Motivations for Suicide:

◾I'll never get out of this crisis ◾The pain of living my daily reality isn't worth it for the amount of happiness i get out of life ◾I'll never reach the goals that would improve my situation ◾If I die young people would be able to think I had potential; if I keep living they'll know what a loser I'm destined to be ◾I don't have the skills or resources I #need to live ◾Nobody cares whether I live or die, so it's not worth the effort to keep living ◾I've lost something I can't get back and will never have again (friends, family, partner, large sums of #money or other important items)

Motivations for second attempt:

◾I've made it this far, can I please die now? ◾I stayed alive for someone but now they're gone ◾I felt a lot of guilt for putting my family through it the first time but now the feeling is too overwhelming ◾I resent the people who want me to live ◾I tried all the things that were supposed to help me the first time and I still feel the same or worse ◾My life hasn't improved at all in X number of years or months

“[they] seem to know exactly what’s wrong with this picture, and yet [they] haven’t figured a way to rearrange or leave it. [...] people really need to reread what they write— gaze deep into the reflection you sent us. A lot of what you #need is right there.”

This is what mania looks like. Main E Ah. Say it slowly.

I don't want to use any services. I don't want to accept new points of failure. People don't see each new item the way I do; as another potential loss. The more you are given to hold, the heavier it is, the harder your muscles #need to work. Isn't it obvious?