu just watch or random trips that they took by bus after school. But all that just changes in one day.

At first, she didn't ask why cause she thought Janu just has something in his mind or he just needs space. When she started to ask a lot of questions, Janu's words started to change, it wasn't as sweet as they used to be. He started to say some unpleasant things. Kira was crushed. No more questions about Janu and they started living as if they were enemies from the start.

Kira waited for him after school, menghiraukan ajakan Gea untuk membeli lekker di depan sekolah. Kira sejujurnya bingung, saat bel pulang berbunyi, Janu segera meninggalkan kelas. But Kira thought he just needed a moment before saying whatever it is he wanted to say.

“Kira,” suara Janu yang halus membuat Kira meletakan hpnya ke meja dan segera memfokuskan dirinya ke Janu sepenuhnya.

Janu memberi seplastik lekker yang ia dulu suka berikan ke Kira. Kira mengambilnya dan mengucapkan terima kasih. Janu menarik kursi yang berseberangan dengan Kira dan mendekatkan dirinya dengan Kira. Janu menarik nafasnya dalam-dalam, mulutnya terbuka tetapi tidak ada kata-kata yang keluar untuk beberapa saat.

Suasana kelas yang sepi pada sore hari membuat suasana menjadi intim. Angin yang membuat gorden kelas jadi tertiup membuat Kira sedikit merinding. Dan, Janu membuat jantungnya berdegup kencang.

“Akira Lesmana,” Janu menatap Kira dengan matanya yang indah, “i like you so much.”

Harapan Kira rasanya langsung jatuh ke inti bumi. This is not the apology she's been waiting for or even an explanation. This just makes it worst.

“Hah?” Kira menatap Janu dengan tatapan yang susah diartikan, “Nu, kita sekarang udah kayak lagi perang, kenapa tiba-tiba jadi suka?”

“Okay, let me explain,” Kira menunggu lanjutan kalimat Janu, well at least this is something that I wanted to hear.

“Gue tau cara ekspresiin rasa suka gue salah banget, and it sometimes makes you cry. Gue tau gue salah banget but you know that wasn't what I mean right?”

Janu menunggu jawaban Kira dengan seksama, notifikasi yang muncul dari handphonenya pun tidak membuat fokusnya pada Kira buyar.

“Janu, maaf. If that's your way of showing love, then it's not my way of receiving love. For whatever reason, it's still wrong saying those things, apalagi disini lu suka sama gue. You're a nice person Janu, tapi cara yang lu lakuin itu salah.”

Kira menunggu reaksi dari wajah Janu, but he's not showing any. “Janu, kalo lu cuman mau bilang itu aja, gue pulang ya. But i appreciate your feelings, terima kasih Januar Samudra buat semuanya. I'll see you tomorrow.”

Kira menepuk bahu Janu sebelum akhirnya meninggalkan Janu sendiri di kelas. Truthfully, Kira has feelings for Janu, not sure if it's romantic or platonically, but regardless she really cares for him. She has lots of love to give to Janu, but if that's the way Janu going to convey, then Kira rather not have any fondness. Everyone has their own way of showing love, but if that's how Janu going to show his love, then Kira is not the one, or anyone indeed.

“Jadi sekarang lu maunya gimana Ce?”

Oceanna menengok ke arah Claire yang sedang terbaring di sebelahnya, Claire sedang melihat ke langit-langit kamar Oceanna. “Kalo gue tau mau apa juga sekarang lo lagi tidur di kamar lo sendiri.”

Claire tertawa kecil, “iya juga.”

“Kenapa gak kasih Shaka kesempatan aja Ce?” Claire mengubah posisinya dan memberikan semua fokusnya ke Oceanna.

“Isn't it too fast? Kalo akhir-akhirnya I still have no interest in him gimana? Gue kenapa jadi kayak mainin anak orang dah.”

“Kayak gini harusnya diomongin sama Shaka juga gak sih? Lu bisa bilang ke dia kalo lu belum siap untuk apa pun sekarang dan kepastian bukan sesuatu yang bisa lu kasih, how about that?”

“And the Jake thing?” Oceanna mengubah posisinya menatap Claire.

“Jake juga lagi di fase yang kayak lu gak sih? Sama-sama kangen, putus juga belum lama. Masih coba move on tapi yang ada malah mikirin terus.”

Okay having Claire as a friend can't go to the worst things Oceanna has ever done list. Claire has the personality of a fluffy pancake and Oceanna thought Claire wasn't the type of person you wanted to share things that have been bothering your mind. The hardships Claire has been through maybe not as hard as everyone does, but she's very emphatic. It's really hard to imagine yourself at someone else's place, but she's really good, looking at things from other's perspectives, so you will not hear Claire being heartless.

“Okay now, all I have to do is talk to Shaka,” Oceanna said that like it was the most nerve-racking thing to do. Well, to be fair talking about serious things like this isn't the most pleasant thing to do to some people.

“Just say what you feel aja Ce, Shaka pasti paham kok,” telling your heart out isn't what Oce really likes doing.

“Ayo bukaaa udah lewat dari jam 12,” I think Claire is far more excited than Oceanna, “Oh iya, happy birthday Oceanna 'cantik' Cleo.”

Claire dan Mara memeluk Oceanna, “aaa jangan peluk.”

“Oh iya Ce, kado gue sama Mara nanti pagi aja ya,” Claire duduk di lantai sambil menepuk-nepuk disebelahnya, “karena ini jam Oce galau karena Jake lucunya bukan main.”

“Ayo Ce buka Ce.”

Oceanna membuka kembali paket yang ia sudah buka tadi sore. It was covered with a bunch of letters on top, there are at least 5 letters. There was a hoodie, a dolphin plushie, and another small blue box. Oceanna puts the letter aside, she opened the letter that has the letter “1” on it.

Claire and Mara let Oceanna read it first, letters are too private to share. Oceanna couldn't even cry when she read the letter, yeah she's sad but she's also really happy. Happy cause after a few months she heard about him again.

“Asli kangen banget sama Jake jadinya,” Oceanna memeluk suratnya sebentar dan mengambil hoodienya.

It smells like him, she kept holding the hoodie while she was taking the other things out of the box. “Aaa plushienya lucu.”

“He knows I like dolphins,” she took the plushie and look at it for a while.

“Ce buka ini Ce,” Claire menyuruh Oceanna membuka kotak yang lainnya.

“Woi ini lucu banget...” Oceanna memperlihatkan kalung yang ia dapat.

“Yah ini mah gagal move on beneran,” kata Mara setelah ia melihat kalung yang Jake beri.

“Terus gue mesti gimana dong?” Oceanna memasukan kadonya kembali ke kotak.

“Ya, bilang makasih sama Jake lah. Emang bilang apa lagi?” kata Claire, ia membantu Oceanna menaruh kadonya kembali ke kotak.

“Itu sih gue tau, cuman, Shaka gimana?”

“Emang lu kenapa sama Shaka?”

“I kinda give him a green light...” she said that with a guilty face.

“HAH? But do you even like him?” I think the Shaka talk wasn't the entertainment Mara was searching for, “jangan mainin anak orang gitu lah Ce, dia temen gua.”

“Yes, of course, I like Shaka, he's nice. But right now I'm not so sure after this Jake thing,” Oceanna naik ke kasur.

“Ah udahlah, lets talk about it another time aja, ini hampir jam 2. Besok kita semua ada kelas, udah sana balik-balik.”

“Akhirnya kelar juga tugas aku,” Jada meregangkan tangan dan kakinya, semua badannya terasa sakit setelah mengerjakan tugas di depan laptop selama hampir 4 jam.

“Mau peluk?” Yeonjun yang sedari tadi duduk di sofa memperhatikan Jada dengan serius mengerjakan tugasnya.

Jada mengangguk, ia duduk di samping Yeonjun dan memeluknya, she literally doesn't know what this man has, she feels so drained and when he holds her in her arms it feels like she just woke up from an 8-hour sleep.

Sore ini hujan, suasana ruang tamu Jada jadi dingin. Juga jadi sedikit gelap. And she knows what to do while waiting for the rain to stop. Lay in Yeonjun's chest while playing with his hand.

“Tebak aku nulis apa,” Jada menulis sesuatu di telapak tangan Yeonjun menggunakan jarinya.

“Ke,” Yeonjun berpikir sebentar, “keren?”

Jada mengangguk, “ini apa?”

“hujan?”

Jada mengangguk, ia kembali memeluk tangan Yeonjun sambil menonton TV, sesekali melihat ke arah jendela yang basah. Tiba-tiba ia teringat hari dimana ia bertemu Yeonjun, it wasn't the best day but it was pretty amazing cause she met him.

“Kamu inget gak sih waktu aku pertama kali ketemu kamu? I was so mad you kept bothering me,” Jada tersenyum sendiri mengingat kenangan tersebut.

“Ya aku gak jelas juga sih, tiba-tiba ngajak ngobrol gak jelas,” kata Yeonjun, ia juga tersenyum mengingat hari itu.

That day was something. Jada met Yeonjun when she's at her lowest, she hates all of her classmates and there's Yeonjun, he's not her classmate though, he just randomly went into her class and sit next to her while talking about his day and then ask about hers.

Well to be short, he did what everyone doesn't, he listened. Listened to anything she said, important or not. Jada was thrilled, finally, someone remembers something that she said. She was telling Yeonjun about a character that she likes when she was little.

Back then she was in a war by herself then he showed her what peace was. She was unwell, and he has the antidote. He was there to tell her everything will be fine. He was there when she started to accept everything happens for a reason. He was there, and now everything is perfectly fine because of him. He doesn't hurt, he heals.

Jada menengok ke arah Yeonjun yang sibuk menonton film sambil mengelus-elus tangannya. He always does that, whenever he does stuff, he holds her hand. I guess that's one of his way of showing that he'll never go anywhere far.

“Yeonjun,” Jada masih menatapnya dengan tatapan yang sama saat ia sadar she's deeply in love with him.

“Kenapa Jada?” Yeonjun menengok, “wow.”

“Kenapa wow?”

“You look really pretty right now,” Yeonjun couldn't keep his eyes off her.

Jada tersenyum, I don't how many compliments from Yeonjun will make her bored, but I guess never. She loves him too much to feel bored. “Oh iya kamu mau ngomong apa tadi?”

“I don't know how many times I've said this, but I love you sooo much, you know that right?” Jada mengusap-usap pipi kanan Yeonjun, “and I wish we'll stay forever cause you've done so much to me and the last thing that I can do is to tell you I'm really lucky to have you.”

Yeonjun memegang tangan Jada yang sedang mengelus-elus pipinya dan mencium tangannya, “i know Jada, you've said that a thousand times but i hate to break it to you...”

Muka Jada berubah serius, ia mengubah posisi duduknya dan menunggu Yeonjun melanjutkan omongannya. “Apa?”

“Wow, i'm kidding. Aku gila apa ya bisa ninggalin kamu,” kata Yeonjun bercanda.

Jada memukul Yeonjun dengan kesal dan sebelum Jada memukul Yeonjun yang ke dua kali, ia keburu lari menghindari Jada. Sore itu dihabiskan dengan mereka lari-larian di apartement Jada. Well, the rain didn't last long but i hope they did.

In the last couple of weeks, Oceanna couldn't really sleep. Either because of the nightmares or the overthinking, that couldn't really help her fall asleep. So many things on her mind wanted to be thought about. And colleges that are starting soon don't really ease. Even though, Mara said with the busy activities Oce doesn't have the time to think about unnecessaries stuff.

And also, recently Claire became her friend. Oceanna would lie if she's not surprised, there are almost 8 billion people and the one living across her room is Jake's friend that she somewhat dislike at first, but now Claire continuously listening to Oceanna's ramble throughout the day. It's really surprising that Claire doesn't ask a thing about Jake to Oceanna like not even a bit. Perhaps she understands how she feels currently and talking about your almost 4 years ex isn't really the best topic to know someone personally.

This Saturday afternoon just lays on her bed as any usual day, but today there's no Claire in her room. Claire usually does things at Oceanna's and she doesn't mind. Actually, Oceanna told her to do it so she doesn't really feel alone. But today Oceanna asks to be alone. She couldn't stop thinking about Jake, how is he doing, is he eating well, does the heat bothers him, ah so many questions she wanted to ask but she chose not to.

Sometimes at night, she would reminisce all of the good times they've spent together. Recollect all of their dates, songs Jake have sung to her, books that they've read together, late-night drive with the windows down when they want to feel like the main character. Ah, too many special things that it's really hard to forget. Oceanna sometimes would re-read the journal that she writes when she's with Jake.

“What would Jake do if he sees me like this?”

“What would Jake said if I have the same nightmares for almost 2 weeks?”

“What would I do if Jake was here?”

That's actually a dumb question because Oceanna already knows the answer. First, Jake would tell Oceanna to get up and give him a big hug, let her tell all of the things she has been feeling while he brushes her hair. Second, he would comfort her and said, “it's okay it's only a dream, gapapa gapapa, besok-besok sebelum tidur aku bacain cerita biar mimpi kamu indah.” Third, she would hold him close and wouldn't let him go anywhere. Letting him go would be the foolish thing she ever did.

“Ce, dicariin tuh,” Claire interrupted her bubble of thoughts.

“Siapa?” Oceanna segera bangun dan merapikan rambutnya.

Ia turun kebawah dan berjalan menuju teras, ia mengenali seseorang yang sedang duduk di kursi kayu itu. Rambut yang kian memanjang dengan jaket jeans andalannya. Dan juga dengan senyuman yang sudah mulai Oceanna tertempel di ingatannya.

“Ce, cari makan yuk,” kata lelaki tersebut.

Oceanna mengangguk sambil tersenyum, “sebentar, ambil jaket dulu.”

Oceanna masuk sebentar ke kamar dan mengambil jaket, “mau kemana Ce?”

“Cari makan sama Shaka, Mar,” kata Oceanna menjawab pertanyaan Mara dan segera berjalan ke teras.

“I'm starting to think lo selalu punya alasan lain ajak gue cari makan kayak gini atau tiba-tiba ajak jalan,” kata Oceanna yang sedang memakai sepatu di lantai.

Shaka tertawa, “jadi sekarang udah tau?”

Kepala Oceanna menengok ke atas melihat Shaka yang sedang tersenyum dan menawarkan tangannya, “jadi gimana Ce, do you let me?”

Oceanna memegang tangan yang ditawarkan Shaka, “kita liat aja kali ya?”

Do you have that special someone that you feel like you could talk about everything, spend the night talking while staring at each other, or just sit in silence with no awkwardness in the air. Or watch shitty movies and would still enjoy the moment? Well, Helia has and his name is Heeseung or just Hee for short.

Helia said hanging out with Hee would be the greatest day of her life, well it keeps on being the best day of her life. Even though they would spend the day eating pizza in the living world while having a joke battle and couldn't stop laughing and no one ended up being the winner because they're too busy laughing at each other and ended up forgetting what was the joke.

“Hee,” panggil Helia. Mereka sekarang sedang berada di lantai ruang tamu, sibuk menonton tv dengan kaki yang menyilang.

“Apa?” Heeseung menengok, dia memegang tangan Helia cause that's what he always do while they're watching something.

“Ih bukan itu maksud aku, tapi ya aku gak mau kamu ngapa-ngapain sih cuman mau manggil aja,” Helia memeluk tangan Heeseung sambil sesekali memperhatikan Heeseung.

“You always do that, manggil tapi gak ada maksud apa-apa,” Heeseung mengusap-usap rambut Helia yang baru saja ia potong pendek.

“Because I like calling your name, I like you, I love you. Hee, I think I would have a heart attack if you kept looking at me like that but I would let you gaze at me like that every day because I love you.”

Well, you see what's Helia has said. Being with Hee feels like Helia is losing control of everything. Helia isn't really her when she's with him, but if that's the consequence of loving Hee feels like, then Helia would fall without a parachute.

“Jadi gimana Lie, sama Jay? Kalian udah ngobrol lagi?”

“I thought we're talking about homework Naaaa.”

“Noo, I wanted to know about you guys, you seemed off and so does he, dia ketawanya udah gak sekenceng dulu.”

“What does that has to do with me? Mungkin jokesnya aneh, ah udahlah intinya, duh you know it Na, i just wish i never said what i said. Mau restart aja tau gak sih, gue jadi benci diri gue yang suka blak-blakan.”

“Julie, it's okay to like someone, the problem is you just push Jay away, while you don't even know what's he gonna say.”

“No, me and him are close friends, it was not supposed to be a romantic relationship, sebentar Na,” Julie mendengar mamanya memanggil dirinya turun, “wait my mom is calling me, I'll talk to you later okay?”

“Byeeee.”

“Kenapa ma?” Julie menuruni tangga karena mendengar suara mamanya di ruang tamu, what are the odds, she has a guest and it's Jay. Julie kembali menaiki tangganya, rasanya mau kunciin diri di kamar aja.

“Julie wait, so I come here at night and all I got is you not talking to me? Can we please talk about it?” he sounded pretty hopeless.

Julie menuruni tangga dengan tangan yang dilipat, “mau ngomongin apa?”

“About the thing? You don't even know what I'm going to say and suddenly you just left me after you confessed?” scratched that, he sounded mad.

Julie feels guilty, why the hell does she get mad after confessing to someone, especially when it's her close friend, that she knows inside out. “Jay I'm sorry, I just don't want us to be weird.”

“Tapi lo ngejauhin gue kayak gini aja udah weird, sini duduk,” Jay menepuk-nepuk sofa di depannya.

“Okay, I'm sorry gue marah gak jelas sama lo,” kata Julie seusai dia duduk, “I never wanted us to be in a romantic situation, all those touches weren't supposed to be in a romantic way, right Jay?”

“I'm sorry for the stupid things I've said, especially that day. I don't know what I was thinking, but I'm really sorry if what I said affected you anyway. If I have a restart button, I would press it,” lanjut Julie.

“Tapi Julie...” belum sempat Jay lanjutkan omongannya sudah di potong Julie.

“I'm going to say it again, I like you, Jay. And being in love with my close friend was not on my to-do list. So I think whatever that we had is done, so if in the future we're destined to meet again, I hope I'm not your best friend. Good night, Jay.”

“Kay, jadi lu sama Jake sekarang gimana?”

“Ya, gak gimana-gimana.”

It's been almost 3 months since Jake couldn't stop flirting with Kayra, and Sheila, Kayra's friend, thought that Jake is serious with her. Because Jake is the school Casanova and everyone wanted to be with him, and Jake right now is only interested in Kayra. Giving her flowers, complementing her, all of the sweet things you name it.

“Masa? Kay, dia tuh bener-bener cuman ngajak ngomong lu doang, and not to mention he ask you a couple of times for a date and did you forget that he write you a poem?”

“Iya Shei astaga, no need to scream.”

“Kenapa sih gak mau sama dia? Dia jelas-jelas interested banget sama lu, kayaknya lu tipe dia banget deh, imagine the school most wanted spend his time on you terus lu nolak dia mulu,” Sheila bahkan sampai mondar-mandir dengan muka yang kesal karena Kayra sepertinya tidak paham-paham juga.

Kayra menarik tangan Sheila memaksa dia untuk duduk, “i'm not his type, girl is his type.”

“What do you mean?”

Kayra menunjuk ke arah lorong, menunjuk Jake yang sedang berbicara kepada beberapa adik kelas, Kayra isn't really sure about what is he talking about, because it looks like he's flirting. If it's not sweet-talking another girl, then why the hell they all look blushed. Especially that one girl, she couldn't stop playfully tapping Jake's arm.

You guys should see Sheila's face, she looked like her dreams has just crushed within minutes. She looks unbelievably disappointed, it's either disappointed at Jake or her own words cause she defended him. When Jake is walking towards them, Sheila couldn't bare to put on a smile.

“Kayra you look really pretty today,” Jake memberikan sebatang coklat, “a chocolate so you remember how sweet you are.”

Jake langsung pergi dengan senyuman manisnya. Kayra langsung menengok ke arah Sheila, “jadi ini gue sama Jake gimana ya Shei? Gue paling spesial sih dikasih coklat terus abisan.”

“Ah udah ah, kasih orang aja itu coklatnya. Blok aja nomer Jake, gue jadi nyesel sempet belain dia.”

Hari ini Shey dan Sunghoon sedang berkencan di rumah, masak-masak, menonton film pastinya, their favorite thing to do. Setelah sudah makan, Shey segera menyambungkan mini projector ke laptopnya dan mengarahkannya ke langit-langit.

“Kamu mau nonton apa Shey?” tanya Sunghoon dengan tangan yang siap mencari film yang Shey mau tonton.

“Nonton Flipped yuk, kata Karina seru,” kata Shey yang sedang membawa beberapa bantal dan selimut.

Jadi sekarang Shey dan Sunghoon sedang tiduran di lantai kamar Shey, karena kasur Shey hanya muat untuk satu orang. Shey yang awal-awal sangat fokus ke film malah terdistraksi dengan Sunghoon, sang kekasih yang sudah bersamanya selama 3 tahun ini. Rasanya Shey bisa remake film Flipped, cause she's definitely flipped for Sunghoon.

The movie is about how Juli Baker is flipped for Bryce Loski when the first time she met him. Well that was what Shey felt when she saw Sunghoon. She just feels like she was made for him, she feels that instant connection. Not to mention the butterflies in her stomach every time Sunghoon looked into her eyes.

“Tonton Shey filmnya,” kata Sunghoon tanpa menengok, mungkin ia melihat dari ekor matanya kalau Shey sedang tidak menonton filmnya, tetapi sedang menatap dirinya.

“Sunghoon, aku sayang banget deh sama kamu,” kata Shey setengah serius setengah bercanda.

Sunghoon tersenyum, “iya aku juga.”

“No like I mean it, I feel like I was made for loving you,” kata-kata tersebut keluar dari mulut Shey dengan lancar.

Sunghoon memegang tangan Shey dan mulai mengelus-elusnya, “kamu kenapa Shey? Kok tiba-tiba ngomong gitu? Lagi kepikiran apa?”

Shey menggeleng, “gak tau, I just feel like being you is the right thing to do.”

Sunghoon memiringkan badannya agar semua fokusnya ke Shey semua, “lanjutin kamu mau ngomong apa tadi.”

“Even though this is my first relationship, and I literally have no experience in dating terus tiba-tiba we made it this far, we just feel right.”

Sunghoon tersenyum, “aku paham, aku juga ngerasa gitu.”

“Beneran?”

Sunghoon mengangguk, “waktu pertama kali liat kamu aku langsung deg-degan sendiri gak tau kenapa, terus jujur aku yang kurang nyaman sama orang baru, terus tiba-tiba kenalan sama kamu, it feels like we've known each other for a long time.”

And at that moment, everything just feels right. Shey just feels safe whenever she was with him, and so does him, it feels like they can go where ever they want as long as they're together. Even they felt the same thing when they first met each other, I think calling them soulmate isn't a bad thing. It feels like after all this time waiting for someone to just come into their lives and just make it better, it's all worth it.

Maybe all of Sunghoon's past relationships didn't work and Shey's luck in finding a boy was just a plan so they can meet at the perfect time. Some of you guys may be wondering, how do you know they're the one? Well, you just know when you found one. Like when the first time your hands touched, it just feels right.

“Shey, promise me something,” kata Sunghoon dengan posisi yang sama.

“Apa,” Shey menengok ke arah Sunghoon, see his appealing eyes, “aku berasa Juli Baker, mata kamu kenapa bagus banget, aku mau liatin aja seharian.”

Sunghoon tersenyum mendengar Shey, “promise me you wont leave?”

“Promise,” Shey menyatukan kelingking mereka.

“Shey,” panggil Sunghoon.

“Kenapa ganteng?” jawab Shey sambil mengelus-elus rambut Sunghoon.

“Aku sayang kamu,” kata Sunghoon malu-malu.

“Iyaaa, aku juga,” Shey memeluk tangan Sunghoon dan dengan cepat mencium pipinya, “bangunin aku ya kalo udah selesai.”

Naya doesn't usually clean her room, but today somehow she feels like it. Maybe it'll help with her break up, or so we thought. Ia mulai membereskan barang-barang yang berserakan di lantai sampai akhirnya mulai mengeluarkan baju-baju yang sudah ia tidak pakai. She was doing fine until she found a box buried under her clothes. She already what it is but she opened it impulsively.

God, I should've not done this. It was filled with letters and a bunch of pics of a man, Nishimura Riki. A man that has filled a hole in her heart but he's also the one who carved a huge hole that no one could cover. He's like a ghost now, no one knows where he is but suddenly just shows up to make her days even worse.

She read the first letter that he ever gave, it said, “the moon was beautiful last night, it reminded me of you.” She smiled, reading all of the letters that he gave and seeing the pictures of them together makes her heart feel something again after a long time. She was lost and he helped her find a way but he left her when she's nearly there.

She started to remember the night that they met, students were asked to stay to help with some school event, they were asked to help clean and decorate the school. Naya is sitting on the corner with her broom, tired, hungry, and definitely in a bad mood. Until this random boy just sits next to her and started talking.

“Sorry, lo ngomong sama gue?”

Ia menggeleng, “ngobrol sama yang di samping lo.”

Naya menengok, “tapi gue sendirian disini.”

“Yakin sendirian disini?” katanya dengan alis yang dinaikan ke atas.

Naya langsung reflek berdiri dan merengek, “jangan nakut-nakutin kayak gitu please, i'm so not in the mood for this kind of joke.”

Ia tertawa, “sorry sorry, cabut aja yuk, gue juga gabut banget disini.”

“I've tried, ada yang jaga di depan.”

“Ambil tas lo cepet,” Naya mengikuti apa kata orang tersebut, he grab her hand, “di hitungan ke tiga, lo lari secepet mungkin ya.”

“Hah, jadi ini kita kabur?”

“Sshh,” ia menengok kanan kiri, sambil menghitung dengan berbisik-bisik, “AYO LARI CEPETAN.”

Naya segera lari sekuat tenaga dengan tangan yang masih digenggam, ia mencoba mensejajarkan dirinya. Naya mulai panik karena ia mendengar teriakan dari belakang yang sepertinya menyebut namanya. Setelah cukup jauh dari jangkauan sekolah, cowok tersebut tersenyum.

“Ayo bilang apa?”

“Thanks,” kata Naya yang masih mengatur nafas, “by the way, nama lo siapa?”

“Nishimura Riki, call me Ni-Ki or Riki, anything you want actually,” ia melihat muka Naya yang pucat, “makan dulu yuk, it's almost 8 pm, and you look like you needed some food.”

Ni-Ki mengajak Naya untuk makan sebentar di warung soto yang masih buka, memesan untuk mereka berdua dan duduk di hadapan Naya. “Kok gue jarang liat lo di sekolah ya?”

Naya tertawa, “gue males aja keluar kelas, besides I'm new here and no one really wants to be my friend atau mungkin males aja jelasin ke gue tentang sekolah, tentang diri mereka sendiri.”

“Maksudnya males?”

“Ah, i feel like i'm going to over share like i used to, tapi maksud gue disini males itu kayak, males cerita ulang tentang diri mereka what they like and what they love, atau peraturan sekolah ini, rahasia umum sekolah, gitu gitu deh pokoknya,” jelas Naya.

Ni-Ki mengangguk paham, “terus lo kenapa pindah?”

“That's because one of my biggest flaws, i can't say no. Dulu gue udah nyaman sih di sekolah gue yang dulu, terus disuruh pindah, jadi ya yaudah ikutin aja. Kalo gue nolak juga gak akan didenger,” kata Naya dengan senyuman yang pahit.

Mereka tidak mengatakan sepatah kata saat makan, bukan karena tidak ada topik pembicaraan tetapi karena tidak sopan. Besides, Ni-Ki looks like he has so many things that he wanted to ask, call it what ever you want, but he really wanted to know more about this girl.

You know that certain feeling when a special someone just caught your attention and you feel the need to know everything about him because you just really want to know them, well that what Ni-Ki feels. He saw an interesting girl who's lost and he feels like he holds a map to everywhere she wanted to go.

But to make it short, he became her friend and then her boyfriend, she feels like she can do anything with him by her side, she feels comfortable, she feels like she founded her new home. But Ni-Ki on the other side thought that he still holds the map but he actually doesn't after all this time, and when she already finds her way, he's the one that is lost. He made a sudden turn without her knowing and she just lost him. Both of them lost him and later on, she finds she's lost too, she thought she already finds a way but it was wrong.

Her thoughts of him get interrupted by her own tears that fell into the letters. She puts everything back in the box but she kept one picture of him, cries while holding it. Feeling lost, not knowing what to do is such a terrible feeling. The sudden existential crisis that keeps on coming every night. Comparing all that to losing him, losing him is just another kind of pain, a pain that will stay. Sometimes she just wants to live into a fantasy where Ni-Ki still stays, everything is already bad, but Ni-Ki being there for her, the world just becomes a better place. “Please, just take me back to the night we met.”