katelovesorange

its friday and day 1 of 6 days in a row working. i will have to leave a bit early so i can get my cards in the mail today. it may take a week or so to get the cards out west.

later. day 1 of 6 is over. i am so tired and my feet are throbbing again, but i am glad its over.

i finished the first box of tomatoes today. i will make some of the sauce into pizza sause and taco sauce. i want to make v8 juice again too. its good for my lunches. so tomorrow i will be canning in the afternoon before i go back to work.

its going to be another long day tomorrow. so i am going to close here for now and go have a shower and get things ready for work tomorrow. see you all tomorrow.

its thursday. my day off and only day off for the next 6 days. starting tomorrow i will be working straight until next thursday. wish me luck. i have not worked like that since my 20's.

i was up at about 7 this morning. so far i have gotten dinner on, its chili. i used the tomato sauce i made yesterday for the chili today. saves me from canning it. put another pot of tomatoes on to cook and filled 2 more trays in the dehydrator and did dishes. this afternoon i need to wash the floor. we shall see how far i get. its break time now with my tea and meds. i might try and make muffins after lunch. i have a few bananas to use up. oh and to go the the chili i was thinking homemade bread in the bread machine.

i wonder how brent thinks some days. he says making things at home is cheaper. granted sometimes it is. sometimes its not. i also point out that i have to buy all the things to make things. so no its not “free”.

i also want to finish my cards today and get them in the mail tomorrow. they have to be in BC by the 20th of september. i am about half way done the backs. i put a piece of nice paper on the back and wrote the information on. looks ok.

when i went down to the basement last night right before bed , my cat thor decided to go down as well but he would not come back up. so i left him in the dark in the basement. he was happy when i let him back out this morning. leo on the other hand has taken to sleeping on the bed last night. not just on the bed, on my pillow. i booted him off but still it was quite the shock to see him on my pillow. i am not sure what is going on with them lately but man are they like velcro, cant get them off me.

later. got the floor washed. not many dishes done though. meh not like they are going to run away. i have been resting my feet as i will need them for tomorrow when i go back to work for 6 days, sigh. i am going to have to suck it up. i cant turn down hours even though they say they need people they are not giving me many. i had 8 hours last monday and this monday i will have about 5. i wish the office would explain what the hell they are doing to my shifts. no i dont suck up to anyone and dont take shit, but i dont think they should be able to screw me over, again. so much for them being happy i am back. they lied.

later. dinner was good. i am not one for chili but thought i would make it for a change. i have not made it in over 20 years. and the bread was soooo yummy...good thing i dont make that every day.

time to try and finish the trading cards. i will see you all tomorrow.

well i missed my entry yesterday. i was so busy trying to get things done here and with work that by the time i thought of it, it was bed time. even though i was done at lunch time yesterday i had to go and get cat litter , then come home and can the tomato sauce and mushrooms and make dinner, feed the birds, and get ready for work today. i was so tired when i went to bed i passed out. its canning season so i have to get things done.

i think what pissed me off the most was brent had done NOTHING when i was at work. didnt even sweep the floor , which i did. after i started to can the sauce he said oh i can do prep for dinner. i said you should have done that BEFORE i came home not now when i am trying to get things done. so i booted him out of the kitchen and again he said you can leave me a list of things to do. i said to myself i should not have to. sometimes i just cant believe how unobservant men are.

so now i am up at 4am and writing this. i did see however that he did some dishes for me after i went to bed. he works from home so he can and should do more. i did alot of work when i was home. most days all he did was play games on his phone, and forget to put the garbage out.

i have to get ready for work now. will try and write more later.

much later. i am home from work now, time for tea and then onto chores. i asked brent to do a few things for me , and wonder of wonders he did it. so i might have a chance to do some art later. i also got a letter from my penpal yesterday so will try and get that started tonight.

my feet so hurt right now. i am sure the rest of me will hurt later. with all the bending over i have done today i am surprised i am not coughing. so far so good on that one. i took an extra pain pill but has not touched the pain. so i will see how i feel in the morning. i want to get more done tomorrow but if i cant stand for very long it makes it hard. even though i get short times at work to have a bit of a break its still hard when my body does not like walking anymore. i was thinking of getting a step counter to see how far i walk in those halls now.

being back at work has allowed me to get back to knitting socks. i am almost ready to turn the heal the sock i am working on now. i look forward to finishing this pair. i started a pair of baby booties , i am working on these at home. being as i need a written out pattern it stays home. they are so tiny, you forget how small babies are i think, and how small baby things are. they are newborn sized.

i am almost done the trading cards. i put a nice back on them and now i just have to write the info on the back. i want to get them in the mail by friday. then its a waiting game to see what i get back and see if others like my card as well.

some days i feel so incredibly alone. not lonely, just alone. i wish my kids would at least message me and let me know they are ok. i wonder how my grandkids are everyday. i miss them so much. i wonder if they miss me. my life is so incredibly empty with out them. no matter how many birds or cats i have, they will never fill the void my kids have left in me. i am going to close here for now and have my shower and then stretch out in bed. see you all tomorrow.

well its early, very early,530. been up an hour and already i have done a load of laundry. it seems the cat wanted to barf on the curtain and blanket so in the washer it went. not what i wanted to be doing at 430am thats for sure. i have to leave in about an hour so i better get dressed and finish packing my bag its going to be a very long day. will write more when i get home.

much much later

its after dinner now and i am done in. i am very tired and sore but i made it through the day. i think the CBD is really helping. with all the walking i have to do in the building its hard on my back and feet. i will have to look into getting some different shoes. overall though today went well and i had a few small breaks here and there. my pain level is high right now so i will take an extra pain med later. i also got more tomatoes on stove cooking down. the first batch is strained and looks great! i think its the best tomato sauce i have ever made.

i also got in a little bit of time on my art too. now i wait for paint and glue to dry. i am still not sure what to do about the back of the trading cards. i want it to look nice on the back too.

as i am starting to fall asleep now i will close and head to the shower and then bed....see you all tomorrow..

its sunday and i am trying to do as much as i can today. i wont be able to do anything tomorrow as i will be working all day. i am not looking forward to it. i know it will be a very long day and will be very tired.

today i have to clean the aviary. i usually do it monday mornings, but alot of things have to be done today. so i better get started.

later....i got the aviary done, and some dishes done, 2 loads of laundry done , one on the line, and a pot of tomatoes on the stove to be made into sauce once its cooked down. dam i am tired.

i told brent that he has to start helping more. he says write a list. and i am thinking cant you tell when the floor needs to be swept or washed. could you at least wipe the coffee off the counter when you pour yourself a cup instead of just walking away. sigh ...sometimes i wonder if i would be better off alone. less laundry and dishes , and i would not have to cook as much or buy as much food. i just wont have someone to help me when the fibro gets really bad and i cant do anything anymore. a double edged knife so to speak.

so its time for my shower and get my clothes ready for work tomorrow. i am feeling tired just thinking about it. i really liked the respite shifts. i wont be getting those anymore. which sucks. it was really easy money.

much much later almost bed time. being as i have to be up at 430am for work i wont be staying up late at all. so in the morning in have to get my lunch ready and or a snack. there are no breaks in my schedule for the day. i will be calling work about that. my tomatoes will be ready for the jar tomorrow after work. its canning season and i will have to work around my hours of work. i have started to shuffle things in the basement a bit. next i will start to label the shelves so i can find stuff faster.

i feel like i just got up and its time for bed. i spent most of the day doing chores. all i can say is at least its done. i also got to spend a bit of time doing some art, which i was happy about, and i planned out the next piece. i will need a better light in the sunroom i think, being as its getting dark sooner every day now.

i am going to have to invest in a good pair of shoes. i walk on concrete all day and i really felt it at the end of the night on fri. it will have to be on my 'to do' list for the week.

as i said i have to get to bed early...will close here for now and see you all tomorrow.

welcome to saturday. its pouring rain and i am awake. i literally passed out last night i was so tired. i slept straight through the night which is highly unusual for me. we didnt plan to do anything today because i was not sure i would be working. i work next weekend, the long weekend, of course.

i did leave brent with a list of things to do yesterday. i am sure i could have left him more, but i was not sure he would even do what was on the list. he could have done things not on the list , if he noticed.

this is my weekend off and then back to work on monday. i will then be working 6 days in a row before i have a day off again. not sure how i will survive that. even when i not burdened with fibro i had a hard time working that many days. guess time will tell. with going back to work its forcing me to get out of the house. i am still having a hard time with that , but no choice now.

much later. we did some errands today. grocery shopping and went to walmart to pick up meds. so i dont think we will need anything else for the week. we went to the thrift shop. i was looking for one of those bullet things to help grind up the veg i am dehydrating into a powder for soups. the dehydrator is full tonight. some things might be done by tomorrow sometime. we shall see.

i am still in alot of pain from work yesterday. i am hoping it will ease up tomorrow, there are some things i want to get done. i made stew for dinner tonight. i was surprised i could stand that long. but i got it done and it turned out good.

i am hoping to spend a bit of time tomorrow doing some art. its been awhile since i had the time to work on anything. i sure miss it. and i know what your thinking i can do some when i get home from work. if my brain was not fried i sure could. i am just too tired and sore. when i am in that much pain i cant think about creating anything at that point. my best time is about lunch time, when meds have kicked in and i am not tired yet from doing chores. i can get a few things done when left alone.

its getting late now..so i will see you all tomorrow.

well today is the day. i start back to work. i begin my first shift at 230. i will have to go early as the retirement home does covid checks on the way in and i will have to put on my PPE too. i have my back pack mostly together. will have to remember my phone. been so long not having one. i really didnt miss it. i dont like feeling like i am on a leash and anyone can find me. there is GPS on my phone as well so work can really find me if they so choose to. i did my phone calls last night to clients last night as well. most didnt answer because the number comes up private so i left a message.

i also have to go out and do banking today. i could do it on monday but it will be very busy and i finish at 3 and no idea how i will feel then either. so i will need to get it done today. so i have a busy day ahead of me that once started wont end until 9 tonight. so maybe very sore and very tired and very cranky later. i am scared and nervous about work. scared in the sence i dont know what to expect. all these clients are new and i dont know their routine yet.

much much later. well 1ST work day is over. i barely made it. i can hardly walk. my feet hurt so much. the clients where very nice and no one yelled at me...lol. i am going to have a hot drink now and watch my show and then shower and then bed....see you all tomorrow.

well its going to be a long day. i have been awake since about 4am. i have my meeting at work to pick up my phone. i dont know what else i will have time for today. i am hurting today because of doing so much yesterday. i will be reloading the dehydrator later. i am also trying to think of something for dinner. reservations sounds like a plan to me. but with brent working until 830 its not going to happen. with covid and most places not being open much yet it wont happen any time soon.

much later. i made it to work and got my phone and schedule . i dont know how i am going to work back to back clients for 8 hours. guess i will find out on monday. i see 11 people on monday. tomorrow i see 6. i feel tired just thinking about it. the one good thing about this is i will be working in one place. so my fear of driving will go down, and the fear i had of trying to find street numbers in the dark. it has its good points and bad. i will try for the life of me to focus on the good.

we went out for dinner which i am very grateful for. i have left over for lunch tomorrow. i will eat before work and that will be it until the next day.

its 830pm and its dark out. fall is coming, and winter is not far behind.

i am really tired right now so i will close here for now and see you all tomorrow.

well its going to be a long day. i have been awake since about 4am. i have my meeting at work to pick up my phone. i dont know what else i will have time for today. i am hurting today because of doing so much yesterday. i will be reloading the dehydrator later. i am also trying to think of something for dinner. reservations sounds like a plan to me. but with brent working until 830 its not going to happen. with covid and most places not being open much yet it wont happen any time soon.

much later. i made it to work and got my phone and schedule . i dont know how i am going to work back to back clients for 8 hours. guess i will find out on monday. i see 11 people on monday. tomorrow i see 6. i feel tired just thinking about it. the one good thing about this is i will be working in one place. so my fear of driving will go down, and the fear i had of trying to find street numbers in the dark. it has its good points and bad. i will try for the life of me to focus on the good.

we went out for dinner which i am very grateful for. i have left over for lunch tomorrow. i will eat before work and that will be it until the next day.

its 830pm and its dark out. fall is coming, and winter is not far behind.

i am really tired right now so i will close here for now and see you all tomorrow.

i was up very early today. around 6ish. i am worried about work. its been on my mind for a few weeks now but reality is setting in. i am worried i wont cut it. my fibro has gotten worse over the last 10 months. the pain is worse and i have lost alot of strength too.

plan for the day is to finish the orange jam. change the bed ,change the litter box. i have to remind brent to bring in the cat litter from the car.

so i got the dishes mostly done and more zuccini in the dehydrator. i chopped the orange peal up and put that into the dehydrator too. i will be canning the jam and mushrooms shortly. being as i am filling jars again i will have to sort out the shelves in the basement. i was so looking forward to sorting out the jars and organizing it the way i wanted. well brent decided he didnt like me working so slow and just put stuff on the shelves...didnt matter where. sigh... sometimes i really wish he would understand sometimes what he does is not helpful at all.

the rabbit likes zuccini...if its shredded. talk about a spoiled rabbit. all the creatures in this house are spoiled....except me.. i dont feel very spoiled right now. i feel some days all i do is work. i am learning that i need to make time for me, so i make time for my art

speaking of art i am still trying to figure out how to do the back of the trading cards. i know what it is supposed to say, but my printing is not the greatest right now so its hard to me to decide. i dont want it to look terrible.

my fear is ramping up about going back to work. my stomach is in knots and i cant sit still. i am so on edge. i dont want to snap at brent ., its not his fault i am freaking out so bad.

later. so jam is done and cooling, mushrooms cooked off and jarred and cooling. dinner made. faita chicken fingers and tex mex rice and homemade banana pudding. i am no where near hungry which is no surprise. i just took a pain pill so i hope to feel a bit better soon. dam i am tired. most of the dishes are done. bunny wont answer the dinner bell . i still want to go cut some more grass. i am making very slow progress on the orange bear. i cut up an old sheet that had a big hole in it and i didnt know what to do with. i am hand sewing it all as its too small for the sewing machine.

i stared to prepare some new cards for painting. after glueing and painting then waiting for things to dry, takes forever. i can now see why an artist would have more than one on the go. just like me with different knitting projects on the go. one for here and one to take with me.

i am going to close here for now and have a cup of tea and put my feet up for 10 min. then its time to go feed the birds. see you all tomorrow.